Chapter 2 Mounr Over Dead Wife

"I don't understand for how long are you going to mourn over her Neil???"

She was looking frustrated and was looking in the mood of killing him.

"What do you want me to do then??? I have nothing left Jenny. I have lost my child. My wife. My mom, I have no one now."

He said while taking another sip of beer. It's been an hour he was sitting there with his best friend, who wasn't just his shrink but also his ex-girlfriend.

"Come on Neil. I know it's hard. But gotta move on honey. Stop destructing yourself. Why aren't you seeing your potential?? You are wasting your life. Stop ruining your career. Please."

"I don't know. I don't feel any urge to get back to my life. It's over. I wanted to achieve all that for them, not for myself."

"It's been a year. She is dead. Why don't you accept that???"

"Please Please! Jenny doesn't say that. I know she is alive. She will be back. She can't leave me alone like that. She promised to be with me till the end."

"For god sake, Neil..stop doing this to yourself. She is dead. Just accept the fact."

"Please don't say that. You know I hate it when you say that. And don't try to be my shrink here. I called you here as a friend. So can you please be that for me???"

He was getting mad and then he realized that he has no one else left except her. He had been living his purposeless life after that tormented attack.

"Okay, Okay I am sorry."

Jenny immediately regretted what she said. She got near him and held his hand.

"I know I shouldn't be saying that. I know it's hurting you but I can't see you like that. You are more than a friend to me and you know that. Please stop doing this. Look at yourself. It's been a year. You haven't gone to work. Do you have any idea what's happening around???"

"I don't want to go to work. I don't want to do anything. Please stop giving me this sympathy. I know you are worried for me but stop that now, please. You can live your life. I don't want your concern."

He said that and it all came to her as a shock. She left everything behind for him and now he was treating her like trash.

"I can't believe you. I think you are right. You died with your wife last year and maybe I should mourn over you too. Bye."

She immediately got up and while tears rolled down her eyes she left the bar. He was still drinking his beer when he heard a ringtone.

It was Jenny's phone. It was on the desk. He must have forgotten that. It was an unknown number calling again and again. So after that, he picked it up.

Before he said anything someone spoke.

"Bitch Why the hell are you ignoring my call now??? You know you owe me a debt and remember what I said??? This is the last month. I am gonna get my money or get ready to be my slut."

He hung up the call and Neil was frozen there. He regretted his mistakes. He realized what happened around him. How hard Jenny was struggling and why the hell was she mad at him?

This was just the flat owner. How many more guys have been teasing her just because she was Taking care of a grown-ass man who had turned her life into hell?

He felt so ashamed and was hating himself even more for putting jenny into a situation like that. If he hadn't been selfish. They might have been living a balanced life.

All that night he regretted and he made a promise to himself that he would no longer take her for granted. She is his best friend. She had been through enough. No more suffering.

After that, he got up and went back to his flat. Jenny was sleeping and the condition of the flat wasn't that good.

He slept for a while and then he got up later in the afternoon. Jenny had already left for the clinic and He decided to start working too.

He shaved after so many days and wore his shirt and went to see her at the Clinic. She was so happy seeing him.

"Are you serious?? You are gonna join me now???"

"Yup. I am sorry for being a jerk. You are not going to take the responsibility all alone."

She hugged him and he was feeling a bit better now. He started working again and it's been a month since he started going out. They shifted to a new house and she asked him out on a date too but he refused.

"Jenny I know You like me but I can't love anyone else. I can't forget Hazel "

"I don't want you to love me back. I just want to stay with you. I want to take care of you. I have no one else in my life, Neil. Please. Let me do this."

"Please. Don't force me. You know we can't be together. I can never feel something for you. And I still love Hazel. You might believe that she is dead but I don't. "

"You are gone mad. Do you think she would have survived that blast??? No guard was there. No one was found. Just pieces of flesh and bones and thousands of them."

It just rewinds that horrible attack in front of his eyes.

"Please stop. Please. I know my Hazel wasn't there."

"Didn't you see her going in the house before the blast??? You dropped her there yourself. Why are you not admitting this now???"

Another guilt of leaving her there just to buy a gift for her to surprise her on her birthday. He didn't have any idea that he was sending her to a slaughterhouse. He regretted many things but not going in with her was the most regrettable and painful part.

"Stop it. I can't give you false hope. I am sorry. I don't think I am capable of love."

He said that and left her in the restaurant while he was taking a walk. He was just trying to believe that she wasn't dead. It was just his way of making himself comfortable with his guilt.

Deep down he feared that Jenny might be true. He might never meet Hazel again. He was unaware that the love of his life. His wife. The person he was dying to meet with was coming back to his life bringing a storm to torment him and he would regret his guilt and everything then.