I don't know why I even get out of bed anymore it's the same thing day in and day out nothing ever changes. I was picked on all throughout my school life growing up because I was a nerd. I had no friends growing up. I couldn't talk to anyone because I was scared. My home life was terrible I had gotten beat on every day. I was my mother and stepfathers slave I did everything for them. My father left my mom before he knew about me because he couldn't take her abuse.
I often dreamed of him coming and rescuing me. But of course, that never happens. I have a job that I work too much at. I get all the shit jobs for little pay. But at least it got me my small apartment, so I don't get beat on anymore. I have been treated badly all my life that I wouldn't know how I'd feel if someone started to treat me good.
I am so bored with my life. I've never even had boyfriend guys don't even look at me. Even if they did, I would be too scared to even talk to them. I was sitting at my desk doing work and trying to ignore the TV when a commercial came on that caught my eye. It was an online dating service. The man said where you can go and be the person you want to be.
That's what I need to go online and meet people. No one would know me at all I could say I was anyone. I could be rich famous and a model. I put away my work and went on the site. I filled out an online profile and made myself sound fun and sexy. Now all I needed was a picture great now what was I going to do? I looked through my pictures and found one of me I forgot I had. It was a picture taken of me at a party when everyone decided it would be funny to get me a makeover and make me think I looked good for a day. I didn't look myself in this picture so this will do.
Hell, I felt like a model in this picture. I posted and instantly got an email telling me welcome to find a mate and enjoy my online experience. I clicked off the site and started doing my work so I could go to bed since I had to be up early to give my boss his notes for a meeting that I couldn't even attend. Yes, this was my life making everyone else happy and doing nothing for myself.
I figured I would check my profile once a day when I got home from work so that way, I wouldn't get too depressed when no one wanted to talk to me. It shouldn't bother me anymore since I'm used to it. It's my everyday life no one ever wants to be around me unless I am doing something for them. I don't know why I let everyone walk all over me, but I do it's because that's the only way I can have someone talk to me.
I got the last of my paperwork done and I was going to go to bed, but I was curious. I wanted to see if I got one email, so I went online just to see. I was shocked that I didn't have one email I had over a hundred. Guys telling me how sexy I was and that they would love to meet me. I don't know how it happened, but something changed in me at that moment I wasn't the nerdy loser anymore. I was Jacey high paid lawyer that has nice cars a mansion and everything I ever wanted except for the perfect man.
Yes, I know it's a total lie but who tells the truth online any more right? Besides it's not like I will ever really meet any of these guys so what's the harm? Besides, I deserve to have some fun in my life so that's just what I'm going to do. No one needs to know about the person I am online.