Chapter 5 5

"What did you do to make Navi so crazy about you? I did everything, even in the past. Didn't

your boyfriend mention that we used to be fuck buddies before you two became friends?" I was

stunned by what Nila said and turned to Navi.

"W-what are you saying Nila, stop making it worse." I released Navi's grip on my arm and turned

it over.

"You're indeed stupid, I fell in love with you because Navi was in you. I will do everything to

have that man beside you, that's why I came to you because it's easier for me to steal Navi, I also

give my all, my virginity my everything!" I recoiled at what I heard. Trying to be strong even I

want to burst all of my anger now.

First he kissed and tried to grab Navi and now fuck buddy. No, this is too much and I don't know

how to process everything that I heard.

"Baby, why?" I said trembling and weakly. It's like the sky and the earth are crashing down on

me with what I know. I know it's from the past but Navi is a good man. Not this kind of man who

has a fuck buddy.

"Baby, it's from the past and it's unnecessary to mention-"

"You just allow me to be friends with her, your fuck buddy. Oh god I'm done with this shit!" I

walked away and Nila screamed so I stopped.

"Yes Kourtney, walk away. You're good at that, run from everything and then leave everything

behind. You still want Navi to come back to you. You're turning your boyfriend into a dog, the

thickness of your face." I scoffed and looked at her.

Walked towards him and passed Navi, he tried to stop me but I hit his hand. I approached Nila,

looked her in the eyes and wiped my tears.

"Yes, all I do is run away. What do you care, does it hurt your ego that even though you gave

yourself, you were not chosen huh, can't you accept that body heat is not the reason for people to

stay in yo, that's all you know. Give them heat to choose you, shame on you Nila. You're

pathetic, you have no self-respect." I smirk and she's about to slap me, I reached her hand.

"You can't decide what I want on my relationship with Navi, who are you to give an opinion, and

am I asking for your opinion, Nila?" I looked at him and he backed away from where he was

standing and withdrew his hand that was red due to the tightness of my grip.

"Maybe I can't, but you know. Navi lied to you. Do you know why?"

"They said!" Navi shouted, but I looked at him and glared at him, he didn't talk so I turned to

Nila again.

"Because what, you're better than me? Don't make me laugh Nila. If you're better than me, Navi

would have chosen you and not me. I hope you weren't just her fuck buddy. You keep saying that

you're better at everything, but the real thing is you're nothing but a girl who offers everything

and sneaks on my boyfriend's pants!" He pushed me and was very angry with me.

"Accept it, you're nothing. I always beat you in everything, I don't compete with you because I

know there's no need, I am way better than you." I winked at it and walked away from them.

I didn't listen to his cry, Navi is calling me but I run and hide. I can't talk to him now, why does

he have to hide it from me?

If he told it early it wouldn't have reached here, why. Is he afraid because he did something bad

before? If he did nothing, he had nothing to fear. It's just I'm tired of seeing people, keep lying on

me.

All I do is being honest and transparent, I don't want to hide from them. I am really disappointed

about what happened. That's why when Navi and I fight, Navi gets mad at me because Nila is

what she says. I understand now, why he said that I am flirting with someone else even though I

don't.

Maybe what Nila said is true. I'm stupid and quick to judge, I wouldn't have known what he did

if I hadn't heard the conversation between the two of them. It's annoying that I defended him

against Sheen. I understand now why Sheen is acting like that.

I still remember that day that she said that Navi is not the only man in the world and that there

are others who can love me, she is plastic and I can't believe that I allow myself to be friends

with the woman who fucked my boyfriend before.

I wanna end this kind of pain, it really hurts. Because I thought Nila was my partner. I thought he

was real and I needed to be real. I regret every part of it.

...

I woke up due to the knocks on the door. It was still knocking. I didn't pay attention at first but

when it lasted I couldn't take it anymore, I couldn't go back to sleep either so I got up and walked

to the door.

I still remember what happened yesterday. That graduation was supposed to be a happy moment

for me, finally I am engaged with Navi and our graduation. But it turns out to be tragic and bad

day for me.

I slammed the door open and it was Navi, holding the things I left in her car, I leaned against it

but the door was open. He called my name multiple times and I sat on the sofa.

"Baby please, listen to me. I need you to listen, okay?" He put the things down and sat next to

me, I nodded softly and Navi could breathe a sigh of relief now.

He took a deep breath and it feels like my anxiety is trying to mess up with me again. I don't

know if I can believe him now, he lied to me. I can't believe that it happens, Nila knows what

happened to me and Navi and I let the woman into my life that I should have avoided in the first

place.