Chapter 10 Sorry this is chapter 7

The following morning I wake up sore,tired and also regretful. I wrap myself in my robe and get out of bed and leave Eli still sleeping on my bed. How stupid am I ,by allowing him to sleep with me and even making out with me, it's seriously shouting desperation. I head to the living room where I find Marco my best friend looking at me angrily. I sense there's something wrong,he is even with his 'situationship' .

"Hi Marco ,hi Atticus" I say with a shaky voice and feeling a bit guilty.

"Joestassy are you that stupid, seriously,did that man sleep here?" Marco says angrily as his boyfriend tries to calm him down. Before I answer,Eli comes from the bedroom fully dressed like he is ready to leave,he answers coldly

"Yes I slept with her.....and we had a great night......do you have problems with that?"

I can see that Marco is getting angry,he is always like my big brother and doesn't tolerate anyone hurting me even a bit. He tries going where Eli is But his boyfriend hugs him from behind trying to calm him down. A fight erupts,a heated argument between Marco and Eli,they throw punches and blows. I try to separate them but they push me away , stumbling to the coach. With frustration is shout "GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE". Marco looks at me with a hurt expression,I didn't mean to send him away but for the sake of peace I had to shout at him. He looks at me then shakes his head in disappointment then leaves. I hope I've not lost my bestie I love him and losing him will make things worse.Eli looks at me with a mock smile the cups my face "You've fucked up hun"Before I say I word he leaves the room.

Left alone in the aftermath of chaos, I take a deep breath and try to gather myself together. It's time to pick up the pieces and move on from this destructive chapter of my life. Though losing Marco feels like an unbearable loss right now, maybe it's also an opportunity for growth and self-discovery. No longer will I allow myself to be swayed by empty promises or false affection. From here on out, it's time to prioritize self-love and surround myself with people who genuinely care about me.

I spend the next few days reflecting on what went wrong with Marco and Eli. I realize that I had been seeking validation and affection from the wrong people, neglecting my own self-worth in the process. It's time to focus on healing and rebuilding myself, finding solace in new hobbies and interests.

In an effort to rebuild myself, I enroll in a yoga class at a local studio. Through the practice of mindful movement and deep breathing, I begin to reconnect with my body and find inner peace. Each stretch reminds me of the strength within me, both physically and emotionally. Slowly but surely, I start to regain confidence in myself and let go of past mistakes.

No matter which path I choose - whether it be art, nature, or yoga - one thing is certain: this journey towards self-discovery will lead me to new beginnings and brighter days ahead.