Chapter 7 The Silence That Followed Him Everywhere

The Silence That Followed Him Everywhere

Rowan was known for something he had never learned how to outrunthe silence he left behind followed him, no matter where he went.

It followed him into the elevator that morning.

Into the quiet hum of the office.

Into the way people spoke to him and then stopped, as if sensing the distance before he ever said a word.

And now, it followed him back to Elira.

The day after he walked away from her in the stairwell, Rowan arrived at work with the uneasy feeling that something irreversible had already happened.

The office was alive with its usual noise, but none of it reached him. He dropped his bag by his desk, loosened his tie, and sat down without turning on his computer. His phone rested beside his hand, face down, heavier than it should have been.

He hadn't called her.

He hadn't texted her.

And the longer he waited, the harder it felt to start.

Across the room, Elira sat at her desk, posture composed, expression calm in a way that felt deliberate. She greeted Mira when she arrived. She answered emails. She moved through her morning as if nothing had shifted.

Rowan noticed everything.

What unsettled him most wasn't her distance.

It was her steadiness.

By midmorning, Mira leaned toward Elira again.

"You're very calm," she said quietly.

Elira didn't look up. "I'm practicing."

"Practicing what?"

"Not filling silence that isn't mine to fix."

Mira studied her face. "That sounds like a lesson learned the hard way."

Elira's fingers paused over her keyboard. "It is."

Rowan heard his name mentioned nearby and stiffened, but when he looked up, Elira wasn't looking at him.

That felt worse than anger.

At lunch, Rowan found himself standing in the break room, staring at the coffee machine without seeing it.

"Elira knows how to fix that," a voice said lightly behind him.

He turned to see Mira watching him with open curiosity.

"Yes," he said. "She does."

"She's good at fixing things," Mira added. "Especially things other people ignore."

Rowan nodded. "I've noticed."

Mira tilted her head. "Have you?"

Her tone wasn't accusing. Just honest.

Rowan didn't answer.

Later that afternoon, Elira stepped into the stairwell again.

This time, she didn't sit.

She stood near the railing, hands folded loosely in front of her, breathing in the quiet. She wasn't waiting for Rowan.

She told herself that until she believed it.

The door creaked open behind her.

She didn't turn.

"I thought you might be here," Rowan said.

Elira closed her eyes briefly, then faced him. "You always do."

He swallowed. "I didn't mean"

"I know," she said gently. "You never do."

They stood there, the familiar echo wrapping around them like a memory neither wanted to name.

"I've been thinking," Rowan said.

"That's dangerous," she replied softly.

He almost smiled. "I deserve that."

She waited.

"I don't like silence," he continued. "But I'm good at creating it."

Elira nodded. "You are."

"That's not something I'm proud of."

"Then why keep doing it?"

The question wasn't sharp. It was tired.

Rowan looked down at the floor. "Because silence feels safer than saying the wrong thing."

"And what if silence is the wrong thing?" she asked.

He looked up at her then, eyes searching. "Then I don't know how to fix it."

She exhaled slowly. "You don't fix silence, Rowan. You replace it."

"With what?"

"With honesty," she said. "Even when it's messy."

He hesitated. "What if honesty costs me you?"

Elira's chest tightened. "What if silence already is?"

That landed heavily.

That evening, Rowan walked home instead of driving.

The city moved around him cars rushing past, people laughing, voices overlapping but he felt oddly detached from it all. Elira's words replayed in his mind, not accusing, not dramatic.

Just true.

What if silence already is?

When he reached his apartment, he stood by the door longer than necessary before going inside. His phone buzzed in his pocket.

For a moment, hope surged.

It wasn't her.

He stared at the screen, then locked the phone without reading the message.

Across the city, Elira sat by her window, the lights dim, the room quiet.

She wasn't waiting for a message.

She told herself that too.

Her phone lay on the table beside her, untouched. She picked it up once, turned it over, then set it back down.

If Rowan wanted to speak, he knew where to find her.

And if he didn't

She pressed that thought away, not ready to finish it.

The next morning, Rowan arrived early again.

So did Elira.

They noticed each other at the same time.

"Morning," he said.

"Morning," she replied.

Nothing more.

The silence between them wasn't hostile. It wasn't cold.

It was careful.

Later, Rowan stopped by her desk.

"Can we talk?" he asked quietly.

Elira looked up at him, really looked at him, as if measuring something.

"Yes," she said. "But not in the stairwell."

He blinked. "Why not?"

"Because that's where we go when we don't want to be seen choosing anything," she replied.

He absorbed that slowly. "Okay. Where then?"

She stood, picking up her bag. "Outside."

They walked together without touching, the late afternoon sun casting long shadows on the sidewalk.

Rowan stopped near the corner.

"I don't want to keep repeating this," he said.

"Then don't," Elira replied.

"I don't want to be the reason you harden."

She met his eyes. "Then don't make me."

He ran a hand through his hair. "I'm afraid that if I speak, I won't be able to take it back."

She nodded. "Some things aren't meant to be taken back."

They stood there, the city breathing around them.

"Elira," Rowan said, voice low. "If I say something now... it will change things."

She didn't look away. "They're already changed."

He took a breath, steadying himself.

"I don't want"

His phone buzzed.

Again.

The sound cut through the moment like a blade.

Rowan's shoulders stiffened instinctively. Elira saw it, felt something inside her finally still.

She stepped back.

"Answer it," she said quietly.

Rowan looked at her, torn. "I don't want to."

"Then don't," she replied. "But don't stand here pretending it doesn't matter."

The phone buzzed again.

Rowan's hand closed around it, indecision written across his face.

Elira took another step back, distance growing between them.

"This is what I mean," she said softly. "The silence always wins."

Rowan opened his mouth to speak

And stopped.

He looked down at the phone.

Then at her.

And for a moment, Elira thought he might finally choose differently.

The phone buzzed a third time.

Rowan turned away.

Elira didn't call his name.

She didn't reach for him.

She watched him walk away, the quiet following him like a shadow.

And this time, she didn't feel surprised.

She felt something else instead.

Resolve.

Whatever came next, she knew one thing with painful clarity

She could no longer keep loving someone who only found his voice when it was already too late.