Chapter 5 Reminiscence

Then she led me and gently made me sit on her bed.

"A transmigrator... how could such a thing happen?"

"Hmmm, I'm not really sure...but doesn't it usually happen after death? I mean, it has always been like that in all the novels I have read so far. Character X dies in her original world but she or he suddenly wakes up to find herself or himself possessing another person in another world."

"Dead? Did you die too?"

"I guess I did."

Aira said with a shrug. She was so calm on the subject of someone who has actually died.

"How...?"

I meant to ask how is she so calm when talking about her own death but I guess she misinterpreted my question.

"That... I don't really remember how I actually died... most of my memories of that world is now blurred... but strangely only the content of this book is still vivid."

"Then if you're here, what happened to the original soul of Aira?"

"Ah, that. It seems that the original Aira also died. When I woke up, the guys from the orphanage said that it was quite a miracle that I survived. Aira seems to have suffered from Hyperpyrexia, and her body temperature was around 40 or 41°C. But because the orphanage was poor, they couldn't afford to call any doctor."

Hearing her words something suddenly flashed in my head.

[You really brought her at the right time.]

[If you were just a little late, the girl would have died. There was too much blood loss.]

Arin who has committed suicide could have died.

***

It was on the 2nd day after I returned back. Unable to bear the loss of my sister in the future, I sneaked into the house when that man went on a business trip.

The servants here also do the bare minimum when their master is away.

Although the young lady of the house is here, they all left at 6:30 pm leaving the already prepared food on the table.

How angry I was at the sight. The lady of the house is eating cold food!

I just came on a whim and I don't even know how to face my sister. But I want to see her breathing and alive not just a cold corpse.

But the house was just so calm. Not a single sound could be her. I wondered if Arin wasn't home but it can't be. I was sure she was the only one staying home. I had a bad feeling so I rushed through all the bedroom doors on the second floor and stood through a slightly open door. Through the gap, I could see a young girl collapsing on the floor. I stopped breathing for a moment. No, no. Please...

I dashed inside and it was indeed Arin, there was also a knife on the floor near her and she seems to have cut her wrist with it.

Suicide... she committed suicide... why?

No this wasn't the time to be lost in thoughts like this.

I hurriedly took her to the hospital and fortunately, her life was saved in time.

When she woke, Arin state was still so unstable and in intense fear. The doctor said she had a mental breakdown which caused her to have self-harm thoughts and actually do it.

I wanted to find out what actually happened but I didn't want to make her remember anything bad. So I first told her about my identity as her 'older' twin brother, I also told her about our parents.

Arin's state at the beginning was really weird, more like brainwashing, as if she can't live and can do nothing without that family. Her self-esteem seems to be so down.

I have been working hard to make her know the true face of that man and she finally seems to be getting out of that brainwashing. But I'm still reluctant to send her back, especially when Arin said with a darkened expression that the real daughter will be back.

***

If I was just a little late would that mean that I would have lost my sister and another soul would have transmigrated into her body like what happened to Aira?

I don't know if I should tell her the truth or not... she doesn't seem to have anything to do with that man rather she seems to want to be freed from him.

Let's do this for now.

"I... I don't know how to say this but actually... I'm not the transmigrated Arin."

***

Arin suddenly dropped a bomb.

Not the transmigrated Arin?

Gasp!

OMG! What have I done?

I stood up hastily. If she's not the transmigrated Arin then she's the original Arin.

And I have been babbling all this time. I'm ruined, I don't know the original Arin personally but through how the transmigrated Arin described her, she seemed to be a good girl who listen well to her father.

They won't she tell that man about what I have just said?

Why did I talk before making sure she wasn't the original Arin? I regret it so much!!

Now what should I do? How can I get out of this situation? Should I say I was joking?

No, who would believe me if I say I was joking? Even I won't believe myself ╥ω╥

Should I say, I had a dream and these things I just said were the content of the dream?

I dunno, I dunno...

It was when my brain was rolling hard searching for a plausible excuse, Arin added fast.

"Wait wait. Let me talk first. What you said indeed is hard to believe but since you who are not from this world are right in front of me as proof... I will try to believe it. So, to sum things up, you said you are on Arin's side because you felt a sense of comradery as you both have a bad ending and that you want to change that ending for both of you. You said that the original Aira has died So that's how you possessed her body."

"Yeah..."

" To be honest, I was also about to die."