Chapter 5 Before it's to late

Chapter 4

Ivy's pov

I couldn't believe I agreed to go out with Malcolm what was I thinking? I needed to call my bff and talk to her about it. Maybe she would give me some advice. I loved Malcolm but I just didn't know if he was the one, but now I had my unborn child to think about.

I don't know if I should tell him about the baby or not. Who knows if he would be happy or not? He seems so distant anymore. What I need is lunch with my best friend Janis she seems to know just what to say to make things better.

I can't believe Malcolm was the one that showed up I thought it would have been someone else, but that was just my luck. I called up Janis and she told me to come on over and she would fix us some lunch so we could talk. I hurried and grabbed my keys and purse and headed over to Janis'.

I knew my best friend would have some great advice I just hoped it was what I wanted to hear. Janis knew about the baby and kept telling me I needed to tell Malcolm and go from there.

I just didn't know if I was ready for that just yet. I was happy to become a mom, but that doesn't mean that Malcolm would feel the same as me. And I just didn't know if I could take him rejecting our child that's why I pushed him away and moved out.

I just didn't want to deal with that kind of pain. He was so busy lately at work that he never had time for me. I rather be a single mom without him then be a single mom and be with him. I just didn't know what I was going to do.

He seemed so distant now that one of his dear friends is gone. He was even pushing his friend Cody away. He has a lot to prove to me before I even think of letting him in our child's life. I couldn't be selfish anymore. From now on I lived for my child.

It had to be about more than just me and him. I loved him so much and a part of me feels that he still loves me, but everything has just become second in his life. I get he has this case, and he is trying hard to solve it but at what cost?

He is so angry and paranoid all the time now. What is he hiding, and does it have to do with our relationship or his friendship with Cody? I used to know him so well and now it's as if he's a complete stranger. I just wish he would open up and let me in before it's to late.