Chapter 3 His Back

"I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close."

– Pablo Neruda

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"Les! Wake up, sweetheart!" Mom called out again.

"Hmm... Five minutes more please!" I moaned as I pull the blanket up my chin.

"What do you mean five minutes? Come on sweetie time to get up!" Mom pulled the blanket off my body and start shaking me gently again.

"Get up now Princess! Come down and eat breakfast with us, or we'll be late!" my Mom said before getting out of my room, and shutting the door close.

"Hmm." I moaned again as I open one of my eyes, trying to compose myself.

What did mom said again?

Ahh! She said something about getting late right?

Ohh, yeah right! We're getting late...

I tried to close my eyes again, and start to go back to sleep...

Late...

We're getting late...

WAIT WHAT THE- I'M GETTING LATE?

As soon as I heard the word 'late' I immediately sit on my bed, with wide eyes.

I look at the alarm clock beside my bed and saw that its already 7:30 am!

Oh, crop! I am so dead! I'm pretty sure our business law professor is going to kill me!

I hurried inside the bathroom to do my morning rituals and start fixing myself to go to school.

I wipe my face and found out that my cheeks and eyes are wet from tears.

Another dream from my past again...

It's so tiring to think that I always dream of the same scenarios every night about Didi's broken promises and his leaving, and yet I always find myself crying...

I always find it odd to keep on seeing myself crying about it over and over again, as if my soul will never get used with him leaving me alone...

Like, what the fuck girl! Can't, you just get over it and move on?

It's already been 10 years since that time happened, and we are no longer a kid! I am already 21 and Didi is already on his 22.

I'm sure he already found a new best friend there in the US.

I'm pretty sure he forgot about me and his promise a long time ago.

I knew he has forgotten me already, because if it's true that he still remember me, then why the hell he's not reaching to me at all?

Ten years had passed by already and yet he never dares to even try reaching on me even once, for those ten years.

And I hate him for that...

Didi is just the same as my dad.

They are a liar, a jerk, and a piece of shit.

I hate him to death, that once I ever see him again, I would smock him in the face and show him, that I don't need him in my life.

I am good now that he's gone...

After I do all my rituals and done taking a bath, I wore my uniform and hurriedly go down the stairs, with my uncombed hair fall freely down to my waist.

"I won't eat breakfast today Mom! I am super late for school!" I yelled at mom, so she can hear me from the kitchen.

I hold a grip on the stairs railings while wearing my black shoes.

I am half running already just to reach the door, that I almost got myself outbalance. Fortunately I was able to hold on the edge of the table nearby.

"GTG mom! Bye-bye!" I bid goodbye to mom and was about to open the door when mom took a peek from the kitchen and look at me.

I am already holding the doorknob and was about to step my right foot out when Mom yelled something that almost breaks my whole world. Hahhaha, of course, I am just kidding, piece!

"Where are you going, sweetie? Today is Sunday! There's no class today baby!" Mom yelled while holding a huge spoon.

I look at them in slow-motion, while having my eyes wide.

"What the fudge? Then why the freaking hell did you wake me up so early in the morning?" I complain.

I even step my foot hard on the floor just to show how annoyed I was as my beauty sleep get ruined for the sudden call.

"But sweetie today is your Tita Agnes return from the US! Had you forgotten that already? We're going to fetch her at the NAIA Airport!" Mom said making me roll my eyes.

"Tita Agnes?" I said tilting my head while wrinkling my forehead.

"Yup! She also said Ace is coming with her this time!" Mom said with a hint of excitement in her eyes.

Which made me look at her with a confuse look.

What the fuck did Mom told me?

Who's going back with Tita Agnes?

I rolled my eyes as I remember that Tita Agnes son's name is Ace.

Ace FUCKING Daryl ASSHOLE Smith...

So what's up with him?

Why go back?

I thought he's already happy there in the US? He should just stay there forever!

Die and rot there forever!

Since that's what he want to do anyway, so why go back here in the Philippines if he can just die there in US?

I wanted to tell Mom how much I feel disappointed knowing that Ace the Asshole is going back but I honestly don't want to ruined that excitement in the eyes of mom.

I knew she expect me to feel thrilled about knowing the news, after ten years, because she knew how much I longed for Ace to go back here in the Philippines and to fulfill his promise ten years ago...

But not anymore...

I already gave up on him three years ago...

And now his existence does not matter to me at all...