Chapter 10 X

Victor

"When are you going to mark you mate?" Jake asks me.

We are doing some monthly reports, and the question takes me by surprise.

"I will. Soon."

What am I supposed to say? That I changed my mind? That I want the one that was my first mate? That I screwed things so badly, and I hurt Elly by rejecting her? That everywhere I go, I feel her scent? That I can't sleep, or when I sleep, I think only of her? That I broke the mating bond, and it is impossible to get it back? And the worst thing is that I am getting obsessed with Elly. I tried following her a few times, but she always goes into the forest. I wonder why is she going day by day into the forest? One day I will have to find out.

I tried to find a way to reverse the rejection. So far, I have had no luck. I don't think it is away.

I wonder if I can convince Elly to be mine. Sure, she won't be the Beta female, but I would give her a house and kids, if she ever wants them.

Then I can mark Daisy without losing Elly.

I will have to talk with Elly as soon as possible.

Elly

"I missed you too," I tell him and return the kiss.

"Are you ready to see the lunar eclipse?" Kain asks.

"Yes. Are we going to see it from here?"

"No. I think that the little clearing, next to the cabin it is a better place."

I know only one cabin in this forest. It was build ten years ago by the former Alpha to spend time with his mate, away from the pack. After the death of the former Luna, the cabin was forgotten. Until Kain.

I have visited the cabin, and I know it is small. I am glad that Kain gets to use it. From what I heard, the former Alpha spent a long time with his Luna in that cabin. She died when witches attacked the pack.

And the clearing is very beautiful during the summer when it is full of life.

"I think it is a wonderful idea," I say.

Kain jogs over to where my backpack is and brings it over. He takes my hand into his, and we start walking to where the clearing is.

"How was your day?" he asks me.

I know how much he loves hearing about what I do when I am not with him, so I tell him what I did, leaving out the part with Victoria's Secret shop. I can feel myself blushing when I remember that Andrea forced me to wear, under my clothes, the black lingerie she got for me.

It's not that I am a prude or anything. I know how sex works, and I want Kain in that intimate way, but I am scared. I love the way we are right now and how he makes me feel.

Secure.

Protected.

Loved.

Cherished.

But what I love the most is that Kain never expects more than I can give him. Never wants more.

We walk slowly until we reach the clearing. Kain already prepared a blanket and some food.

"You think of everything, don`t you?" I ask him.

Kain chuckles.

"It is a habit I had to form quickly. When you are on your own, you have to learn lots of skills and acquire new habits. It is either that or sleep in the cold. Or starve Or both."

I wonder how many nights did Kain slept in the cold with an empty stomach?

I was lucky, I had Dan. He made sure I was always sheltered or feed. But Kain? He had to fight for everything he has. And he did it while he looked for me. How can someone love someone so much? How can Kain love me so much?

I lay on the blanket and gaze at the sky.

"What time is the lunar eclipse going to start?" I ask.

"Around 1.30 AM."

I look at my watch, only 10:47 PM.

Kain asks me something, but I feel my eyes heavier and heavier, and without knowing, I fall asleep. Someone takes me in his arms, and I try to open my eyes to see who it is.

"Go back to sleep," I hear Kain tell me, and I do just that.

I wake up sometimes later, in a bed that is not mine. But I am surrounded by the smell of Kain. I look around and realize I am in the cabin. How did I get here?

A moment ago, I was on the blanket, and now I am in...? Kain's bed? I blush.

I sit on the bed without making any noise and look around. The cabin is small and very simple, but it smells just like Kain.

I was wondering where Kain is when I see him in the door frame, his back at me. He is only wearing a pair of shorts. He looks so good, like one of Michelangelo's statues. So beautiful, so mine. I love him so much. Add I want him.

Andrea was right. I do want to spend the night with Kain. Not because I am curious about sex, or I want to finally do it. No. I want to be with Kain because I love him, and I want to express my love in a new way.

Am I scared? Yes. Not of sex, but because I have no experience. I don't know what to do.

Without making any noise, I get out of bed and take my t-shirt and shorts off. I am glad that Andrea made me wear the lingerie.

"Kain," I say in a soft voice.

He turns and looks at me, and oh God, he never looked at me like this.

Kain

I look at Elly as she sleeps next to me. Even when she sleeps, she is so beautiful, so peaceful.

I take her in my arms, and when she starts to wake up, I tell her to go back to sleep. I walk with her to the cabin, and I gently put her on the bed.

Seeing her on my bed stirs up new feelings and emotions, desire. But I push everything away. Elly will tell me when she is ready for more. Until then, I will wait.

I imagined her many times over the years, but I never thought that she would be so beautiful, so soft, so loving. And the way she looks at me with those chocolate eyes of hers. I crave for her all the time. It is not like I crave blood or food or any other thing, no, this is another type of craving that won't go away, no matter how much I touch or kiss her.

I brush the tip of my fingers on her cheek. Her skin is as soft as newborn skin. And her lips feel like silk.

I know that I don't tell her, but I constantly worry that we will get caught. That too soon, I will be separated from Elly. I want to ask her to run away with me, in a place where vampires and werewolves and laws and wars don't exist. A place where it will be just her and me and our love. A place where no one can reach us.

But I can't be so selfish. I know she loves her brother, and I have no doubt that Dan loves her. So, I will stay in the forest for as long as she wants me to.

If a day comes when she will tell me that she wants me gone, I will do so. No question asks. Even if it breaks me, but I will always put her happiness in the first place.

I take my camera and wait for the lunar eclipse to start. I wish that Elly could see this, but my pictures will be enough.

Soon I start taking pictures and I block everything else out.

I am not sure how much time has passed when I hear Elly calling my name. When did she wake up?

I turn, and... Jesus Christ!

I take a deep breath.