Chapter 4 Concern

"What? Is he mad? That fucking irresponsible jerk is mad I know why he does this to you?"

"Look at you if I’m a boy then definitely my heart chooses you. But who the fuck is Lizz?" She throw my favorite pen in the trash that Elathan gave me when he take me first time on a date.

"I don't know." Feeling low after so much crying my body losing control.

"In one month how he decided that he fall in love with Lizz. She is a totally shit girl. I know she is now in college and her group is different and you know she also gives me some negative vibes. She is like a dark girl you know like mafia don girlfriend black short hair, full of plastic surgery and brown eyes and there is nothing compared with you. You are like the ocean see your eyes are dark blue and light brown hair so simple. Elathan's choice is like him bullshit."

What happening to me? Why is my heart giving me also negative thoughts? Ugg... I want someone for holding me. No one is here with me.

"I want to go home can you just ..” Dazzy help for getting up. My whole face giving a red signal when I saw my reflection in the mirror. Bloodshot eyes with red nose my whole face looks like a joker.

We skip our classes. Reaching home I came straight into my room and hold a pillow for support in sorrow. Why so much pain? My eyes leaking until I fell asleep. My eyes open with a soft knock on my door.

"Angel? Are you awake?" Elathan's sound awakes me fully. My body again start reacting but wait he hurt me how can I forget? He is here why? Please leave me alone go just go away. my mind and heart aren't working.

"Open the door kitty," he called me kitty with love always I don't know why? And I never asked him.

"Are you ignoring me? hmm." Shutting my mouth and eyes I try to stop my idiot heart who's still beating for him. How does he know me very well?

"Kitty I’s looking for you in college and you are not there. You ignored my calls and messages, there is no answer. My mind is not working so I came here and now Duchess told me you are sick." How I’m going to handle this situation? Just go normal okay.

Easy

Wiping my face my foot touched the cold ground and opening the door I found a beautiful face full of concern.

"Here you’re." His soft eyes checking my whole face. What are you looking for? There's love for you just watch and feel this.

"What happened? Are you crying?”

Yes for you

Yes because of you. Because you love someone else, not me. "No, I just not feeling better." I give him a simple smile. I want to tell him the truth but this ruined our friendship and trust.

"But looks like you're hide something from me?" He raises his less dark eyebrow. Turning around as soon as I can my foot takes me to the bed while he’s following me and sit beside me. Showing happiness for him I turn my sad face into a plastic smile. He's the one I never want to lose even he loves someone else. I can manage.

My heart also

“My heart broke you choose your match. Now she's going to handle your silly mistakes. It's a big loss.” He is laughing and watching my face. His smile and laugh give me every time new hope.

"Oh Yeah I remember how you handle me but you know that's what I want for my future a beautiful girl who loves me. Who gives me a simple hope every time because our life is very short and there's only love who gives us so much strength to live our lives and I can see that hope is Lizz. She makes me smile. She...she is like...

"Sunshine after rain" I complete his sentence and he shockingly watching me.

"How do you know?" Oh, shit what my chatty month throw up. He's watching me with big questioning eyes and I roll my eyes and try to remember something.

"Okay you learn from this some stupid book I know your answer." No It's my feeling. When people fall in love they feel love in the air every time. But you never find anything between us.

“Now Lizz wants to meet my parents." What? She is so fast.

"But I want you to meet her first and you are the only one who convinces my parents." taking my hands in his he kissed and make a pouty face. Is he also want this? His hand is hard but warm and it makes me feel like comfort. But the comfort is now. He wants to use me again. But this time for real. I know his parents are very careful about the relationship.

"No, she's not meeting with your bimbo shu go Elathan." Here she's coming into my room with taking so much anger in her eyes. Grabbing my hand from his she pulls me away.

"Duchess stop this okay this is between my friend and me." Elathan get up from bed and they both now face to face.

"Dizz! Please not now I begged to you." She shake her head and ignore my words.

“No! Now get the hell out.” She pushes Elathan hard.

“Angel!” This time Elathan said my name in anger.

"Okay but I also go with her." she raised her eyebrows.

"Dizz no." Elathan and I both said at one time

"Yes."

"Fine but no drama there Duchess if you create any scene then my foot your ass.” He warms her.

"We will see.” Her winked makes him angrier.

So this is a new problem for me. Lizz how can I face you? You stole my world and now I’m going to meet my lover love.

Sacrifice