Chapter 3 III-William

Social Media Marketing is a good tool to touch base with your target market especially that most of the time, people are hooked with their Facebook, Twitter or IG accounts almost every second possible.

What you have to do though is to make your company's accounts desirable and get them to notice you.

DESIRABLE.

Yeah. Right.

Una ko pa lang siyang nakita, naramdaman ko ng bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko, mas mabilis kumpara sa nararamdaman ko kapag nakakakita ako ng mga babaeng I would think I am sexually compatible with.

That lady in the grocery story is in every angle desirable even if she didn't try to.

I closed my eyes and tried to get her off my mind pero ewan ko ba, hindi ko pa rin maalis sa isip ko na kung wala siyang anak, siguro we could have enjoyed our night together. I could have felt her nails buried in my back and her legs wrapped in my body.

Alam kong mali ang pagnasahan ang hindi akin at ang hindi magiging akin pero hindi ko maiwasan. Siguro okay lang naman mag day dream ako ng kasama siya. Total, hindi na rin naman kami magkikita.

I unbuckled my belt and put down my zipper. I just have to get this thought out of my system and by doing this; I'd give myself the satisfaction that I need.

I was about to explore my "own" self when I heard someone knocked. Dali-dali kong inayos ang pantalon ko at muling sinuot ang coat ko. I opened the door and saw Angeline right infront of me, wearing a spaghetti strapped blouse revealing her cleavage, but unlike before when I would see cleavage, my friend down there didn't feel anything. Parang mas gusto pa nitong mag-isa ako at i-imagine ang grocery lady na kasama ko.

"You seem a little upset seeing me here honey! No welcome hug?"

"Because I was supposed to welcome you in the airport and bring you to your hotel. Why are you here my lady? Why are you trying to seduce me?"

"I was just excited to see you and show you this!"---She pointed both of her hands to her breasts and added, "I had this done because I hope I'd be desirable enough for you."

DESIRABLE.

Yeah.

Right in front of me is a supposedly desirable lady but I have not felt the urge to kiss her or take her.

"Angeline, we are friends. You know that."

"Yeah, sometimes, I wish that I am just a stranger to you, maybe you'd see me as a woman."

"Geline."

"Is there no way out that we can be more than friends?"

"You are like a sister to me."

"There you go again William. I am young but that doesn't mean I can't be your lover."

Nilapitan ako ni Geline at bahagyang kiniskis ang mukha niya sa dibdib ko. Nagulat ako sa ginawa niya kaya bigla ko siyang naitulak. Apart from being not sexually compatible with her, I just don't see her as a woman. She is like a sister to me.

Akala ko nga magagalit siya sa akin pero nagkamali ako. She clapped her hands and smiled.

"I'm proud of you brother! You've made it!"

"Made what?"

"Kuya Aaron told me about you seeking help. Glad to know that Kuya."

Geline hugged me like what we used to do back in Australia. She is also a pastor's child and a Filipina. Parehong missionary ang mga parents namin and we both sort of struggle with our lives. Mahirap kasi kapag mataas ang expectation ng tao sa yo. Nakakasakal kaya you try to find your own identity apart from your parents. You want to break free. At dahil pareho kami ng struggles, bukod kay Aaron, it's Geline who knows how active my sexual life is.

Actually, there was even a time that we almost did it out of our drunkenness. Mabuti na lang at dumating si Aaron at ginising kami sa pansamantala naming kabaliwan.

She opened her luggage and got a big shirt and wore it.

"Move around Kuya."

"Huh?"

"I'll change into this."

Geline showed me a skirt longer than what she is wearing, a skirt that would pass the skirt of old maids.

Okay. That's an exaggeration, the skirt is below the knee, the same length of dress that the grocery lady wore. And now that I remember her again, I felt the sudden change of my body temperature.

I moved around and faced the wall hoping that she'd be done pretty soon so I can get out of my office and see other things and set my thoughts to other stuff and not about that lady.

"Ready to go to my hotel."

Good thing Geline broke the silence as I'm about to imagine things again.

"How'd you like it Kuya?"

Umikot ako and I was shocked with what I saw. There are no traces anymore of the Angeline I used to party with, but rather, what I saw is a different Angeline. Ibang iba sa dating Angeline na kilala ko.

I tried to control my smile but I wasn't able to. Hinawakan niya ang mga kamay ko at tumingin sa ceiling ng office.

"Kuya, God's grace is overflowing."

"I don't know."

"You'll realize that soon but I won't force you. I just pray that you'll find in your heart the joy that I found when I surrendered my life to Him."

"Let's just go to the gym and not talk about God's grace Geline. I don't think I am good enough to receive that grace, whatever that is."

"Kuya, you know that very well.."

"I said let's just go to the gym and not talk about grace."

"What do we do there? You are supposed to bring me to my hotel!"

"Yeah. I guess I just have to be like you."

"What do you mean kuya?"

" Make myself look less desirable. I will cancel my membership. Hindi ko na pagagandahin ang katawan ko para girls won't run after me. Kapag di na maganda ang katawan ko at wala na tong abs ko, I will not be desirable anymore. Girls will stay far from me and by then, I'd be able to focus on our business."

"That's not true. Change comes from God and not from our own efforts."

"You'd join me or I'll leave you here?"

I turned off my laptop and left Geline in my office.

I don't think God will be extending his grace to me. I don't deserve that grace at all and I don't want to hear anything about it anymore.