Chapter 6 I hate that I still love y

Days later I wake up ,my eyes red and puffy my lips dry because of me crying the previous night. Claudia who once was my office rival,now is the only one who is with me now. She wakes up earlier to prepare breakfast for me then leaves a note "IM HEADING TO WORK ,EAT THIS AND LET'S MEET AT WORK LATER" . I just smile weakly at the letter then eat my breakfast, pancakes and coffee. Then I go to my room and take shower,and later I drive to work. Again I arrive late. As usual the boss summons me. Today he is a bit soft ,maybe he heard what happened. He motions me to sit that we need to talk.

I just sit without hesitation because I don't want any more trouble or stress right now.

"Joestassy......I.....I heard what happened between you and Eli .....I'm sorry for that..... do you want a day or a week off"

Well I really want it. I just nod my head ,still looking sad,and not smiling as I am always. He approves and tells me tomorrow not to show up I need to rest. He gives me a month off. Well I'm glad atleast I'll do something else with my life,I'll get better sleep,yes.

I then go to my desk, obvious near Noah and Eli. I put on ear pods and starts listening to music as I try to work. I can feel everyone's stare,I don't remember promising anyone anything. Noah removes my left ear pod and just "Joestassy....no even goodmorning" I just look at him and head back to work. Eli too takes my right ear pod now leaving me with no earpod.

"You can't just ignore us forever, just say hi,it won't kill you"

I just look at him with hurt expression,he just smirk like he doesn't care,but somehow he looks concerned by the change of my behavior.

"I hate that I still love you Eli" I say with tear stained face,"I really hate that,It hurts,I never wanted to be like this, being hurt by you"

Eli eyes softens as he filled with guilt and anger. He gives me my earpod and then goes to washroom,not because he wants to but because he is feeling guilty and don't want to see my face.

Noah too gives me my earpod and follows his 'daddy' .Once in washroom,Noah hugs Eli from the back. And whispers sweet nothings to him. Eli hugs him back assuring him that he is ok and trying to get over me but he can't. They start kissing while in bathroom and door closed to avoid destruction.

"Eli...we can't do this here"

"We'll be fast and silent" Eli captures Noah's lips into another fierce kiss as he touches him all over and turns him so that he is looking at the wall. Eli then removes his dick and slowly inserts into Noah's ass making Noah squirm in sweet pain. Eli closes his mouth to make him not make noise as he thrusts in him ,not making a sound. He continues thrusting in him till they both reach their climax. Then later comes back to their seats.

At coffee break,I don't move from my desk, I'm barely talking to anyone, Claudia brings me my coffee trying to give me some space.

I immediately go to my car,I don't care about being fired or whatever,but I drive home three hours earlier before the end of my shift. My co workers are really concerned,some sending me messages,some calling me. They are really worried about my well-being and my strange behavior.

At night I hear a knock at my door. And then door just opens without me opening, obvious it's Claudia because she has my spare key. I'm in the dark just seated without even seeing who is the person.

"Claudia....you here?" I say without looking.

"Love .....it's me......Eli" a deep voice says.

What the fuck does he even want from me now . I know I still love him but he is gay and he is eating dicks , sucking other men's dick,not kissing pussy. He hugs me from back as he starts to apologize about what he did,he was under influence. Seriously,for a month. I'm not gonna believe that.I continue keeping quiet. He comes Infront of me and gently holds my hand ,

"I'm sorry, please just look at me babe,I still love you,and you know that I do, please forgive me,I just can't ignore Noah,he is good too,but you are the person I love,only you,babe.... please say something..... please say you forgive me" He says now tears rolling down his face ,well I know they are crocodile tears .

Later we on bed cuddling,oh god I even forgot he is not straight,why am I cuddling with gay. I've only cuddled with my gay friend and only Claudia. I feel so uncomfortable. But I can't deny that I like it. He starts peppering my neck with kisses leaving visible hickeys as he continues grazing my neck. He start touching my thighs,as I feel his cock already stretching and I can feel it on my ass. He hovers over me And looks at me with lustful eyes as he starts unbuttoning my shirt,and captures my lips with deep , passionate rough kiss. He positions himself between my legs as I can feel his breath ragged.

"I missed this,I really want you baby" He says now I'm all naked and he is naked too. He starts sucking my nipples adding more pleasure to me as I moan slowly.

I immediately start sucking his dick,as he thrust into my mouth,we are so lost in the moment,as he moan and continue sucking his dick and balls. Later he reaches his climax and I can feel his cum in my mouth and they are the best by the way. Without asking,he immediately pushes me to bed and immediately starts licking and sucking my clit as he thrusts his fingers in me adding me more pleasure. After a while I squirt and cum. He gives me a smirk. And immediately inserts his Dick in me ,I mean louder, because it's been long since we fucked and he has become more long and huge. Noah must be feeling good,but since today it's my turn let me enjoy it.

He roughly thrusting in me and he gives me messy kiss and we lost in the moment and I feel fucking good. He fuck me making me cum again. He turns me around for another round giving me rough doggy. I can't help but scream his name, and he gives smirk and go deeper as I scream , telling him to stop but he doesn't.

Later after an hour of love making he collapses on top of me ,both of us breathing heavily.

"I missed you" He says

"I missed you more" I say kissing him.

Without asking again he pushes his dick inside my pussy as I cry out loud.

"Babe .... relax.... this is the last round I promise" he says thrusting roughly in me as I squirt but he doesn't stop,he go deeper and roughly almost hurting.