Chapter 2 Dream

"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers

Within yourself that you have built against it."

― Rumi

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"Promise me you won't leave my side ever, just like my papa did to me!" I said while keeps wiping my tears with the back of my hands.

I had been crying for I guess thirty minutes now, since the time I run away from home.

"Promise me you will never leave me, and stay by my side forever!"

"Do you promise Didi?" I asked my childhood best friend, as tears kept on falling at the side of my cheeks.

This is the day, I found out why my mom asked my dad, to get out of the house and not to show his face to us ever again.

I love my dad so much, that's why I felt so hurt after knowing the fact that he made his mistress pregnant.

It was so painful to me to find out what really happened. I don't even know if I could even accept my half sibling from my Godmother.

I thought he was the best dad of all, but it turns out he's a demon hiding behind an angel mask in front of us.

I heard my Tita Agnes and mom talking secretly in my mom's room a while ago.

Mom was crying so hard while Tita Agnes is patting her back, to calm her down. And that's where I found out, the real reason why she let go of my dad.

My father has his mistress...

A mistress he's been hiding from us, a long time ago.

I was literally shock as I heard the news, but what more painful is that his mistress is my mom's best friend Tita Laida.

And now she's pregnant...

I couldn't believe she is my Godmother, for damn sake.

I hate her!

She's a whore!

A home wrecker!

She stole Papa away from me!

From us!

How can I ever forgive her! She ruined our family! She made me hate my mom because I thought it was mom's entire idea as she made my papa leave the house!

At first I thought mom no longer love my papa but it all turns out, it was all she and my papa's fault why my mom is crying and breaking at this time!

I hate her!

I hate them!

I feel so guilty for every painful word I yelled to Mama yesterday after my Papa left the house.

And now I'm breaking and hurting because my system couldn't accept the fact, that my father is an asshole.

Didi squat in front of me, as he starts holding my little hands. His other hand tries to reach for my face and start wiping them dry using his thumb, while the other hand tries to hold my hands.

His gestures calmed me down for a bit, as he made me face his natural baby blue eyes, that he got from his American dad, Tito Clark.

"Look at me baby Tine-tine." He commanded, trying to shift my gaze to his eyes.

I lift my head a bit to see him and try to meet his eyes, looking so lovely as always.

"I promise to never leave your side ever just like what Tito did to you.'

"I promise to always be here for you, no matter what happens, even the whole world turn its back at you."

"I promise, that I'll be here forever as long as you still want me around." He said while looking into my eyes, as he caress my cheeks with his hand.

"So come on now baby, stop crying ok? Everything will be alright, I promise." He said smiling sweetly before he raises my one hand and starts to do the pinky promise.

"Stop crying now, baby, Ok? I got you!" He said before he starts caressing my cheeks and kiss my eyes.

I close my eyes as soon as I felt his lips touch them, and give out a sweet smile too. I then stand on my feet and hugged his neck tight.

"You're the best BFF ever Didi! Thank you!" I told him smiling from ear to ear while hugging him tightly.

I was hugging him tightly when suddenly, the whole background start changing. I am still hugging him, but this time, I am crying and he is crying too.

He is now standing beside a black car, with its door wide open ready to take my Didi away from me.

"NO DIDI!" I cried while holding Didi's hand tight.

The people around us holds his other hand, while trying to take him away from my reach.

"DIDI SAID, HE WILL NEVER LEAVE TINETINE SIDE FOREVER! PLEASE DON'T GO! PLEASE DON'T TAKE MY DIDI AWAY FROM ME! Tita, please? Please?" I begged Tita Agnes, who is standing at Didi's back.

I hugged Didi as tightly as I can, so they can't take him away from me.

We are both crying hard, knowing that this would be the last time we will see each other personally.

"Baby, please don't cry."

"Didi will be back again in time."

"Didi loves baby Tinetine so much."

"Didi will go back again to be with baby Tinetine, and she would realize Didi did not leave her side at all. I'll be back. I love you, baby!" said Didi, as he starts to loosen my gripped on him.

He breaks the hug as he enters the black car, with his mom Tita Agnes, his big brother Kuya Ryan and his father Tito Clark.

As the car moved, mama and my Kuya Leo tries to calm me down while I am crying so hard, I could no longer manage to breathe properly. I am crying so hard, I just wanted to turn back the time where I can still be with Didi like we use to be.

I felt betrayed, deceive, and hurt after knowing that my best friend is leaving. If only he told me earlier. If only he didn't promise those things, maybe I shouldn't feel this hurt at all.

I was crying as I heard a familiar sweet voice of a woman, calling out to me.

"Hmm..." I moaned as I felt a gentle shake, on my arm.

"Les!" I could hear my mom calling me.