Chapter 9 It's hard to face reality

Days pass and I'm still getting used to living in an hotel and also adjusting to the new environment.But while being there I can't help but be haunted by my house memories. I spend most of the time looking at the photos I have and also the pictures of Eli smiling,I try to stalk his Instagram account but I'm glad he is happy without me. I understand he is gay but it still hurts, my first love ,my first kiss ,my first sex has become my enemy and total stranger. I feel a tear fall down my cheeks and I can't help but sob softly. My phone ring multiple times but I ignore .

I just want to be away from the echoes of the world and I just want some peace of mind.

At night I just toss on bed I can't sleep ,my mind is so crowded with all types of emotions. I cry myself to sleep,and I can't help but have nightmares making it difficult for me to sleep well.

On the other side Eli and Noah are in their room enjoying their time together. Eli is sitting on a couch reading a novel and Noah is on his phone his head on Eli's lap. Eli then kisses his forehead and gives him possessive smile.

"You so handsome" ~Eli

"So are you,the face card never decline"~Noah

They capture each lips in deep fierce kiss as Eli carried Noah to bed. They continue kissing deeply touching each other almost like mastering each other body. They start undressing their lips not separating a bit.

"You taste good baby"~Eli

After undressing and now naked,Noah starts sucking Eli's dick and his balls as Eli thrusts in his mouth in soothing manner. Eli's fingers slowly brushing Noah's hair as he is almost cumming. Without a waste of time , he cums in Noah's mouth. He later positions himself into Noah's ass and slowly push his dick in . Noah moans loudly as they start making out, occasionally changing positions. Eli becomes more and more erotic and more rough lost in the moment. Noah moans and scream his name.

Following day, I wake up but I feel like someone is with me in my hotel room. My heart beats fast as I get out of my bed and take my scissors and walk slowly to the kitchen where the noise is coming from. As I am about to make my move of stabbing the person he turns..... ATTICUS!!!!!..... Marco's boyfriend. He puts his hands up in surrender. I immediately ask him what he is doing in my room and tells me Marco sent him to see and help me. I don't ask him why but just allow him continue what he was doing.

But wait why though,why do I feel like something is wrong somewhere. Why was Atticus looking at me like that. I just ignore it and go back to my bed. He later comes out of kitchen carrying a tray of food and immediately I dig in. He keeps on stealing glances at me which somehow makes me uncomfortable. Marco didn't tell that he will send his boyfriend to help me, Claudia can help me too. After I'm done eating I take the tray to the kitchen and I immediately head to bathroom. Well Atticus still can't take his eyes off my figure well I'm not giving a fuck about that.

After taking shower I come out of bathroom wrapped in a towel and Atticus still sitting on a couch somehow on his phone. Well I'm comfortable like that because I know he is gay and doesn't have feelings for girls. He immediately stands and stands near me his chest touching my back. What's going on?I look at him through mirror and ask him what he is doing but he immediately removes my towel and drops it on the floor leaving me fully naked, revealing my whole body. I still stand still as my nipples starts getting hard and rising straight. I can feel shivers all over my body and I feel something I have never felt.

"Atticus you know this is not right,you are my best friend boyfriend"

"I just can't resist this beautiful body Infront of me , please allow me this once,Marco won't know,I swear"~Atticus

He starts nibbling my shoulder, peppering it with kisses not enough to leave hickeys. He turns me around and carries me to bed. I help him undress revealing his chest and his hard dick ,I can see the veins in his dick and how he is looking at me with much desire. He then catch my lips in fierce kiss as he starts to finger me and rubbing my clip as I moan . He continues fingering me sending me to pleasure. I moan and kiss him as he is still fingering me and hitting that sweet spot.

"I like those sounds you make,cum for me look at me and cum "

I immediately cum as I reach my climax. He licks his hands in erotic manner.

"Do you have protection"I ask him

"I need it raw"~Atticus

He immediately insert his long,big dick in me as I moan loudly and he closes my mouth with his free hand. He starts thrusting I'm me and I continue moaning as he holds my neck sending more pleasure to me. He fuck me roughly and fast making me cum multiple times. After an hour of love making he dresses up and looks at me

"I'll come back tomorrow,bye"

Just like that? I feel like my body is not mine anymore. At night I get a notification from Eli,that he is at my front door I open . I get confused why he is there,but I just open the door revealing him carrying a flower and a bit different. He hugs and me give me the flowers. I just thank him and allow him in.

Without asking he immediately start kissing me,I get surprised at first but I melt in it. He pushes me against the wall as his grip on my thighs almost rough and possessive. He lifts my shirt revealing my bare chest and no underwear. He immediately wastes no time but pushes his dick in me giving me standing missionary style. He becomes rough and almost forceful. He then pushes me to bed giving me rough doggy style as I cry and scream trying to push him but he overpowers me. He continues thrusting in me making sure he hurts me enough. After intense love making. He looks at me and possessively says"I own you,no one else is allowed to touch you,you hear me?,No one else only me"

Just like that he leaves me in the hotel room hurt and injured as I cry due to the pain .

Days later I decide to take matters into my own hands.