Chapter 3 The First Talk

The looks and the curiosity for who talks first was going between me and David, because we exchange look to each other but I personally had a hesitation to talk to him, I have spoken to almost everybody in class but with him I find it very difficult.

Finally, the day I was waiting has come, I was looking at her as usual during the class, she was concentrating on the class but I was concentrating on her because today I had a thought that I should talk to her so I was waiting for moment to see her see me. Though it was the last class for the day I was waiting for the bell. Till the end of the class she didn't turn even her head towards atleast once. Immediately she was packing her bags soon after the bell. But I was still waiting for her eyes to see me and I was packing slowly seeing her, suddenly she sawed me, immediately I waved my hand to say her to stay. She nodded her head slowly and said yes.

now everyone in the class went only I and Ankita were standing in the class. I was having my bag on my shoulder so as she.

"Hi!", I said she smiled and said,"Hai finally you broke your silence with me" she said I smiled and said "Yeah! because I had a hesitation to talk to you?

"Oh! really but you don't have hesitation to see me during the class hours "she replied I laughed again but didn't say anything "Shall we move "I said " Okay " she replied.

we both started walking slowly in the corridor but didn't talk to each other she was on my right we both walked quite close to each other but our body was not in contact. we remained silent still then "Why didn't you talk to me earlier because you were talking to all of my friends except me? "I asked her. I paused for a minute and said cause no one in our class was looking at me than you do? so I don't want to know them but I was curious to know you? "she replied

Ankita !!!!!! someone was shouting I immediately turned towards the bus . I just ran to climb on the steps then looked David he was looking at me as he do in class. I waved my hand at him with a smile on standing in the steps as the bus the was moving, and he did the same we both were looking at each other till we go out of sight.

oh God finally we spoked to each other after the exchanges of looks, it is a beautiful experience with her because I was waiting to hear the word for her mouth. I was sitting on the terrace of my house watching the beautiful red sky were the sun setting with chill breeze in my face, it is a beautiful feel when you see an incredible scene with the beautiful thought in your mind. it was like a dream of love, with emotional expectations.

I was sitting in my house and watching TV.Ankita! shouted my mother from the kitchen but I didn't respond to her rather I was completely taken to the moment with David. The way he approached me with the charming smile impressed me. He is a good guy with something special with his eyes, in this one month each time when I see him his eyes is trying to say me something and today when he spoke to me was felt something new in me, because he made me feel comfortable with him. My mind is raising many questions,why didn't I spoke to him earlier rather I spoked to his friends? Am I in love with him

no, I'm not and I won't He is just a friend and that's it. I won't see him again

"Ankita! my mom to the living room, I stood still with no idea what to do, what are you doing?" asked my mother I didn't utter a word come to the kitchen said my mom and went to the kitchen.

The next day it was something I didn't expect though we talked to each other I really expected a good relationship between us but it was completely opposite. Maths sir was distributing the test paper but as usual I was looking at Ankita. But she didn't even move her head towards me. But I noticed that Gayathri sees me looking at Ankita she also whispered in her ears. But she didn't respond, David sir called me I went in front to get the paper after getting the paper till I reach my place I was looking at her but she didn't look at me.

I was totally upset and worrying about her behaviour because she knows that I was looking at her but why didn't she respond I don't know what 's running her mind.

Two weeks Later

The bell ranged for lunch I didn't go for lunch because I didn't bring my food. And Ankita also made me upset so I started drawing.

it is gift from God because when I feel happy or sad I used to draw. It gives me immense pleasure and a complete stress releaser, I always dream to become a great artist.

As I was drawing,David! someone called, it was Ankita standing in front of me but I didn't respond I was still concentrating on my drawing, she called me again but little louder this time. Still I didn't respond, she tapped on the bench I looked at her "what happened to you why didn't you respond to me?"she asked with little anger." why I have to respond?" I replied she stood still "It was nearly two weeks since we both talking you know that I 'm looking at you but you purposely ignored me ,now you are asking me respond "I asked her she was standing still "Okay I'm sorry" she replied. But I was still drawing she immediately pulled my paper and said, "I'm talking and what stupid thing you are drawing "she looked the paper and amazed by the drawing I drew a drawing of a MOTHER HOLDING HER BABY but the baby was incomplete." Awesome! David, you have got such a wonderful talent" she said I smiled at her.

we both forget about the past two weeks and sharing our thought about the drawing."Hey why didn't you go for lunch" she asked,"I didn't bring my lunch" I replied, "come let's share my lunch" she said "No Ankita you have" I replied. she immediately grabbed my hand and pulled me to her place for the first time I'm feeling the touch of a girl. it is wonderful when you feel the warmth of your loved one. she sat in her place and was sitting in the bench opposite to her . she opened her tiffin box it was a spicy food. we both were eating the food, as I was eating I just lifted my eyes towards her. WOW! she was cute while eating taking a handful of rice and putting very little into her mouth. I was admiring the posture of her, she suddenly noticed that I'm seeing her "why are you looking at me?" she asked I spotted some rice sticking near her lips, so I moved my hand towards her and wiped the food sticking near her lips. At that time, I slightly imagined of holding her lower lips and pulling towards me to kiss her. After wiping "Did you get the answer for your question?" we both laughed at the same time and continued eating.

I felt sad each time when I know David is looking at me and I didn't respond. I don't know what he did to me because I'm trying to ignore him but I can't.

He would be playing in the ground during lunch I can't resist myself to go and sit in the parapet wall and watch him play. In the class I would ask Gayathri to see him whether he is watching me or not if he didn't I do. I know that he likes me but I don't want to lose myself to him at the same time my heart always wonders to see his charming face looking at me.so, I don't want to hurt him because it is almost weeks since we both talked. let me have him as a good friend and nothing more than that.

I hate this day for what happened to me I came to my house with a torned collar and few scratches in my hands and face

What happened David? asked my mother I didn't respond but soon she held my hand and said "listen David I don't want any explanation with this injury but understand the situation of your house, just think the struggle of your mother with your dad and under what situation I 'm making you study. I don't want to hear any bad remarks about you in your school Okay!"

I went to my room and sat on my bed, I felt sad about my mother feeling towards my action today. But I had no choice of fighting back.

I went to take shower as the water started to fell on my head my thinking went exactly to the school bus were the incident took place. I was happy as I had a chance to travel with her in the school bus.so, I went in inside the bus, the front seat was occupied by the primary teachers but I had a place near my friends in the middle row. In the opposite side Ankita was sitting near the window she smiled at me and asked "why are you so early? " "There is no practice today" I replied.

she turned to the window and seeing the scenery outside and I started to see the scenery inside she was awesome when her hair moves around her face through air.

Suddenly "Hey David" called Gautam I turned to him asked "What's up" " I am noticing you for so many days you are just looking at her and not telling her about your love" he said, "Hey Gautam, I can talk with her about anything but I am really afraid of saying my love because if she says no it will be a terrible blow for me." I replied.

He also said "David try to understand time many love is not only separated by parents, caste, religions but also fear, the time which is wasted by silence will cause you a big noise in future. You cannot blame a girl for your silence because it is your responsibility to express your love to her as soon as possible and move with her.It is no use in crying when she loves another guy while the complete fault is with you".

"Yes,Gautam I agree with you but saying the love to our loved one is not an easy task" I replied. "I don't know I will call her now and you should say your love" he said. I went completely blank because he called Ankita and she turned and I was trying to close his mouth but he managed to call her and said "Ankita! David wants to say you something" since there was a heavy traffic the driver was making a loud horn in that sound she didn't hear what Gautam is saying she said I can't hear with her hands.So,Gautam tend to move forward to say clearly and that time Manoj a guy from the B-section crossed our seat by the time he was crossing Gautam lifted his leg so Manoj got hit, stumbled and fell.

Immediately he stood up and started slapping me. I left with no clue but to hit him back. He slapped me in my right cheek but then I got to give him some tight blows on to his nose. As I was so angry I just said,"Mind your fucking hand and get the fuck out of my sight" I didn't mind the place where I was am , completely unaware of Ankita she was watching the scene fully. My friends pulled me down and made me sit, I looked at her but she gave me an angry look and turned to the window. I finished my shower and went to the bed taking a paper to draw.

I felt bad as I portray myself as a bad boy at the same time here my mom I thought she would get angry with me but she completely made me to understand the pain and struggle in her life for my education so I decided to control my anger.

it is always a nightmare to face your loved one when you upset them. I don't know how I'm going to face her I was afraid that this incident should not affect our friendship. I went to sleep without eating.

The next day it was a clear blue sky and sun shines as it does regularly but my heart is filled with black clouds which hide the sun and its intense heat. I went to the school it was a Saturday and there won't be any assembly so I was standing in front of the reception for her.

I was waiting for her but she didn't come still so I moved to the class. Suddenly someone panted on my shoulder I turned back it was her "Hi" she said. it was really a surprise for me because I didn't expect that she would talk to me. "Hi" I replied. I didn't see her face I was walking along with her. "Got any injuries?" she asked me "Not much some scratches on my neck". I lifted my neck and showed her my wounds "Hey the scratch is hard" she said and touched my wounds "Ouch!" I shouted, "hey sorry sorry" she said.

"I can't believe that you are talking to me" I said, "Why are you asking this question David?" she replied. "Because I know you was angry about what I did yesterday" I said.

"Of course, yesterday you were very harsh to Manoj but the mistake is not yours he started to fight first.so, what is the problem to me in talking to you" she replied.

we went to the class room together, till now everything is good between us and I hope this will continue till the end.

At end of the day again we spent time together till we reached the school bus. "Why were you thinking of me last night and lost your sleep?" she asked. "well yesterday after the fight I looked at you I saw an anger in your eyes and after long time we are talking and yesterday's incident disturbed as it will affect our friendship" I said.

"You were right I was upset with you yesterday because I sawed your another face" she replied. I didn't utter a single word I walked slowly with silence. I was completely disappointed with you because you don't understand my feeling David. The person I like the most is insulting himself in front of a huge crowd.

we both went to the bus I was still silent we were standing as there was no place to sit "Then why did you talk to me" I asked her "I don't want to hurt you because you were already upset with me as I didn't talk to you for two weeks" she replied.

I looked at her, she smiled at me. I was still looking at her continuously without even taking my eyes for even a second. she noticed that I 'm looking at her she turned towards me we looked each other "what? she asked me by moving her head slowly. I said nothing, we smiled each other.