Chapter 4 4: My pain

"Are you guys really that cruel, David?" I gritted out the words, anger and hate overwhelming me, and I'm going to burst out soon.

"Brooke! What are you talking about?" He has the audacity to look innocent! Maximus and his pack are still the same, following Maximus blindly.

"Take the kid back to Maximus, David! I don't want to see his face again." I am on the last thread of my patience, and I really don't want to lose in front of the kid.

"But Brooke! Listen to me once." He is so stubborn, making me lose all control.

"I said, Take him back, David! I don't want anything to do with you guys! Get out!" I once again warned him, but the kid moved close to me and held my hand to gain my attention.

"Miss Brooke, please help me find my mother. I saw you are an awesome investigator, and I want your help." He didn't even know how to pronounce the investigator properly.

If my son was alive, he would have been the same age as him, and seeing him here made my stomach clench painfully and remind me of the painful days when I lost my child and how much I had to endure her loss.

"I said, get out! Tell Maximus to stay away from me and to never contact me again. Go!" I screamed, scaring the kid and startling David with my outburst.

I feel guilty that I had to scream to make them leave and scare the kid away, but seeing the kid in front of me is making me remember my daughter and the time I struggled to save her, running clinic to clinic and crying for every penny when I should have been with Maximus, and our daughter should have been alive right now with me and her father.

Maximus's selfishness and greed killed my daughter and made me childless.

"Seriously, Brooke? Is this the way to talk to a kid? He is just a child, and he didn't do anything wrong." Shame and embarrassment filled me. This is not me!

I am sorry, I should get going." I ran away from them, not wanting to show them how much guilt was consuming me, and the pain of losing my daughter started eating me up slowly after seeing Maximus's kid.

I hastily went to my apartment and tore the dress I wore, thinking Maximus was waiting for me! How dumb and stupid I was to get ready for him!

I have no shame, even after losing my baby because of him. He has no idea how much he has hurt me, and I will never forgive him or forget anything.

I collapsed on the ground and hugged my body in a fetal position, crying into my stomach, thinking back to how alone and lost I was and how helpless I was when my son needed care and help to cure him, but I lost him due to my bad luck.

When I came here, I met Kathy, who gave me a job after I lost my baby girl and helped me for some time till I stood up on my legs, and I also met Scarlett, who was with me every second of my pregnancy, helping me with everything and taking care of my son in my absence.

I will always be grateful to Scarlett for her kindness.

I was eighteen when I found out I was pregnant right after I left the pack and did several jobs to feed myself, and at that time I met Scarlett, who encouraged me and helped me find good jobs.

Everything was fine after I met Scarlett, and my pregnancy went without any complications, but good times have validity. When my son was two years old, he started having intense fevers, and his fever got so bad that he stopped breathing and left me all alone in this cruel world.

That was the day I cursed my existence and wanted to end everything. I never thought I would get the luck to become a mother, but when I found out that a tiny baby was growing inside me, I felt like everything would be alright and I had a reason to live, but the moon goddess snatched it from me, kicking me in the stomach and making me empty once again.

I started sobbing so hard thinking about my Baby's blue face on his last day on earth. How he struggled to breathe and stay with me. He was the little fighter and fought till the end to stay with his mommy.

He would have been six years old to this day.

Seeing Maximus's kid today has made me feel the same pain I felt the day I lost him.

He is still hurting me without any shame or guilt.

A knock on the front door made me get up from the floor. I washed my face and went towards the door to open it, and to my surprise, David was standing outside the door.

"How did you know my address?" I scowled at him; he didn't wait for me to welcome him inside before he entered my apartment, bumping into my shoulder.

Like Maximus and me, David also grew up with us, and we were friends before they believed and supported Maximus more than me.

"I didn't say you were welcome inside, and where is the kid?" It's not like I want to see him again, but there is no one here they can trust to leave the kid with.

"You don't have to worry about him, Brooke, as you don't know how to treat kids now." I know he is trying to make me feel guilty.

"I'm sorry, okay, I was so angry that I lost my cool. I told you to take him and leave, but you were being so stubborn." I huffed, anger once again trying to consume me.

"You always like the kids back home, Brooke. What changed!" Wow! He has the audacity to ask that.

"YOU ARE ASKING ME THAT, DAVID!" I gritted out every word slowly. He seriously thinks I forgot everything his Alpha did to me!

"Yes Brooke, I Am asking why you are being so rude to a kid when you used to love kids." He can't even comprehend how you feel when you lose your child. How painful it will be to get your kid snatched away from you abruptly.

"I hate your Alpha, David, and that is the only reason I lashed out. Don't bring that kid again in front of me." I don't know what I will do if he comes in front of me.

I already have enemies trying to hunt me down and kill me. I don't want any more complications in my life.

I've suffered a lot already, and I don't want Maximus to make my life hell again.