Chapter 3 THE VOICE

I screamed and ran out just to find everyone running towards me asking me what is wrong, I stare at the little crowd gathered, before trying to find Cindy, when I spot her she's trying to get to me ,when she does i hug her and she tells everyone I'm good that she'll take over from here .

I peep above her shoulder and realize everyone started leaving while giving her the wtf is wrong with me look ,she gives them the mind your business look and drags me to our hiding place, the infirmary ,when we get there she sits me down and asks what's wrong ,I want to tell her what I saw in the bathroom mirror, but I think she'll just think I'm getting crazy so I go for what I think is an easier explanation for my scream ,something which she wouldn't question further ,my parents are getting a divorce i say ,she looks at me with sadness like she feels my pain then she hugs me and I cry again not even knowing why, when were done we go back to class and as usual she acts like a mother hen towards me protecting me like I'm her chick,the rest of the day passes like a blurr .When it's time to go home Cindy offers to take me home but I refuse I tell her I'll just walk a little bit to clear my head,she hugs me and tells me to call her if I need anything.I just love Cindy's personality that's one of the reasons I love her,she doesn't ask too many questions when she sees i need space and I know she loves me to bits too,I'm walking home when I hear the voice again, I start to panic inside but I decide I'll just ignore it and pretend I didn't hear anything so I start walking ahead only for the voice to say it knows I'm ignoring it thats when I full on panic and run.

Luckily I'm already close to my house, I enter the code fast and dash in panting with my hands on my knees, just for me to lift my head and see my whole family watching me, pete is having lunch while mom's doing work on her computer and dad's with his luggage in hand, I guess he's finally leaving and without telling me,I don't know where the anger comes from and I don't care ,I just burst and yell ,so you're finally leaving and you couldn't even say goodbye ,you were just going to go ,leaving everyone behind, leaving me .I could hear my mom saying vera stop but I couldn't keep my calm so I continued. You're the one who ruined this family dad ,you cheated on mom broke her heart and now your abandoning us ,when I was done I stormed of and slammed my door and I cry for the second time today ,I don't know what's happening to me ,I feel myself slowly slipping away so I do what I know best I pray

and cry some more ,when I'm done I feel a little bit of peace and I fall asleep.When i wake up it doesn't surprise me to see pete cuddled beside me ,he does this sometimes when he thinks I'm not okay,he's just an angel .I carry him to his bed and go down stairs to find something to eat,hoping against all odds mom's in her room but as the universe will have it there she is on the same spot I saw her sitting earlier. When she sees me she closes her laptop and calls me to sit down on the chair beside her, when I look at her face I can see the fatigue on her face ,her blonde hair which usually shines looks so unkempt, her eyes have dark circles and wrinkles I thought I'd never see ,she looks so tired I feel like crying for her sake ,she moves closer to me and hugs me,this time I don't cry ,I just hug her back.

After a few minutes she leans back and starts talking "vera I know this divorce is hard on all of us but I just want to let you know the fact I don't talk to your father anymore doesn't mean I expect you to hate him,he's still your father and he loves you. We didn't work out he cheated on me but I don't want you kids to carry hate in your hearts and I know our marriage wasn't the best example but I want you to know there are good men out there and there are marriages who survive and are happy, so don't let my experience destroy yours ,I keep praying everyday single day you and your brother get better partners than I did, so don't close out your heart" when she's done i can see the plea on her face so I tell her I've understood, she hugs me again tells me to have something to eat picks up her laptop and goes to her bedroom. When she's gone ,I just can't help but wonder why my father was so blind not to see the gift God gave him as a wife.

Normally I'd take a stroll around the woods at the back of the house opposite mine when it was empty but we have new neighbors now and with my recent hallucinations I think I should rather stay at home,maybe I should find a therapist to help with the voices,for now I think I'll just call Cindy and ask if she could, send me copies of our chem assignment,normally I'd do it on my own but right now I'm not really feeling it ,I worked so hard to be top student and I can't afford my grades slipping when I'm just about to finish high-school, I'm planning on going to an ivy league college ,havard to be precise so I can't afford any setbacks not yet atleast,not if I could help myself out a little .