Chapter 5 HIM

It's been a few weeks since I stopped hearing the voice ,atleast some sanity is back in my life,I've been doing my regular walks out in the woods, doing my school work ,and mom seems to be doing fine,Pete still tells mom he misses dad and she let's him speak to dad through the phone. So overall life is peaceful. Except there's this really handsome new student who came to our school few weeks ago ,he's all Cindy and the other girls talk about when I drag them to the bathroom with me,I no longer go alone ,just to be sure I don't see something I shouldn't .

Zack is his name and he spoke to me first the other day ,I don't know if he was trying to be polite since we're neighbors or he was just genuinely flirting with me ,I can only imagine the smile on Cindy's face when I tell her the cutest guy in school lives across my house, she'll probably tell me to grab this opportunity and make him mine,it's so funny that even after all this years of friendship she still thinks I'll just randomly walk up to a guy and be like, hi I'm vera would you like to become my boyfriend, how weird would that be if I tried it,it's so cringe I can't even try it.

At eighteen I've never had a boyfriend, so I'm hoping when I finally do it's going to be epic ,maybe I'll get one when I'm in college. The reason I haven't had a boyfriend yet, is definitely not because I'm unattractive, on the contrary I'm very attractive, I can't count the amount of times random boys ,ask me out ,but I've turned them down, because I just want to study and also because I haven't really seen what I want in a guy and I'm not ready to play around. I just feel dating is a waste of my time if we both know it's not going to lead us anywhere, especially since we might go to different colleges, I'm an overthinker ,but I just really don't like belonging to anyone, atleast not yet. Though I'm pretty ,I don't like getting ahead of myself.I pick up my phone and call Cindy, hi sweetie she says through the phone ,before I even reply,I hear Brandon, Cindy's boyfriend asking what she wants for breakfast, I guess someone is having some fun I say "my dear vera" she says then giggles "my parents are out of the country for some business ,so I decided to spend some time with him and he's taking very good care of me in more ways than one" ewww Cindy I don't want to hear about your sex life ,have fun byeee.

I quickly end the call because, I know if I don't she'll start telling me to get laid and then get a boyfriend, she'll say I mustn't date the guy I sleep with and it's just hilarious, because I know she'll never let me try it if I tell her.Cindy has always been an only child, born with a golden spoon, super rich parents and she's also gorgeous, and always has free time and money since her parents always let her have anything and gives her alot of money to compensate for their absence in her life ,anytime i ask her how she feels,she says she's okay that she's used to it and I just feel sad but she really doesn't mind,except for the time they missed the show she was playing in.That's the only time I saw her sad about them and it was in 7th grade ,since then she just seems pretty happy .

It's the weekend and I'm so bored, I can't even call my bestie because she's busy with Brandon, I'm contemplating going to play with pete a little when my phone rings ,I look at it and it's a number not registered on my phone ,I'm skeptical about picking strange calls but I pick this one,I patiently wait for the person at the other end to speak first, I know it's a weird thing to do but I just can't help it ,"hey is this vera" I'm about to answer but i can't think straight, this person's voice sounds attractive, if that's even a thing, "hello am I speaking to vera damore,it's zack" the name just Breaks me out of any trans I'm in ,oh I say feeling embarrassed, yes it's vera speaking, your the neighbor right? " yeah I was wondering if you'd like to come to my house and have a little picnic in the woods" I'm speechless did the hottest guy in school presently just ask me if I wanted to go on a picnic date,sure I say I'll be there at noon,he says cool and ends the call. I scream into my pillow ,surprising myself, I guess its time for me to finally get out there.Im an overthinker, so I've been really skeptical about all this relationship stuff but I guess I'll just play along, since I'm not really looking for a relationship ,first things first what to wear I move to my walk in closet and, inspect all the clothes I have but haven't even worn once. My mom and dad are rich respectively, but I don't really like shopping so mom does all the shopping for me,and now when I actually need something to wear I just realized most things in this closet aren't really my style ,I'm not into dresses, and he said picnic in the woods so ,I'm not sure I should wear a dress,I wonder why I'm so excited,maybe Cindy was right I need to go out more,I'm just going to tell mom I'm going for my regular walks around the woods, it's the same thing, I think I'm getting ahead of myself ,despite all the boys who's attention I've caught, it still feels nice to know the cutest guy in school has interest in me , maybe thats why I'm so interested in going, I'd like to get to know him better even though I don't want a relationship.

In the end I just wear a blue flowery short dress with a black sandals and let my hair loose,I apply a little bit of makeup and get my purse,I know I'm about to shock him because everyone at school considers me quiet and shy, but I just feel like dressing up so I will even if it's just a picnic.

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