Chapter 4 10 years ago

For all of the time, even 10years pass by since then My lifelong regret that I am not there at your side when you need me"_ Andy Anderson

35-year-old Rayleigh

10year old Andy

10years ago,

(in the hospital)

Andy pov

Silent

it always silent in this place

I only heard singing from the birds outside with that open window of my room

And sunlight through this room. Its good weather may be to go out in this place, take some fresh air,

Maybe late ask to walk, I sigh

But I am not allowed to overworked or to be tired since the doctor always reminds me of this

My health is not good, my heart is not allowed to be tired since this heart of mine did have something wrong

This heart of mine has a hole that needs to be replaced or death led me earlier at that

Since my first fainting, the doctor told me that I need to have an operation or else I die

But the donor of the heart was the only problem. they can't find a donor for me

My mom was anxious about this, I don't have to choose and I can't help her with this

Since I was a child I have always been a fragile, sick one but she didn't give up and care about me since we only have each other

My mom and I was the only one left and we have each other since my dad was not with us. Since I was 5years old when he left us that day

The day my life change, I still remember that time, I still heard in my ears the cries and gunshots

My dad cried to us to run and the face of fear and tears from my mom

And the truth of the death of my dad, I know this since that man from the palace come and tried to talk to my mom. The man who said my dad's friend and warns us about the danger would happen to us especially me

In my 10year of life, I know I am a prince with a weak heart. And my dad was a former king who was kicked out and framed by his brother and became an emperor since I was too young to rule. I am just a kid even the former king, my father criminal or a sinner still I will be a choice to be a crown since my uncle can't have a child on his own. The both of them, his wife have a problem and the only two brothers can sit on that throne That is why my dad the king left the throne I would be the next but my mom took me and left the palace with my dad running away. The chase has begun

And that chase hunt, my dad lose his life and my mom and I survive

I want to live and take revenge on my uncle the king and to take his head

At this young age of nine, I would never forget the sins of that bastard man who ruined my life and family

In this heart that restrains me from that plan

Staying in this hospital bed, for almost 5months (come in and out from this place)

My mom was always missing every time I up, and the doctor came in to check me, and my heartbeat

For almost the months still no news about the donor so the operation was postponed

Until one day, I decided to take advantage of this time, myself to go out on my own

When I walking and pass the first room I through (it's a monitor room) I open it the door and then I saw the man lay in there

The man was peacefully asleep alone, I came into the room he has been staying, silently, no sound to made

Until I was standing in there and see this man closer look

I just climb at the chair first then look at the man,

The man was looked trouble at his sleep like he has nightmares, he frowns

So I touch his eyebrow to calm him down and I fulfilled while looking at this man I did not notice the machines in there (it's like supporting him) and he looked pale

I think he was not okay with his situation. I wanted to call some doctor for him when this man hold my hand

He awake staring at me, with that his green eyes of his, even his face and all was in pain but his eyes say otherwise he worried about me (why he worried about me since he was in pain and need to be treated)

Even he doesn't say anything I know what he wants to say to me whlookinglook at me at his green eyes who been pure and honest

I remember that I was going out of my room without no one knowing

The man pointed the jug of water and a glass at the side table, I followed it and reach for him, I help him sit up before I give him a glass of water then he looked at me his concern, the man tried to talk, but at first, nothing coming out until he did speak

The man arouse voice but he tried to speak

"I think you must go back," this man says

I just looked at me and shakes head

"I just call a doctor for you"

He tried to reach my hand and I lean close at him so he can hold it, and the man hold my hand then he smile (half of his mouth)

"I can manage this boy," the man said, after he ask water from me and drank it

I suddenly awarded at myself that I became stubborn, I don't want to follow on what he had been mumbling about it

"No, if you don't like to call a doctor then let me stay here, let me help you" I responded, determine

The man sigh and he tap his side of his bed, so I get up to his bed and sit beside him

"Okay, boy I let you become my guest today," the man said like he have no choice, I just grinned as I won

The man just looks at me, without the smile on his lips I can't since there was something that helps him breathe, but his eyes say always glad to see me when I get out of my room again since it's not far away from his

He did try to take off the things in his mouth and talk to me, in his side waiting for me to wake since every day since I came for him, he slept for long, 4to 8 hours, I wait or I walk in this room in and out without someone in this room since this room he was alone, no one came except the doctor and nurses will help him

I took advantage when no doctor or nurse to check him or mine on my heart, I go to the man's room like it's my routine, to see him and talk to him

Since then, it has not become bored at all, like I have a reason to live on

He is one of the reasons I want to have a new heart to beat in my chest, besides revenge in this mind of the 10years old child

I know a little bit of this man, his name is me, Rayleigh, he looks young and he was 32 years old

I want to ask about what illness he had, but he didn't speak up, he just change the topic, even without a word I understood what he means

But I tried to his illness without him knowing,

After two weeks it's seem I can't talk to him the reason was every time I sneak out, there was always a doctor and nurse checking at him, monitoring him

Also, I saw some new machine connected to him now, it seems so painful

I want to come into the room but my nurse stop me because it's forbidden to come in that room, and the few days, Mr. Rayleigh was transferred to ICU, the cause of his illness, they can't pinpoint since it makes complicated

The ICU was 6room from mine, so it's so far to mine so I can't visit him

I think he became worst and I want to know but my doctor and nurse know about my sneaking out, and I know it's dangerous to me too tired or does anything that's why they monitor every move that makes me mad, my mom knows and scowl me big time

That's why I didn't know what happen to Mr. Rayleigh, know about his life and himself

I regret it, and I started to weaken since my heart slowly beat affected me so much, so the doctor tell I just need the operation or else I die

But I don't have a heart yet so it's useless

My mom worried and cried every time I fall asleep, I am too weak to open my eyes, but I heard her

I was worried too, but my mind was on the man that I admire, and I like (yes, I like him as a big brother) Mr. Rayleigh since I don't have news about him

It's been a month and I was worried, who knows what happen to him

After 3months, the doctor came and info to us that there was a donor who donate his heart, but we need to check if are connected, or if it reject my body

The news was good and I know I will live more enough

I hope it when we'll

After a week the operation started, since the heart was healthy and good for me

I was thankful to the donor I want to know who that person is

The operation begins, it takes 20- 22 hours the operation going

The heart didn't reject by the body, it fits well, the operation was a success but monitored after the operation

I have no news about Mr. Rayleigh, since then

No one tell me, and my mom didn't tell me

Mom know who he was since I am talking about him after I caught up

Mom didn't speak to me after he talk to Dr. Santos

"Mom, did you know where is me Rayleigh is?" I ask to him

Mom just looked at me sadly and said

"We will talk later, son" she squeezes his hand while she holds it

At night, at home we talk and I didn't expect to know that Mr. Rayleigh was gone, a week before my operation and the heart that has now was from Mr. Rayleigh who donate his heart to me, the only thing left who been healthy since his all part of his body was not function and not healthy at all

I don't know what he meant about, I felt betrayed and like I won't faint at any minute since my heart beating faster

My mom panic and come me down

I lost him, I lost him forever

He left me

No

I just cried while putting my hand in my chest while crying

It's unfair

I cried all of it and he never heard my plea and how sorry I am