His Secret Mistress

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"Hey li'l sis where are you? Is there a noise there?" Big sister Kelly asked me on the other line.

"Hello big sis, call me later. I'm just going to check on something." I answered, while looking around the outside of the exclusive club.

"Wait, don't tell me you're at a bar or club right now?" She asked again.

"No. I mean yeah. But I didn't come here for anything, I just wanted to see something."

"What! And who are you looking at? Is this the guy you always tell me about? You better go home now, maybe something else will happen to you there, that guy doesn't deserve you. He always ignored you right? So please Elle, just this time don't be so hard-headed." She said with overflowing pleas in her voice.

I rolled my eyes and almost laughed at what big sis told me earlier.

"Really big sis? I'm not a five year old kid . I know what I'm doing. So please stop worrying about me. Don't worry I won't do something that will harm me. I always think before I do the job. I'm a smart woman right?" I assure her.

"Yeah you're smart but sometimes---" I cut her off.

"Ok, goodbye big sis. Take care. I love you. Have a good day." I said in a very sweet voice then ended the call.

That's my big sister Kelly Gibb Grosvenor. And I am Ellesa Peregrine. We are siblings, but not on the mother's side. Yeah, we're just a half sister but we love each other like real sisters. Out of all the members of my family, she is the only one who truly loves and accepts me, well except my mom.

My dad doesn't accept me, because he said that my mom is the reason why he and his wife broke up.

Urgghhh that old-hag sonsuva bitch, people who don't accept their own sins. How come my mom is the only one to blame? The two of them enjoyed themselves and made a miracle?

But even though our father doesn't accept me, as long as my big sister Kelly is with me, I can do anything. She loves me, and I know she can't hurt me. And I love her so much.

And by the way she already has a family. They are now living in Spain, but we never lost our contact.

So.... Where were we?

Oh! Yeah, I almost forgot.

I was in the club finding someone I owned. As I entered the club the pulsating lights and ear-splitting music welcomed me and a barely-dressed women filled all over the club.

Shitty place, if it wasn't for the man I love the most, I wouldn't be here. It's not that I've never been to this place.

I've been there many times. I'm a party girl to be exact but because of work that I've been managing, it's been a long time since I've been in this kind of place.

As I looked around I saw the man I was looking for, he was kissing a woman. The woman turned her back to me so I couldn't see her face. Because of the ungrateful view that I've seen my blood boiled into the highest range.

I was rushing towards the hussy woman who was now sitting on Nate's lap.

When I got there, I immediately grabbed her hair which made her scream.

And throw her in the center table. I don't know where I got my strength from, as long as I was able to throw the poor girl effortlessly.

The music stopped, after they noticed that something was happening in the club. The haggard woman got up and looked at me evilly.

And she thinks I'm scared? Hell no!

"What's your problem bitch?!" She screamed.

All attention was on us, because the music stopped.

"Problem? Nothing. I thought you're some kind of a garbage that's why I threw you. Does it hurt?" I taunted.

Then a blood started to come-out-from her nose.

Everyone nearby in our whereabouts was shocked. The hell I care.

She touched her nose and her eyes became wide after she saw blood coating her fingers.

"You shameless witch. How dare you. I'm gonna kill you." She screamed. And she was about to run towards me when she was blocked by the bouncers.

"What happened here?" A man who I think is Nate's friend and the owner of the club asked authoritatively.

"That fucking bitch suddenly hurt me." Screamed the woman. They all looked at me.

I just raised my eyebrows. Then asked why.

"Hey it's not my fault. Well if you hadn't kissed Nate, do you think I would have punched you? And don't you dare call me bitch cause you're the real bitch. No. You're a whore." I sneered. Boo what a lame excuse.

"Dude, I'm sorry haha. But if you come here, can you make sure your girls don't fight. Yes, we're friends. But if my business is going to be affected, just be patient. I don't want any more trouble. So just please take out these girls of yours first." Serious Promise of Nate's friend.

My eyes immediately flew to Nate.

When I saw the burning in his angry face, I just wish that the earth would open up and eat me alive.

His dark brown eyes were sharply staring at me. He suddenly stood up and held out my arm. I can smell the mixed smell of cigarettes and alcohol. My arm hurts because of his tight grip.

"What the hell Nate I'm hurting." I'm complaining.

"I. Don't. Care." He said with emphasis. As I was being dragged out of the bar, almost everyone inside was looking at us. If he walks, it's a sign that he's really drunk.

When we were in the parking lot, he pushed me hard into a car that was there, and my back hurt.

"Ouch!" I screamed. But he doesn't seem to care.

"What's wrong with you, you girl? Are you following me?" Silence as if he screamed.

I immediately came to him and hugged him.

"Babe I just miss you. It's been a week since I last saw you." I said gently to him. He immediately pushed me.

"Can you f*cking stay away from, you ruin my night. You're not my f*cking girlfriend in the first place, so don't pretend to be my girlfriend because you're not, and it will never happen." He snorted.

"Staying away from you? I will never do that babe. Even if you push me away and say hurtful words I will not leave until you'll love me back. Remember that." I said while looking directly at his dark brown eyes.

He grinned and looked at me from head to toe.

"Well let's see." And with that he kissed me roughly. And pinned me on the car. I was stunned for a moment because it's the first time he kissed me but I kissed back.

Our kiss deepened when he stopped.

"Get in the car" he said.

And got into the car that was just behind me.

"What?" I don't get what he means.

"I said get inside my f*cking car." He said in an annoyed voice.

So I quickly got into the passenger seat.

As soon as I entered, he immediately drove the car.

What we are going through seems familiar.

And I was right after a couple of minutes in driving we reached my condo unit.

"What are we doing here?" Confused question.

Did he drive me home? But why?

"Where's your f*cking key?" The key to the door is what he was referring to, so I immediately looked for it in my bag and gave it to him.

I don't know but it's like he's in a hurry? What happened to that man?

As soon as he opened the door, he immediately dragged me in and pressed me with a kiss, the door closed at my back. He pinned me in the wall.

My lips seem to be erased from the pressure of his kiss. I gasped when his lips moved to my neck, I was tickled especially since he was still biting it.

I reached for his hair with one hand, and I didn't realize that I was tweaking him. I want to like the feeling of what he does to me. It feels so good!

I don't know if I'm tickled. He lowered a strap of my dress, and at the same time, he also dropped his kisses on my shoulder.

His other hand traveled to my chest. He caressed my breast, like a child shivering.

I bit my lower lip to somehow stop myself from groaning. I can not take it anymore! I wrapped my arms around his neck.

It seems that he can't stop himself anymore. He finally pulled down my clothes. Then he expertly unhooked my bra. He cupped my breasts once more, before he kissed them.

My grip on his hair tightened. Why is he so good at this! His mouth alternates with his hand on my chest.

I didn't realize we were in my room.

He helped me sit on the edge of the bed. I was naked in front of him. He stood in front of me and took off his clothes.

I was amazed by his well-built muscles. And his six pack abs. He's a drop-head gorgeous man.

And we do that 'thing'. At first it hurt especially it's my first time but the pain gradually disappeared.

After we did that 'thing' and before he collapsed on me he uttered a few words.

"I love you mhie..... Please come back."

And he fell asleep in my side. Who was he belonging to?

But I just ignored it because I fell asleep.

****

"ELLESA WHAT THE HELL WAS GOING ON!!!"

I woke up because of that rumbling voice. I got up and looked at the person at the door of my room. And the blanket immediately covered my body

"D-dad?" I answered nervously. The person next to me moved and I felt that he was also stunned.

"YOU'RE A DISGUSTING WOMAN. WHICH MAN YOU SURE BROUGHT HERE! YOU'RE JUST LIKE YOUR MOTHER! YOU'RE JUST BRINGING SHAME ON THIS FAMILY!" He added.

I want to cry because dad insulted me. I want to defend myself but I lost words. I can't talk back to my dad.

"Mr. Craig? How did you get here? As far as I know your house isn't here." Dad said sarcastically. Neither of us spoke.

"There's a lot of media outside because someone saw you last night in a parking lot at a club. REALLY? YOU REALLY DID IT OUTSIDE? YOU'RE ELLESA! YOU'RE AN EDUCATED WOMAN RIGHT? BUT YOU ACT LIKE A LOWLY SLUT." There he is again with his insults.

"I want you two to get married as soon as possible." He said with authority.

"WHAT? HELL NO! I WILL NEVER DO THAT MR. GIBB!" Nate shouted.

"Whether you agree it or not, you'll go to marry my daughter. Or else I'll bring down your company. Don't fight me Mr. Craig." After that dad turned back.

A small smile appeared on my lips when I understood what dad meant.

It's like all the hurtful words he said suddenly disappeared and were replaced by words that made my heart jump.

I should be angry with dad because of the insult I received. But why am I happy? Especially when I heard the last word he said.

But because of what dad did, I feel like I want to thank him.

I still smile to this day. Am I married to Nate? I'm very happy. I know it's way too childish, but this is my dream since I was in high school.

I know dad only did that so his name wouldn't be ruined in the media. Especially since my father is a well-known person in society. And the fight I did at the club and Nate and I kissing outside are all over social media.

We made it out that Nate was my fiance and I was able to do that.

Nate didn't do anything to get the two of us married, because he didn't want dad to believe his threat to bring down the company he had been working hard to build for a long time.

But marrying me is even more helpful to him because his company and our company have merged. Nate is also a good businessman so dad trusted him easily.

"I still can't believe that you're married Ellesa. And I can't understand why until now you still haven't introduced your husband to me. You're annoying huh! I thought we're sister'? Did you manage to keep it a secret to me? Is that your husband now The guy you always tell me about? The guy who always ignored you? What if he will hurt you like the any other arranged marriage does?" She is angry on my laptop screen.

I am inside the house that dad gave us. It's been a month since we got married, and up until now I didn't tell my sister who my husband is. That's why she's angry now.

"Big sis, can you please be happy for me? I love him so much. And being his wife has always been one of my dreams, sister, so please, let's not fight because of this? It's my personal life."

"Well it's your choice. I can't stop you. But don't report and cry to me if you hurt him." Then she ended the video call.

Big sis was mad at me. Well I understand her, she just wanted to protect me, she doesn't want me to end up with someone who will hurt me.

The reason why I didn't tell her is because I'm afraid that she will scold me because of my weakness. But shit, from what I can see now, he's even angrier than I thought.

I don't want this night to end without us getting along.

So I immediately called it. In the first and second call, she declined it. But because I'm not born to surrender easily. I tried to call her many times. Until she picked it up. But she didn't speak on the other line.

"Hey big sis. I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I kept a secret from you. I was afraid that you might get angry. I'm sorry." I said it softly.

But she didn't say a word.

"Sister. I'm sorry please...." I know he can't stand me when I'm the tender one.

"Well, why are you keeping it a secret? I thought we wouldn't keep any secrets from each other?" She said rudely

"Well, I don't know if you really know that man. I don't even know his name. What if he hurts you? Or worse, he'll kill you and then he'll run away and there's nothing I can do because I don't know him-- -" I cut her from whatever she said.

I laugh at the screen looking at her.

"Big sis, don't think too much. Do you think I will marry him if I don't know him? Do you think I will love him like this if I don't know every single detail about him? I'm not that Stupid sister if that's what you're thinking. I love him. He's the only one who makes me happy. I hope you understand." I plead.

"I'm sorry little sis. It's just that I'm afraid someone will hurt you. I know your a strong woman. Whatever your decision is, fine, I'll support you. I'll be there if ever you need me." She said gently.

"So who is your husband? Are you really happy with him? Did he hurt you? Was your wedding day the happiest day in your life?" She asked.

And because of that question, I remembered what Nate said when we got married.

'You make a wrong choice Ellesa. I will make sure being with me is like living in hell. So don't feel sorry, because I will destroy your life." He said silently.

And when the night came he didn't come home, even though it's our honeymoon time. He left without a word. I was waiting for him the whole night long. I called him many times but his phone was dead.

I can only count on the fingers of my hands the days and nights that he will come home to our house. Sometimes he comes home drunk or not so angry. Or he's just really cold.

"Hey sis, are you an idiot? Are you alright?" My sister answered worriedly, when she saw that I was an idiot.

"Ah, yeah. I'm just thinking about the work you know being the CEO in our hospital was not easy." I just said. "Ah, by the way sister. I have to go because I still have duty. Bye I love you."

"Ok I love you too sis."

Then I ended the video call. And I let out a deep breath. I was just lying when I said I had duty today. Truth is I'm going to Nate's condo unit. I hope he stays there if he doesn't sleep here.

After I arrived at his condo unit, it's already 9 in the evening and I know by this time he's already home.

I rang the doorbell twice, before the door opened. It's still in a tuxedo. Indicates that it has just arrived. His facial expression remained blank, and stared coldly at me. He looked me over from head to toe.

I waved my right hand and smiled sweetly at him.

"What are you doin' here?"

"Visiting my husband who ran away home, I guess?" I answered his question.

I was about to enter when he blocked the door.

"And where do you think you're going? It's not your house Ellesa." He said coldly as he tried to block himself at the door.

"Yeah I know this is not my house. But it's your condo, and you're my husband. What's yours is mine. So this is my condo unit too." I said casually. And winked at him.

"Get out"

"No way! After I walked a thousand miles, and climbed the twenty fifth stairs just to get to your unit, I waited for almost thirty minutes before you opened your door. Then you just let me go? How dare you?" I complained in front of him. I almost stamped my feet because of irritation.

But he stayed still. And stared coldly at me.

"Don't fool me Ellesa. I know you have a car, and there is an elevator going up to this floor." He said with menace.

"Ok, I just dropped by, and brought some food for dinner." I said eagerly as I raised my left hand where the plastic bag contained with food I cooked earlier rested.

"I know you haven't eaten yet that's why I cooked foods for us. So.... Can I come in now?" I said in a softer voice with matching puppy eyes. So he will let me in.

He looked down at what I was carrying. And he looked away.

"I already ate." But there's a loud growl sound that came from his stomach.

"Oh! Yeah, you've already eaten. I have to go. I just give the food I cooked to the urchin outside." I said full of sarcasm. I was about to walk away, when he stopped me.

"Ok fine. Come in." He said. And the door opened wide so I entered immediately.

And I looked around inside his condo.

I was welcomed by cream colored walls. There's a sofa that compliments a glass coffee table. And a huge flat-screen TV.

"Where's your kitchen?" I asked him, after scanning his living room.

Then he leads me to his kitchen. I scanned his kitchen and I winced at what I saw. There's a lot of take out boxes littered on the kitchen counter.

I pointed the boxes in front of us, and looked back at him before I put what I had on the table.

"Really babe? Don't you ever cook?" I stared at him, appalled.

"Too busy to do that." He said coldly.

He stared at me, his gaze lowered from my lips down to my chest. He looked away when he saw me staring at him.

And started to walk back to the living room. What happened to that guy?

I just shrugged and started to prepare the food, and utensils. I prepared afritada and adobo for dinner.

After a couple of minutes, I called him.

"Babe... Dinner's ready."

I heard footsteps coming from the living room. And I saw Nate, he's now wearing a plain gray v-neck t-shirt that hugs his god-like body and well-toned muscles. My eyes traveled down and that's when I found out that he was only wearing boxer shorts, something bulging inside his boxers, and I'm not a child anymore so I don't know what it is. I gulped hard and couldn't believe it, I guess it was the size? Is that why it hurt so much when we did what?

"Done checking?" He said in a low voice.

My cheeks warmed when I realized that I was staring at his lower body.

I cleared my throat because my throat felt dry.

"Ah yeah. Let's eat." I just said and smiled. What's the point of denying it?

He smirked. And walked to the table and sat in the chair opposite me. And started eating.

"Why don't you come home?" I broke the silence.

He looked at me for a moment, then his gaze fell on my lips. He looked away.

"This is my house." It's a simple answer. And took another bite.

I rolled my eyes. "But we have a house."

But he didn't answer me. It just continued to eat.

After we ate, I moved the table away, while he was just looking at me while leaning on the door frame.

I washed the dishes and cleaned the whole kitchen. I was too busy cleaning the kitchen, so I didn't notice that he was still looking at me.

I sat on the chair tired.

"Hi babe, have you been there for a while?" I said tried to suppress my tiredness and he smiled.

He just stared at me and lowered his gaze to my lips. I bite my lower lip. "Yes? Do you need something?"

It looked away again. What happened to him? He didn't speak and just walked to the fridge and got some water. I just looked at him walking towards me.

"Here." He handed it to me and I immediately took it and drank it.

"Thank you." And he smiled.

He just nodded and walked back to the living room, I followed. I caught him watching T.V. He just looked at me for a moment and then returned to the TV. He looked at me. I walked towards him and sat next to him.

He stood up and turned off the TV. He walked to the door, I guess his bedroom door. What happened to him. It's like he's avoiding me.

I followed. And I found him lying on his bed.

"Babe, I'm just going to sleep here huh? It's already night." I speak softly.

It did not speak. Silent means yes. I looked at my clothes. Ok I'm still wearing my maroon pencil cut dress. Which is almost close to my body.

"Lend me some clothes." I didn't wait for him to speak, maybe he was already asleep.

I went to her closet and looked for clothes that I could wear. When I made my choice I immediately took it.

I stopped when I faced a hard chest.

"Who told you that you can borrow my clothes?" He said it coldly. And looked at me badly.

"Husband, whether you lend it to me or not, I will still take it." I said softly.

"Goodnight for now." and kissed him on the lips. I felt it stopped and did not move immediately.

I smiled. I was about to leave, but he stopped me. And turned to face him then pressed a kiss. Now I'm stunned again.

He bit my lower lip, so I was shocked. He used that opportunity to enter his tongue in my mouth. He stopped and whispered in my ear.

"You know what I've been holding back, am tried to avoid you, but you kept on coming. So better prepare for the consequences." He said with emphasis. His voice was hoarse, and it brought shivers down my spine. He smirked.

And he continued kissing me. But this time, it's a rough and wet kiss.

"Elle, I'm going to cum..." He said in a hoarse voice.

He thrusted in me more roughly and harder. I felt my body begin to shake.

Moment later I just reached my fifth or sixth orgasm? Or I don't know, I already lost count, before he reached his.

He buried himself deep inside me and spilled his seed.

He collapsed on top of me, his head was resting on my neck. We're breathing heavily. My eyelids are heavy. I want to sleep. So I closed my eyes and prepared to drift away.

But then when his breathing became stable, he started kissing my neck again. And squeeze my two mountains with his hands.

Oh shit! I am tired. Why does this man seem to have no fatigue? He was a while ago huh? I opened my eyes and looked at him.

"Babe, can we please rest now? Can I sleep?" He stopped from what he was doing. And look at me with menace. "What? No. You can't sleep. You started it. So let's finish it, just this one." Irritation was visible on his baritone voice. "Last one." He pleaded.

"But I'm too sleepy to do another round." I said in a weary voice, I even know. I wanted to open my eyes but they closed on their own.

He let off an annoyed growl before he withdrew 'his' inside of me, and lay next to me annoyed.

I just smiled. Because of his behavior. When you said he was not wearing anything.

He murmured something, but I couldn't understand what it was.

I turned sideways and hugged him. I rested my head in his firm chest, I even heard his heartbeat. I like the sound of it. It's like a soft melody in my ears.

I hugged him even tighter. And uttered my word.

"I love you Nathan."

I felt his body stiffened and I could also feel his gaze on me. Before I fell asleep.

*****

The next day I woke up alone in bed. I heard some drops of water coming from the bathroom.

I smiled as I remembered what happened last night. He seems to be very thirsty. And it seems he doesn't want to stop.

It's our second time doing those 'things', but it feels like it's my first time. The pain is still there.

I covered myself and lifted myself upright. Now I feel the sore between my thighs.

What Nate did last night was really bad, we've done it a few times. He's a monster in bed.

I walked one by one to Nate's closet and got some clothes, and put them on.

Nate's dress was big and covered half of my thigh.

Then I picked up our clothes that are still on the floor one by one. I fixed the bed before leaving the room to cook breakfast.

I opened his fridge, it was empty except for a beer-in-a-can, three pieces of eggs, half of a loaf of bread and a jug of water.

Next I opened the freezer. Only to see the unopened pack of bacon, the only content in it, which you can hardly see because of the thickness of the ice covering it.

My jaw dropped open at what I saw. Really? What does this man eat? Is he still grocery shopping? Is that's why there's a lot of take out boxes in his kitchen counter?

I remind myself to drop in some grocery store later, after work.

I just took bacon and eggs and cooked them. I toasted the loaf bread into the toaster.

After I finished cooking, Nate also entered the kitchen.

"Good morning." I greeted without looking at him.

I put down what I cooked first and then looked at him with a smile. He's all set and ready to go.

I scanned him and frowned at what I noticed.

"What?" He asked when he noticed my frown.

"Really babe? How many years have you been putting on a tie and you don't seem to know how to tie it yet?" I asked him. He looked at me in astonishment. And look down at his necktie. I saw how his ear was red.

I just shook my head and approached him to tie his tie properly. While I'm fixing his tie, I felt his gaze was on me.

"There you go. Look better." I said after I finished fixing his tie. I looked at him first. Before I smile at him. He was just looking intently at me.

"Sit down to eat. I'll just make some coffee." He didn't say a word, but he followed what I said. He sat in the chair.

I went to his cupboard, and took out the ingredients for making coffee. I make two cups of coffee. After that I put the coffee I made on the table and sat down in the chair opposite him. And started eating too.

"By the way, I'm going to the grocery store later. I'll take you grocery shopping. Too bad your refrigerator is empty. And I guess you have no intention of going grocery shopping. Would you like to come with me?" I asked him. And looked at him.

"You don't have to." He said sparingly then took a sip of coffee.

"No. I have to. I insist, I'll pay for it too. Tsk. I'll be the one to buy it. So you can eat something sensible." I just said it. And shrugged.

"What do you care?" He said in a monotonous voice. I raised my eyebrows.

"I know something because I'm your wife. And this is also for your own good. Just keep buying take out. Or instant food. It's not good for your health. I don't want to be come a widow at this age." I said in mock annoyance.

"Well, I don't give a f*ck."

"Whatever Nathan. Just let me buy you groceries." I said with finality in my voice. He didn't speak anymore.

What happened to this man? Why does he seem to have a temper? It seems like just last night he was begging me to give in, but now he's back to being cold?

"Babe, I'll go to your office later and we'll have lunch together. Wait for me, huh?" I said, when we were in the living room and he was leaving.

"I'm busy. I don't think I can entertain you later." He said. And I handed him his suitcase.

"I'll only come during your lunch break. You don't have to entertain me." He just shrugged and walked towards the door.

"Babe wait up." He stopped and looked at me so I immediately walked closer to him, and I leaned in to kiss him on the lips. "Goodbye. Be careful when driving. I love you" I said sweetly. And he smiled.

He smiled lightly and turned away. I was stunned by his smile. Did he really smile at me?

I finished my work as fast as I could. Just so I can cook lunch for Nate and me. It's still one o'clock in the morning.

"Karyl, do I still have a meeting this morning?" I asked my secretary.

"No more ma'am. Later at 3pm you have a meeting with the board members, With Mr. Gibb ma'am." Polite answer her.

"Okay." I replied sparingly then smiled at her. "By the way, Karyl, if anyone is ever looking for me now, tell them that I just went there until one pm for something important. Ok?"

"Yes ma'am."

I left the hospital and went to my house with Nathan, the house that dad gave me. It's closer to the hospital than Nate's condo unit.

After I arrived, I immediately went to the kitchen and then I prepared the ingredients. Before I started cooking.

After cooking, I got ready. I put on clothes first because I was sweating. And left the house.

Nate's company is also far from here, so it was 12:30 when I reached it.

I immediately went to the floor where Nate's office is. I know this because I have already been there, visiting him since we were not married.

When I got there, there was no one, maybe because it was still lunch break. So I was nervous that Nate might not be there anymore. Why did it take me so long to cook?

I hesitated to open the door because Nate might not be there like when I always visited him here. He's a busy person. I can only catch up with him here. Sometimes he has a lunch meeting.

But in the end I opened it, and I smiled because I caught him looking at the folder he was holding, I guess he was reading it.

"Hi babe. I'm sorry it took me so long, because I was still cooking our lunch." I promised with a smile as I walked towards the couch and placed the food on the center table.

He put the folder down. And looked at me. I approached him and kissed him.

"Come on, let's eat. You'll do your work later." And he was pulled. It gave in and stood up.

"You shouldn't have bothered yourself." He said without looking at me.

"You should get used to it. Because I come here every day. Whether you like it or until you like it." I said and wiggled my eyebrows at him. He just shook his head. So I laughed.

"Did you wait for me?" I asked as soon as we sat down.

"No." He answered frugally.

I was embarrassed. "You still deny it. It's obvious you're waiting for me." I said laughing, then put food on his plate.

"Don't assume too much. I just finished my work." He said "Let me do that, I'm not a child anymore for you to serve me like that." He tugged and took the serving spoon and he put it on his plate. It's good and it's responding.

"Gosh, you're still embarrassed. I'm your wife, so I'm a baby now." I said with a smile while looking at him who was also looking at me with a surprised look in his eyes. "Are you thrilled?" I asked mockingly and laughed.

"You're crazy." That's all he said.

And like I said, I go to Nate's office every day. I also moved to his condo. But sometimes I will visit our house. Even though the schedule is hectic, I try to insert cooking lunch.

Yesterday I got rained on because of a sudden downpour, I'm on my way back to the hospital because I'm sick. I hope to take a taxi and let our driver get my car. When I was waiting for a taxi, it suddenly rained heavily. And that's what I read.

So now, I was suffering in severe headache. And I think I have a fever, my body feels bruised. It's like all my energy was drained. I don't think I can still go to Nate's company.

This morning I almost couldn't get up because of the pain in my body. But because I didn't want to reveal it to Nate, I got up and did what I used to do.

Nate still remains the same. There are times when he is in a mood, when he doesn't show his cold side, but not in the way he was sweet to me.

But most of the time he's cold, and sometimes mad especially when he asks for another round but I just put him to sleep, because I'm not like him that the energy lasts all night. Sometimes I can feel that he avoids me, especially when I tell him that I love him.

This day is special to me so even though I feel bad I still cook. Today is my birthday, all my co-workers have congratulated me as well as my sister, I told Nathan to wait for me because we will eat together. But I didn't say it was my birthday.

When I arrived at his office, I didn't knock because I knew he was used to me coming here.

But when I opened the door there was no one. My forehead is wrinkled. I went out and saw the woman who I guess is in her mid thirties, I guess her secretary.

"Excuse me. Where's Nathan?" I tried to make my voice clear because it was hoarse. He must have noticed my voice but he didn't try to ask.

"Sorry ma'am because sir Nathan is not here. It's one of his friends' birthday and he came here earlier." He said politely.

"Ok" I cleared my throat because I felt like my voice was going to run out. "Thank you." I mouthed at her. "By the way. Here." I said softly so that he wouldn't notice that my voice was hoarse. And gave him what I cooked. "That's for Hope, Nate, because it looks like he doesn't need it anymore. That's up to you." I tug and smile at her.

She accepted it and peeked inside.

"Oh ma'am, it's a shame there's so much food, but thank you." She said happily.

I just smiled and left.

I wanted to cry but I tried to hold it because someone might see me.

That feeling that you want to be with him on your birthday but he's not there. I'm used to celebrating my birthday alone, but I was hoping to be with him.

I went straight to the house that dad gave me. I feel bad. I went straight to the room and didn't even bother to get dressed. I cry my heart out. I don't know but I just want to cry and cry.

My feelings are getting heavier, probably because of the fact that Nate chose to be with his friends more than me.

Well, who am I to him? I'm just his unwanted wife for Pete's sake. I don't even think he knows when my birthday is. Or does he really know? I'm the only one struggling to squeeze myself into him. I'm the only one who loves both of us.

I covered myself in a blanket as tight as I can, just to lessen the coldness I feel right now. And to ease the sadness. " I mouthed at her. "By the way. Here." I said softly so that he wouldn't notice that my voice was hoarse. And gave him what I cooked. "That's for Hope, Nate, because it looks like he doesn't need it anymore. That's up to you." I tug and smile at her.

She accepted it and peeked inside.

"Oh ma'am, it's a shame there's so much food, but thank you." She said happily.

I just smiled and left.

I wanted to cry but I tried to hold it because someone might see me.

That feeling that you want to be with him on your birthday but he's not there. I'm used to celebrating my birthday alone, but I was hoping to be with him.

I went straight to the house that dad gave me. I feel bad. I went straight to the room and didn't even bother to get dressed. I cry my heart out. I don't know but I just want to cry and cry.

My feelings are getting heavier, probably because of the fact that Nate chose to be with his friends more than me.

Well, who am I to him? I'm just his unwanted wife for Pete's sake. I don't even think he knows when my birthday is. Or does he really know? I'm the only one struggling to squeeze myself into him. I'm the only one who loves both of us.

I covered myself in a blanket as tight as I can, just to lessen the coldness I feel right now. And to ease the sadness.