Chapter 5 Decision

After a very long while of sitting in outermost shock which seemed like I was out of this world and being drowned little by little in my thoughts my phone rang again bringing me back to reality.

It was Heidi reminding me to come back quick that she was waiting.

I immediately dropped the diary and rushed to grab my bag forgetting my laptop on my desk.

As I walked to the door something hit me so I went back and took the diary and my laptop putting it inside my bag, I rushed out of my work place ignoring my bosses calls.

I Got into my car quickly and drove off so fast that I was stopped by a cop for driving above speed limit but after pleading and telling him that I was needed urgently at home and it was a Matter of life and death, he let me go with the warning not to drive above speed limit again else he won't take it lightly with me.

I thanked him and drove off.

I reached my house and it was already opened meaning Heidi is around.

I rushed in to see her holding onto a file looking so shocked.

I walked up to her and sat next to her quietly.

There was silence between the both of us for sometime before I finally broke the silence.

"Are you sure on what you said earlier" I asked expecting to hear that she was pulling my legs or something but unfortunately she wasn't.

"I got hold of his file and was going through it earlier only to discover that he's the most wanted serial killer and criminal in seven different countries and his name is not Jeff Hudson that's what he tells anyone he meets. His real name is Williams Scott" she said out looking at me straight in the eyes.

I screamed out in pains realizing that I've been one of his victims and a means to stay low and out of the cops sight for a while.

So we weren't actually dating after all I said to myself as tears rolled down my cheeks.

"So, I've been living with a criminal or should I say housing a serial killer" I said to Heidi in pains as I wiped my tears.

I was so devastated by what I was finding out about Jeff, this was not what I bargained for, I thought the whole thing will be mild but it's like they are throwing big blows at me with all his details.

It was just so much for me to handle.

I cried for a while thinking about how stupid and clueless I was, how can he do this to me.

I looked at Heidi who looked like she was in the same shock as I was in

"Look at this" I said as I gave Heidi Sarah's diary.

She took it from me and looked at the book front and back.

"What's this?" she asked.

"Another thing that will shock you, it's about my so called ex" I said admist a sigh.

Heidi put down the file she was holding onto and looked at me confused.

"Everything is in there" I said in a very weak voice.

She read the page I asked her to and from her expressions you can tell she was disgusted.

"Did you read the last 10 lines" she asked.

"No I didn't, I was too shocked to" I replied

"Whose diary is this" She asked curiously

"It's Sarah's. You know her right? She's my work partner, the one I tell you that is always around meat work" I answered

"Yeah I do. Hmm, well, it turns out she dated Jeff and had a son for him and the only way he could free himself from paying for child's support was to kill the child by dashing his head with an iron. He is such an evil person" Heidi said plainly in disgust.

"That man Jeff is a monster" she added.

"And I'm going to be his downfall" I added in anger.

I can't even believe I fell in love with such a bad person who could kill his own child.

"Maybe Sarah is the Hei girl I saw her chat with him earlier" I thought

I couldn't help but wander what Sarah must have been passing through knowing fully well that the one who murdered her son is still roaming free.

Maybe that's why she is weird and acts so different from a normal adult. I don't think she was able to handle the trauma well.

This time Heidi stood up and went towards the window, I followed her and watched her face. She looked really angry, sad and guilty.

"This is partly my fault" she said.

"How is any of this your fault, if we are to blame someone here then definitely it would be me" I said in anger.

"I brought him into our lives" I added.

"No, I should have investigated on the type of person he is. As a cop that's my duty but instead I believed all his acts blindly exposing you to danger. You could have been killed by him if you found out about him" she replied.

"Maybe that's why he broke up and left immediately he realized that he left his phone back home and someone went through it. I guess he was afraid you've found out and then decided to run" she added feeling tensed.

"Heidi stop, I was the one who let him into my life and it's my duty to find out more about the person I was dating but I ignored that all.

Quit blaming yourself and help find out his hiding spot so we can give him up to face his destiny" I said trying to calm her.

I couldn't believe that this is how our life has turned out. We found out my ex Jeff or should I say Williams is a murderer and had been hiding behind a mask all along and now we are going to dedicate our lives into finding him and putting him to jail where he belongs.

The whole thing made me remember one of my happiest moments with him and how those moments can easily come back hunting you.

That moment was at the beach.

Yes we were at the beach, the warm sand underneath and the sun in a perfect position to shine on us.

The sound of waves crashing against the shore, the gentle wind that rustled through our hair, the way it felt so refreshing, after spending most of the day in the water we went out to sit just a few feet away from the water.

He was sitting there, looking up at the sky, his fingers playing with the hem of his shirt as he watched the clouds drift by.

He looked up every now and then to take a glance at me, a small smile would come across his face when our eyes connected and I found myself being lost in those beautiful blue eyes.

I just can't help but to know he has been faking every sweet emotions towards me.

That day at the beach, he looked up to me after a while.

"What are you thinking about?" he asked, pulling my gaze from where he was staring back up to the sky.

His voice seemed distant as if someone else was talking while he spoke. My hands were folded together, resting under my chin as I took another glance at him.

"Not much really, I was just admiring you".

His features lit up as soon as I said that, his face turning red as he smiled sheepishly, scratching the back of his neck and avoiding eye contact.

I could feel my cheeks heating up as well, my face also becoming red as I tried to stifle a chuckle. He didn't even realise how cute he was sometimes, especially when he got flustered like this.

We fell into comfortable silence, watching the clouds.

Everyday with him then felt like a first date. It was always filled with lots of tingling feelings and I always look forward to waking up by his side every morning.

"What are you thinking of" Heidi asked due to the fact I was staring out of the window without saying a thing all lost in thoughts.

"Nothing, just thinking of how I was able to live with someone like him" I replied as I walked back to the chair.

Heidi followed.

"Maybe we should get Sarah involved since she knew Jeff before you do, she will be of great help finding him" She said as she sat next to me.

Her suggestion sounded so good, I think she's right and it would bring an opportunity for me to know Sarah the more I guess.

"Okay let's do it" I replied smiling

We decided to call Sarah the next day who may or may not be happy with all but well we have to take a chance all with the hope she would respond positive.

I called my boss afterwards and apologized, telling him that I had an urgent call from a family member and I had to go immediately, luckily enough he wasn't angry with me.

"That means you will be working for longer hours from tomorrow so you can meet up with the days you skipped work" he said and ended the call.

I released a sigh of relief as I put the phone back in my back pocket.