Chapter 5 5:Alpha and Omega's Fight

POV of Bella

I closed my eyes as a sudden breeze wrapped around me. The quiet of nature was all around me.

I could see his face in my mind, and it was perfect in every way. I was always drawn to him, even when we were young.

The agonizing conversation I just had with Edward has left me speechless and full of questions. I couldn't stand how helpless I felt when it came to my own life. So, I decided that it was time for my second shift ever.

In the back of my mind, my wolf was pacing, wanting to let out her anger. My wolf didn't like seeing Victoria and hearing her say bad things. All she could think about was going after the pregnant she-wolf and taking something from her, just like she did to us, but I wouldn't let her. Even though it was hard, I was able to keep my wolf under control by letting her know I would let her out to play soon.

Edward's words had left hope inside me.

"I won't mark her."

Those are words that would make any woman smile, but I shouldn't even be in this situation. I should already have gotten his mark.

There was hope, but the pain in my heart was slowly turning into anger. I was angry that he wanted me to wait. What he didn't say was that he wanted me to watch that woman's belly grow while I waited. I wanted him because he belonged to us. She would have to wait, but she would have gotten rid of the competition in the meantime. The human in me was irritated that Edward would even suggest that I just wait for him and see how things went. I won't let my wolf loose to kill Victoria, but I also won't be a backup plan.

I knew he couldn't help what had happened between them, but I was still angry.

I'm mad at that she wolf who got my male wolf when she didn't mean to.

I couldn't be this sad girl who showed everyone her broken heart and hid her face behind a curtain of chestnut hair when she hadn't done anything wrong.

That shame wasn't mine.

It was his shame.

It was her fault.

I could no longer hide. I finally had to face my family and friends.

During the two weeks I was locked in my room, my parents came to check on me every day. Even though they knew I was inside, I couldn't face them. I didn't want them to feel sorry for me.

My father was the Alpha's Beta, which means he was the Alpha's right-hand wolf. He was respected by the pack, but now, when the Alpha's son cheated on his own mate, who was also my dad's only daughter, he was shamed. I didn't want to see my parents' eyes get sad. I also didn't want to see any sadness or pity.

I can remember putting a pillow over my face to stop crying while my parents tried to get me to leave the room. They gave up in the end because they knew I wanted to be alone. Since two weeks ago, I haven't seen anyone.

Besides Jacob,

Then Edward.

I had to deal with the pain in my heart and put my broken soul back together with the new hatred I had for the she-wolf and her family for coming into my territory. My mate didn't shun me. He looked for me. He was forced to do what was right. But it's his pup, so he'd want to be involved in that pup's life. The pup would be made up of half of him, half of his Alpha blood, and half of her Alpha blood.

When it comes to their young pups, wolves have strong instincts. I could no longer blame Edward for this, since he is about to become an Alpha parent. He wouldn't give up a pup easily.

I couldn't say he was wrong to want me. I am his mate. I couldn't blame him for everything he did because he didn't know I was his and he didn't feel Victoria's heat. I didn't realize it at first, but there were a lot more things going on than I thought. I can't just say everyone is to blame...

But I had a lot of reasons to blame her.

She made it impossible for me to be happy. I won't just wait around to see if she miscarries or not. I won't be that hopeless, hurt woman. I couldn't just watch him have a baby with another woman who was waiting for him. I'm not going to do that.

But my soul really, really wants Edward.

My mind and soul are fighting over this, and my wolf was on a whole different level.

I just can't think about this any longer. It will hurt me even more than it does now. I'm too young to have to go through a heartbreak like this. The one I was made for, who was forced to have a puppy he never wanted. But he did help make it, so it's now his job to take care of it.

The only thing that could save me would be anger.

It would keep my heart from getting too small and my soul from falling apart.

I don't want be so thin and easy to break, they had to hide from the curious wolves.

I didn't do this. I have nothing to do with any of this.

As I watched the sun move through the trees and bounce off the water as it flowed over each stone sticking out of the surface, the cool breeze dried the tears on my cheeks. No more tears would be shed.

Not now, Bella.

I stood up and pulled my dress off my shoulders so it hung around my feet. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes as I stood barefoot in the clearing of my secret meadow at the edge of the cliffs. I focused on my strength.

I had a strong thought going through my head. It was my wolf rising to the surface, ready to take control. I let out a piercing cry as the snapping and shifting of bones gave way to the wolf's body as it came barrelling through. I could see her happy tongue hanging out to the side in my mind. When she was let out of the cage, she was happy.

Shifting is always painful at first, until you get used to the way your bones break and move into a new shape. I wouldn't care at all after a few more shifts.

After a few minutes of excruciating pain, I was lying on the grass and could see white fur. My wolf rushed forward and threw me backward. But I kept my feet on the ground and kept the big picture in mind. If I gave her too much freedom, she might do something bad.

As she moved her head from side to side, she could see white fur with grey spots, and she purred to herself. She liked how she looked and thought she was pretty, and I had to agree with her.

Everything was so clear. The grass was so green, and the sun was so bright. We were overwhelmed by every smell. Flowers filled the air with their smell. The fast-moving water from the creek rippled over the rocks before it fell off the cliff and splashed into the lake below. The low buzzing of bees and the chirping of birds; everything was so much more now.

She kept her balance even though her legs were shaking. We quickly got our strength back, and she moved forward as she snuffled and rubbed her fur against the trees along the creek to smell where we were hiding. I liked being one with my wolf during this time. She had it coming. We had it coming.

She smelled our mate's scent where he had rested near the creek bed when she sniffed the ground. It was a smell that made her eyes roll back in her head and made her smile as wide as she could. She was out of this world.

From her chest came a low purr, then a whine, and then a whimper. We can't handle her pain over what we have to go through with our partner. Even more so for her.

She hurt like I did, but her instincts are more like those of an animal. She wanted to beat the other birds and claim her mate as her own. When I thought about Victoria, my wolf let out a low growl. I had to stay aware of her in case she did decide to do that. That kind of behaviour wouldn't be easy to forget. Understood, but not forgiven.

Most wolves who have just changed don't have full control over their wolves yet because they haven't learned to merge their minds with their wolves. During my first shift, I spent a lot of time in wolf form, trying to stay in charge and get to know my other half. Now I could easily keep her animal instincts in check and guide her. She did what she wanted as long as I let her. When she wanted to do something I didn't like, I could take charge and force myself to keep her from doing it. Even though she didn't like it, that's how things went.

Being a shifting wolf is like thinking of someone else. Your mind is split between being a wolf and being a person. Even though you are a person, your wolf is always in the back of your mind. They can see what's going on through your eyes and tell you what they want and how they feel. Even though you feel them, your human side stays in charge. When you change into a wolf, you let the wolf take over. What they want is what they do. In their animal form, they are in charge, but their human side can control what they do if they want to do something that isn't right. It's like the human side of the mind takes over the wolf and tells it to do what the human side wants. Unless the wolf side is feeling it very strongly.

The wind picked up a familiar smell and brought it to us. She had a strong desire to find the scent trail. She crept through the clearing and into the forest, nose to the ground and ears perked up. With each step, the soothing sounds of running water get quieter.

As the smell got stronger, she stopped and sat down on her haunches to wait for him to show up. She gave a playful bark and hunched down low, with her front paws digging into the ground. She kept her eyes open for any sign of Jacob.

She heard a chuff from behind a bunch of bushes, but before she could do anything, a big grey and white wolf jumped out of the bushes and bit her, making her fall on her back. The wolf started biting at her for fun.

She rolled around playfully, and my wolf's back legs kicked him off of her, sending him backwards before it was our turn to pounce.

Both of our packs of wolves got along. She thinks of him as her family, just like I do.

Family.

After an hour of chasing each other around, wrestling, and trying to catch rabbits without success, his wolf bumped its head into my stomach to tell me that we were done playing. He was worn out. We were both out of breath and ready for a drink.

We walked over to the stream and lay on our bellies to drink the cool spring water that was flowing from the cracks in the earth. We had fun with our wolves. Just in case, I stayed in charge of my wolf's mind.

Just in case she caught a whiff of Victoria and decided it was time to show her what it means to come into our territory. She wouldn't think twice about ripping out the puppy growing in her womb. If a wolf has such a strong feeling, they will rise up and block out their host's presence. My wolf was driven by instinct and always wanted what was rightfully ours. It wasn't strange for any wolf to think about getting rid of the threat.

My wolf and Jacob's wolf laid down next to each other and licked each other's faces in a friendly and loving way before going to sleep in the sun. We liked how the warm air caressed our skin.

After a while of chilling out as wolves, we changed back into our human forms. I didn't scream this time when I went from wolf to human. It's not as painful as going from human to wolf.

Wolves don't notice each other when they're naked because that's how we normally live. Only your mate would notice, and Jacob wasn't that.

We got dressed and put our shoes on, and then he took my hand and led me back down the top of the hill in the forest to the pack house.

His soft voice filled the air, and the only other sound was the crunch of our feet on the forest floor.

"I heard that you talked to Edward, that came to visit you?"

I just nodded in answer.

He gave me a look that said, Keep going.

I gave in, but not without some irritation. He'd never stop. "He promised me that he wouldn't mark her."

"What?" He was taken aback. Wasn't he aware of this?

We kept walking while nodding. " He told me what was going on... How she didn't know she was going in her heat and how he couldn't sense it. As a wolf, he couldn't help himself... And this is what happened: She overheard him say, "I won't mark her, and I'll give you that option no matter what happens with the pregnancy." I felt a familiar tightening in my heart, and I couldn't remember the last time we played together. I hated that woman more than I ever thought possible.

His hand gently squeezed mine, and our skins pressed together in a friendly way. Oh Bella, I'm so sorry.... Will you wait for him? He was really interested.

I screamed.

"I'm sorry, Bella, but my brother isn't good enough for you. He has no right to make you wait. You deserve better. If something doesn't happen, you'll only think about it if nothing does. Your wolf would go crazy with anger over not being the mother of his first pup. " He was right. That was something the wolf side would never forget. I wouldn't either. She would see that puppy as a threat.

Shaking my head, I tried not to let my heart and head fight too much.

I'm not going to worry about what might happen... I need to focus on the present.

As we walked out of the clearing and toward the pack house, I felt like I was getting warmer all over. Edward found his eyes right away, and he and a crying Victoria were near the lake. He seemed angry with her, but when he looked into my eyes, he seemed to calm down. My heart beat faster because we couldn't stop looking at each other.

That was, until he saw that Jacob's hand was still in mine. He stood with his back straight and his hands in tight fists at his sides. His face was red with anger.

"Jacob let go." I spoke quietly.

Jacob looked at me with a frown before he looked up and saw his brother. I stared at him as his nostrils flared and veins on his smooth, tanned skin popped out. He was very angry, and a growl could be heard from a few yards away.

As I walked toward the packing house, I let go of Jacob. Alone. He just stood there and stared at Edward with the same... There are two brothers. Getting into fights about me. Jacob was trying to protect me, and Edwards was being too possessive.

I managed to catch a glimpse of Victoria, who was staring at Edward with narrowed eyes. I quickly turned away because I didn't want to think of her with my mate...

I decided to let it go as I walked inside. It wasn't my battle. I felt terrible being stuck between two brothers, but they both felt like they belonged to me in their own ways. They had to talk about this. Just the two of them.

You don't get in the way of two male wolves who are out to prove something.

No matter what age.

Before the door could even close all the way, the sounds of crackling and shifting, followed by wild growls, woke me up. The ones you get when you fight wolves.

They were going to fight and kill each other.

When I turned around and saw what was in front of me, I ran back outside as fast as I could.

I yelled.