Chapter 10 10. Threat

Chapter 10.Threats

"What do you mean Bima?" I asked with a face that I made as flat as possible while he narrowed his eyes.

"I don't want you to know about our divorce because I'm not ready to tell you. You know that I have a history of heart disease and if..."

"I don't care!" I said. The man looked shocked by my current attitude, I showed a firm and defiant attitude.

I had given enough patience and stoicism, my respect and devotion had been completely wiped out by their arrogant and arbitrary attitude.

I didn't want to be treated like a fool anymore.

"I don't care about your mom! You don't even care about my mom, Bima! So... Why should I care about your business!" I said firmly. It succeeded in making the man's face dumbfounded.

All this time I had always shown a polite and respectful attitude towards him. But it all seemed unable to make him welcome my love. Or at least try to love me after he planted a seed in my womb.

But...

"I don't want my mom to know! Because it could be dangerous for her health. You can't be selfish..."

"Selfish? When was I selfish, Mas?" I interrupted him.

"Aren't you the selfish one? You want a divorce from me but you don't want your mother to know about it. What does that mean? You want me to take care of your mother, even though you've never taken care of my mother at all, why are you selfish Mas?"

I peppered the man with questions that made Mas Bima's face scrunch up in astonishment. Surely he didn't expect me to be so barbaric in the end.

The man snorted in annoyance, as if he was still surprised by my attitude that was not like before who obeyed his words. Or maybe he took offense to my calling him selfish? Whatever.

But my mind was made up that I no longer wanted to give in to anyone. In fact, the devotion, respect and good attitude I gave to the people around me, did not make them see that I was a good person. In fact, my kindness seemed to be taken advantage of by all parties.

And after all parties passed with their wishes, they easily discarded me.

I was determined that from today everything would change, including my attitude.

Mas Bima walked over to me.

"If you tell her that we're getting a divorce, Mama will definitely get a heart attack and it could cause her to die. So..."

"I have no obligation to look after your mother, Mas! You should take care of her yourself. You should have thought a thousand times about ending this marriage in such a bad way. You should have also looked at the impact it would have on you! But now that it's already happened... Then I demand that you inform Mama of our divorce."

But if you can't afford it, let me tell Mama. If necessary, I will tell Mama that the house that she has gifted me, you have given for free to the woman who threw you away," I added.

"Diandra!" said the man, looking angry. His eyes were now red, perhaps he was not used to the attitude I was showing at this time. Because all this time I have always been an obedient wife.

The irony is that for all of us, there's a big difference between good and bad. And perhaps in front of those people, my kindness looks like a fool.

"I won't let you tell Mama about our divorce! Give me time to..."

"There's no time Mas! After our divorce I won't show the bridge of my nose in front of you! And since the twins are still nursing, I'll take care of them," I interrupted.

I was deliberately pissing him off with my stubbornness at the moment.

I just wanted to show Mas Bima that my patience and fortitude had been eroded by his attitude and selfishness.

I don't mind if my love is unrequited. It's just that as a man I want him to be fair.

He wants to take care of his mother. That's good. But why should it involve me?

After all, he's never taken care of my mom, not even asking how my sickly mother is doing.

"If you tell Mama about our divorce, I will..."

"Please do whatever you want, Bima! Maybe I deserve to be treated like this by you. The last 3 years seem to have been a waste of all my devotion to you, huh," I said as I stepped away Then we faced each other. Staring at each other with a hateful gaze.

I could see the unacceptance shown on Bima's face towards me.

He must not have accepted my defiance.

But ... This is only a fingernail tip of the consequences that have been done to my life.

I brought my face closer to the man.

"You should have taken care of Mama's feelings before going this far. You wanted to marry Devina and divorce from me but without telling your mom. Even though you know that your mother has a deadly disease. Just so you know, Mas, losing a mother is like a day without the sun." I whispered. The man's face was shocked.

Ish! Your handsome face is so often shocked.

"I experienced it two weeks ago. Even the day my mother passed away, you even released the divorce for me. It was like sprinkling salt on a gaping wound," I whispered again.

Bima's face was stunned and pale when I told him the news of my mother's death.

Did the father of my children feel guilty?