Chapter 3 Terrified Woman

I will never forget what that man said to me. Because until I got home, my face was still irritated.

"What happened where you went, and your face is frowning?" Donna asked me. With it is Alice, Donna's friend.

I seat down on the wooden chair in front of the two of them. It was eleven o'clock at night, so there was almost no one around.

"I am disgusted with the antipathetic boy who is the nephew of Mr. Shepherd Tell me you're a bad girl, if you can't catch a cold! Thick face, you're so handsome that anyone can talk!" I was very annoyed that I told Donna.

"Ha-ha-ha. That's why you're acting like that, because the handsome guy didn't pay attention to you. And who is Mr. Shepherd? It's like I heard his name..." He thought about it and tried to search his brain where he heard the name.

"He is the owner of the biggest company here in Manila. Do you remember his big billboard in Makati? I told you that I want to work in their company. But it's impossible because I didn't even finish high school. Then if that guy is the only one to tell me that, he's lucky because he's the only one I've noticed like this! Yes! That man's face is really thick, just don't let our paths cross again because that man will make me taste bad!"

Donna just laughed at what I said. Actually, I just felt like this, because I was told like that just now. My mother's is fine because I'm used to my mother. But it's different when it comes to men. I even stabbed myself in the chest because the pain was piercing.

Because of the annoyance, I just went home and went to sleep. I'm just like that every time I get home, I won't eat because I'm going to sleep right away. My siblings are also used to not letting me have food at night, because they know that I eat out before I come home. The only thing I'm wondering about tonight... Mom seems to have gone to bed early as I always find her cracking up every time I come home at night. I just shrugged my shoulders and went to my bed, not knowing what was going on and that Mom was already asleep.

The next day, I woke up at noon. But I caught up with Mom sitting in front of the table and eating vegetables.

"Oh mother, why are you still here? What time is it?" I asked Mom in surprise. It turned to me so I noticed that it was pale.

"I feel bad. That's why I didn't sell in the market first."

I sit in front of her and watched what she was doing.

"I'll do that, just rest so you can get better quickly." Mom was stunned by what I said, she stared at me while still holding the knife.

"I'll make it my daughter, just in case you cook something and your siblings don't like it," she promised me so I looked at Mom with irritation.

"Come here! You are already helping it, how will you get better from it if you are stubborn? So what do you think of me, I know something about cooking even though I don't cook here! Do you not trust me?"

Mom sighed at what I said, so she gave me her work. But Mom was stubborn, because after giving me the task of cleaning, she stood up and took the pot, which is why I yelled at Mom out of annoyance.

"What the hell! I said I'll do it! How stubborn you are!" I snorted at Mom but suddenly Dad came. My Father is honestly already drunk that's why it's not in the mood. He heard me yelling at Mom so he got angry with me.

"What's going on here? Why are you yelling at your mom, Kim? You have no right to yell at your mother! If anyone should have done it then it was only me, because I was his wife! We only raised you, so don't ever yell at your mother!" this surprised me.

Mom was also surprised by what Dad said, so she suddenly approached her husband and held him by the arm.

"Why are you telling your daughter that? You're drunk again, didn't you think I was feeling bad? Then you go home drunk? Where did you drink again, huh?" Mom ask Dad.

I couldn't move from where I was sitting because of what I heard from Dad. It happened just now that Dad caught up with me at home, accompanied him after he had been drinking, that's why we only talked today. He even confessed to the act of me telling Mom not to do it.

"What did you say, Dad? Just raise me?" I asked Dad. I still can't believe what Dad said. Maybe it was because he was drunk that he said that.

"That's not true, Son. Your father is drunk so don't believe him!" Mom's voice trembled as she explained to me.

"What drunk? I'm not drunk! It's true that we just make it worse, then he'll yell at you? Even defeated your real children! That child has no manners, he is fed and clothed and he is disrespectful! I'm listening to my friends that your son is in trouble, going back and forth to jail for stealing! Alas, I am the one who is ashamed of my peers! Get rid of that so we can lessen the burden in life-" Dad was stunned when Mom slapped him in the face. Mom was already crying because of what she was saying to me.

"I told you, stop! Because if there's a bad guy in this family, it's you, not Kim! You see when I'm sick, but you just drink? I was waiting for you last night but you just came home today? Then you still have the guts to talk like that!" Mom said angrily. I am also in tears because of what I found out. That's why Dad doesn't love me, because he has a secret hatred for me. That's why I feel that they have no support for me, because they are not my real parents.

"In that case, Mom. Just adopt me? That's why I look different than my brothers... that's because I'm just adopted!"

"Son... Kim, listen to me first-" I didn't wait for Mom to say anything because I quickly ran out of the house. I don't want to hear what he has to say because it's clear to me that I'm just adopted. What is not clear to me is who are my parents? Where did I come from and how did I get separated from my real parents?

I went to Donna's house and spent my anger there. I just felt pain in my whole life. Because I thought I was brave because I always overcome the hardships of our life. But now... when I found out that I was just adopted. It was still very painful in Dad's mouth when I was only one year older.

"That's right, Kim. You can overcome all that too! I think you're the bravest girl I've ever met and can overcome all problems." Donna cheers me up, but I still cry.

"I don't have a problem if they insult me ​​and kick me out. I know that it is natural for parents to preach to their children. But... that's when I found out that I'm just an adopted child. It's just so hard to accept that when I'm older I'll only know that I'm adopted."

"Maybe your mother doesn't really tell you because she doesn't want to lose you from them either. If your father wasn't drunk, you wouldn't know everything. I know your mother has a reason why they kept it a secret from you."

No matter what Donna explained to me, I still couldn't accept that I was just adopted. So that day I decided not to come back to us.

"What's your plan?" Donna asked me.

"Not yet, but I'll be here with you first. We will continue what we are doing and we will both be rich. I'll prove to Dad that I'm useful to the family, and that I won't get rich because what I'm doing is bad. I will do everything, as long as I can prove something to them." Donna shook her head at what I said. It didn't seem to like what I was planning. But he can't stop me, now that I know I don't have a real family. I should really just do what I want in life. I'm not afraid of getting hurt, and I'm even less afraid of dying.

That night I went to the bar alone. I drank until I was drunk and passed out. Don't care to dance in the middle of the disco light and keep up with the young men present at that time. I was addicted to alcohol and I didn't think about whether I would ever make it back to Donna's house. All I know is that I will have as much fun as I want...

Several men were dancing happily and surrounding me. There are also some girls who look at me but I don't care if they are insecure about my beauty. All I know is that I dance and don't pay attention to people who dare to touch me. And because of my drunkenness, someone suddenly argued in front of me while I was dancing. The two seemed to be heated because they were fighting over who would hold my hand. Until they got into trouble, and a man suddenly grabbed me and pulled me out of the bar.

I'm like a lunatic who has been followed by a man. I couldn't see his face because his back was turned to me. And when I got outside, it only then confronted me. He was asking me questions but I couldn't understand him, I was trying to reflect the face of the person in front of me but I was really swallowed by sleep.

"Damn it! Is that what an unpaid woman is like? Too self-absorbed?!" said the young man in annoyance when I fell into his chest. He caught me and carried me to his car. That's when I completely lost my spirit.