Mother told me that I should rather adopt children since I would never get married again. Those words were hurtful coupled with the fact that anytime I visited Lexie and her husband, they made my feelings worse.
I kept regretting my existence and kept wishing I would get a man like Alfred who takes care of his wife and doesn't cheat. He was my ideal man.
It wasn't a great deal but I started thinking of having Alfred to myself. It would be wonderful to be married to such a man who would pamper and treat you like a queen. I stared at my sister as she lay there, smiling in her dreams probably because she was dreaming of Alfred. Why not? He was the man of every woman's dream, including me.
I wanted Alfred to myself, I wanted him to love me and no one else. I wanted to be the one who would wake up beside him, the one who would smile at him always. I desired the things my sister enjoyed from him.
She never stopped talking about him, he was always on her lips. They could never leave each other alone. All these desires and it just boils down to the fact that I wanted Alfred to and for myself, only.
"I'm leaving." I told the doctor at work.
"Aren't you going to wait, so you could break the news to her?"
"You can do the honor, doctor. I have important things I need to break too." I smirked at the Doctor and he smiled back. He must have thought that I said something about preparing a surprise for her.
Well, what I had for her was a surprise, not a good one though but can still be called a surprise. I only wanted to be chosen and not settled for, is that too much to ask?
I had made the plans a long time ago, I was only finding the perfect time to execute my plans. The speaker would do its job very well.
Lexie was a very emotional woman and could get broken easily and because of this she didn't let herself see certain things because of the breakdown she would have. She was always protecting her personal space.
I only needed to make her hear what I wanted her to hear and then she would think Alfred was cheating. I would have really loved for Alfred to touch and make me feel like a woman but he would never do that, with Lexie in the picture.
I had called him earlier to know if he would be back home as soon as possible but he said he wouldn't. So I assured him that he could take his time, since I was going to take care of Lexie.
Yes. I will take care of her indeed!
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"Alfred! You need to come home, right now!" I cried into the phone, my eyes glittered with feigned tears and my shoulders trembling. My sobs were calculated and soft. I held a tissue careful not to disturb my makeup.
"I'm in the car right now. Are you crying? Where's Lexie?" He asked.
I couldn't believe that I was the one crying but he was instead asking after Lexie. Two cops were nearby so I had to act well. My gaze flickered elsewhere, gazing carefully at the people around me hoping my performance would evoke sympathy at least.
"Tell me what happened?" He asked, louder this time.
"Please just come home immediately." I cleared my face as I dropped the phone on the counter inside the kitchen. I was so bad at pretending but I'll do great because I had practiced multiple times.
The cops were downstairs making fruitless searches and asking stupid questions which I answered every single one of them and waited for Alfred's return.
"What happened?" He must have flown because how would he have gotten here by now? "Where's Lexie? Why is no one telling me where she is?" He was enraged.
"She ran away!" I blurted out. "I'm so sorry, Alfred but when we got to the hospital, the doctor said she had stomach cancer. She was so heartbroken. I managed to bring her home but that was it, when I left to get her something to eat, when I returned, she was gone."
"What? You said you would take care of her? Stomach Cancer?" His eyes were now dull and haunted and he was angry. "How the hell did she get that?"
"I'm so confused too. This is the doctor's report." I handed the piece of paper to him.
He hissed and dropped the paper forcefully on the table. "Where is Lexie?" He stared dead into my eyes.
At that moment, I thought that maybe I should have made up another story to go well with this. Now, everyone looked at me since I said I was with her earlier. I was confident that no matter what anyone did, they wouldn't find Lexie alive.
"I don't know." I shivered as he hit his fist at the kitchen table multiple times.
"Who is in charge here?" His voice was raised, slowly going into anger.
"Yes." A fat police officer showed up right before him. It made me want to laugh, why would they employ such a fat dude to be a cop in a situation like this.
"Concentrate Cassy!" I reminded myself and went back to my acting.
"Where is my wife?" Alfred demanded to know.
"From our finding, she was hit by a car."
"What?" I screamed. "No, no, don't say that."
"What car?" Alfred asked.
"Eye witnesses said they saw her running but couldn't stop here. Another stranger said she had seen a car hit a running woman but she didn't wait to see, she ran away to save herself."
All this sounded like a melody to my ear. I'm glad the job was done well and good enough. I didn't waste my money after all.
"This is giving me a headache. I just want to know where my wife is." Alfred replied and sank into a nearby chair. "I just want my wife."
I felt pity for Alfred but I didn't feel sorry one bit about what I did. I deserve happiness too and it was my turn to be happy, truly happy. It would only happen now that Lexie wasn't here.
"Don't worry, Alfred. I'll comfort you." I spoke in my mind.
"Find her." Alfred countered, thought for a minute and dashed out. "I'm going to find my wife."
"Where are you going?" I asked but got no response. I had to follow him after all, it was my sister that was missing. It was raining and I was afraid the rain would mess up my hair but it was a sacrifice I would have to make.
I was trying to impress Alfred so I went out in the rain with him. "I'm coming with you." I replied to him but got no response. I actually expected him to ask me to go back since that was how he acted with Lexie but he didn't seem to notice me.
"Give him some time. He is grieving." I comforted myself and followed him. I didn't know where he was going to go but I prayed this search would end as soon as possible.
We literally walked the whole town under the rain.
"Lexie? Baby, please come out wherever you are. We'll try to fix this. I'm sure you don't have stomach cancer. The doctor was joking, "if you come out now, we'll find a way and I'll sue that fool for giving a bad report." He cried bitterly in the rain.
This was exactly what I wanted, a man that would travel the ends of the world for me.
"Lexie, please.." My voice trailed off slowly as I looked up hoping to see if I was getting Alfred in any way but nothing.
Suddenly, a police car closed in on us, then one of the men came out.
"We are not sure, Mr. Kings but your wife's clothes were found down the river on the other side. We doubt we know where she is or how to find her."
"Find her!" Alfred screamed at the police officer but he didn't shiver like I did. .
"I'm sorry I can't do anything, we'll report her dead."
"She's dead!"