Chapter 4 4

"I know Kourtney and I just said this because I want to be honest. Because it's like I'm fooling

myself and convincing myself that my feelings are nothing, I want to at least once be true to

everyone, to myself. For my own peace of mind. I didn't mean anything you know, just a

confession and after this, I will move forward." He smiled and I smiled back. He is such a brave

man.

"I like your braveness Jonathan, I understand and I know that you have nothing else to convey.

Thank you so much," I said. He is such a good man. Even though he knew that there was a lot of

time for me to be solo, he didn't use that opportunity.

"I know how much you love Navi, he loves you the same. That is why I never do anything to

break you, I sacrifice what I feel because I know I have no hope." I was confused when she burst

into tears and started to cry.

I hold his hand and hug him tight, a hug won't hurt and so I can recover. I know that his situation

has been difficult and I don't know what he is going through now. "But we can be friends, you

know that Jonathan." I moved away from the hug and he smiled at me.

"I am thankful that you are the woman that I love. I know it's hard to find someone like you

Kourtney, for one last time." He took a deep breath and moved away from me.

"I love you." He looked straight into my eyes before turning his back on me and walking away

from me now, the weight of every word he said now. I can't explain how much pity I feel now.

I watched him leave and I entered the auditorium, there were two people on the side talking. I

was about to walk to my place earlier where I was sitting when I heard Navi's name, and a

familiar voice.

"You know that I love you Navi!" My eyes widened and I knelt down, hid in the chairs and

waited to be told, I can't be wrong, it's Nila!

"You're delusional Nila, stop messing with my life. Kourtney trusted you, you're her friend and

then you're like this!" I covered my mouth and inhaled when I heard Navi's voice now, Nila and

Navi will be together now. I don't understand and this is not good for me.

My muscles are shaking and I'm shivering now, did Nila say that or I am just dreaming. I wish I

am since I don't know what I am gonna do if this is true.

"I kissed you twice Navi, at your house and at the bar. Your Aunt likes me more than that

Kourtney who is weak, just listen to your Aunt okay?" My tears fell when I heard, she kissed my

man, not once but twice. This is making me more angry now.

"Shut the fuck up woman. You took advantage of me, and I won't allow you to wreck my

relationship with Kourtney. You are ashamed of what you say. Kourtney is rooting on you, she

sees you as a sister and a real friend won 't kiss her boyfriend. You're being a slut woman. Stop

wasting my time, Kourtney is waiting for me," Navi said and I heard her footsteps as Nila

screamed.

"Kourtney is having an affair with Jonathan!" I was about to stand up when I heard Navi laugh.

Even I was surprised by Navi's behavior.

"Maybe before, I believed in your stupidity since you didn't show that you're a bitch woman. But

now, after all nasty things you've done to me. Kissed me twice and now saying that my woman is

having an affair . I have an eye on her, and what you're saying right now is just a lie. I know

Kourtney and she never breaks her promises to me, that is how much she loves me," Navi said

and I stood up. I saw my phone and picked it up.

The big smile on my lips, maybe I don't need to talk with them. Navi handled it well and I don't

need to talk with Nila. I can't talk to him like that. I am very disappointed.

"Who cares, Kourtney is silly. I am willing to be your second one. Just let me do!" I quickly

turned and kissed Navi and Navi responded quickly. Navi carefully pushed.

All of my annoyance and anger now seemed to explode in my body, even though it was really

hard to breathe, I walked towards them. I can't hear the two of them shouting now.

When Nila looked at me, she was shocked to see my face approaching her. One of my hands is

bent and my right hand is raised, I feel that everything is light, my body is as in everything.

I slap Nila with all my might and when she's about to look at me, I slap her again and smile.

"You slut," I said with emphasis.

"I can't believe that you do this to me!" I promise that Nila has recovered now. He smiled at me

and rubbed his lips. He caressed his face now.

"I love your boyfriend's lips, so tasty and soft." I was about to be slapped when Navi pulled me

to his back. "Baby stop, your slap is not worth it for a woman like that," Navi said and caressed

my arm.

"Why, Nila?" I ask, I can feel my tears and they will fall anytime, but I'm trying to stop it. It's not

just because of the pain that I found out that he likes Navi. I can understand that, but when he

kissed Navi three times and tried to grab Navi, that hurt me a lot.

"Why did I do it? You are stupid or stupid. I will do everything to get what I want Kourtney. You

know that I will not allow myself not to get what I want. That is me Kourtney and you cannot

stop me from what I want! " he shouted and dropped the diploma he was holding.