Chapter 2 Confused

I'm a 25years level 400 student teacher. There's this lady in my grandfather's place that I befriended after completing SHS when I went to stay there. We both started teaching in a private school as we awaits our results. During those days, I never made a move or say anything to this lady but she started telling people in the neighborhood that we're dating when they ask her to the extent of telling my grandfather, who's known very well in the community. Fast forward I had admission and she also got admission to nursing training.

After our first semester, she noticed I usually talk and text with someone so she inquired about it and I told her she's a headmistress I met in school.

Fast forward, my relationship with my mistress grew stronger than before, still I didn't say anything to this girl. Around level 200 during the lockdown, she came to my room to help her with her assignment, One thing led to another and we had a hot sex which lasted for an hour. She has hopes of me proposing to her but I can't. Kofi, my reason is simple, I don't feel a thing for ladies of my age or beyond me. The youngest lady I've gone down with was 3years older than me so u can imagine. My first girlfriend whom I met and went down with in my mom's hometown during a festival was 19 while I was just 15. I can't tell her I'm having intimacy with my mistress who's 10years older than me. Currently I'm tossing a madam I met during my internship who's 12years older than me (37years).

I met her one da on campus I went straight to her and told her my mind , and we went our separate ways.