Chapter 3 Another mistake

The whole day has passed so fast, I was busy buying my books and doing some of the work before hand and finally I am set for my new school. Today is Saturday so I still have one more day to ultra prepare but that's not what I am excited about, it's the party.. The party is in 1 hour and I decide to get ready. I wear a short black dress which I haven't wore since a long time and I hope my mother doesn't notice me today because she is surely going to scold me for my makeup and dress .

While applying my eyeliner I get an unwanted flashback of last year 'Hurry up girl! Mark isn't going to wait any longer' jade say's while I struggle to put my eyeliner. I hurriedly finish applying it and put it back in my purse, it's the only thing which me makes look different and better. We have been to almost every bar in this town but Mark insists to go to the shell bar again. He really liked the décor of the bar, all the counters even the glasses had a shell design on them. The bar is very close to the beach and the fragrance of sea water makes it even better. As soon we enter jade orders tequila shots for all of us and drinking them we go to the dance floor as always. We have been repeating this same routine for almost every night and it's kinda fun, I dance with mark even though it's more of kissing while vibing to the song and jade does the same with her girlfriend. Mark's hands are on my waist and his head resting on mine. . It's the best feeling in the world. We both stand still, he's holding me more tightly now as if he's afraid that I might leave which I should have done but I couldn't. I feel like it's impossible to live without him.

A knock on my door brings me back to reality, its marcel and he tells me that everyone has arrived. I go with him to the terrace and are interrupted by our mother.

'My handsome son, I am so proud of u balancing your school work and also maintain your social work' she says with a smile. 'Of course u couldn't find anything decent to wear like always' she says to me with a spiteful expression. I pass her a fake smile to irritate her further and walk away. What does she think she is?! When marcel is friends with girls who dresses even shorter than me, why am I the problem. She always does this, she comments on me without knowing shit about my life. I hate her, even though she is my mother. I have always found parents overrated. Yes they gave birth to us but not because they wanted to give us life but because some think of this as a duty to fulfil for the society or they expect their child to become a successful person and become rich but what if we can't, it's there duty to love us but if we would be some random child they wouldn't. I have always thought of us as a duty to take their legacy forward, some people who know I think this way, judge me but I don't care. Whatever I do I can't change my opinion about them and I can't love them. Trying to control my hateful thoughts I go to the terrace with marcel. Leaving me at the entrance he goes over to the girl in the skirt from yesterday who is now wearing shot's and a crop top. Her friend comes over and tries to make conversation,

'hey Elizabeth right? U look good'. 'Yeah thanks, u too' I reply even though she is wearing the same boring style as yesterday, a jeans and top but at least she looks "decent" unlike her friend, she would be my mother's favourite for sure. 'I am Stella and over there is my friend jasmine who prefers to be called Jas', she says with a smile.

'Nice to meet u', and my curiosity makes her ask further 'who are those guys' I ask while pointing towards the grey eyed boy wearing a black leather jacket and black jeans. He looks much more attractive than yesterday and he is with his friend just like yesterday and seems indulged in a serious conversation.

'Oh that is Sebastian in the leather jacket with peter, they moved in this area last month' 'Is he Jas's boyfriend? I can't control to ask 'Who Sebastian? no not now, they dated for a week earlier but he broke up with her soon. They are still friends of course and Jas plans to make him her bf again with her charms' Stella says with a light laugh. Jas and I look at each other at the same time, I can feel her eyes full of jealousy. Coming in the center she claps her hands to get everyone else's attention

'Let's make this dull party more fun guys' she says while drinking her vodka.' How about spin the bottle and kiss' Stella suggests.

'Yeah come up in a circle everyone she commands and my brother finishes his beer and puts the empty bottle in the center to spin. I find myself standing in the circle. I would never have agreed on playing this game if he wasn't here, the bottle points to him and a girl standing diagonal to him and of course it's Jas. I realize I am staring at her, my heart full of jealously and wishing the bottle had pointed to me. I catch Sebastian's confused eyes looking into mine like he can read my thoughts. Breaking our contact his friend peter shouts

'You going to kiss her or should I?' I can't believe these people, treating the girl in skirt like a slut. I think its okay to call her that considering the way how she has dressed herself and is acting like she's okay with any one of them kissing her exclamaing to be one herself. Before I realize she walks up to him and kisses him and he closes his eyes kissing her back. I can't believe that just happened. A part of me is hating him for kissing some the girl he just broke up with but people do these things all the time now specially at parties and I also find myself hoping that I would have been the he kissed. I don't want to play anymore but I can't just go back now so I continue to pretend that I am interested in playing this stupid game. After seeing a few more kisses I feel lucky because the bottle didn't point to me. I tell those people that I am going to go back to my room with a dull voice but nobody seems to cares much. In my room I continue reading after from where I left earlier and am in a another world visualizing Hardin and Tessa's love story till a knock on my door brings me back to reality.

And it's him... the guy I hope to be my Hardin maybe.

'Hey nerd, reading one of your stupid studious book over there?!' He teases with amusement in his voice.

'No cool guy, I am reading a terrific novel' I reply defending myself and lifting the book so he can see the cover.

'also fyi it's one of the most successful book in the world'

'Oh after! I have read it, it's too dreamy. Making people think highly of love where it should have ended in a breakup or one of characters dying portraying the reality'. He says with a mocking expression. Wow his views about love and the book are just like mine. Maybe he and I could be something but I don't want to get my hopes to high, he would probably be like most of the boys. Interrupting my thoughts he says 'Anyways lets go out' before I know he has grabbed my arm and we're heading out of the door. I know he's almost like a stranger but I can't help it. It's too hard for me to stay away. Not only I am attracted to his appearance but his vibe is also so familiar and attractive. He feels so distant and unknown but at the same time so familiar and close. He leads me to his car parked outside my new house. I can't figure out which car it is but it's huge and black colored with leather seats. He starts driving and asks me to play any song from the screen which is in front near the steering wheel, the new cars these days have a screen instead of a radio. I go through his play list and most of the songs are my favourite too.

'Like anything in there?' he asks.

'Yeah, most of these are my favourite, which one do u like?' 'Well all of them, I could listen to them for hours'

'I know right, same' I play the first song in his playlist which is sung by Selena Gomez, the best singer in the world.

'What's your dream?' he asks suddenly.

'Umm to travel I guess, what's yours?'

'I don't dream'

'What'

'Yeah, dreams are overrated, I believe if someone really wants something they would work for it not just sit in their bed and fantasize about it.

'Oh' I am not sure if that was sarcasm for me or what but he is right. He pulls over to mac Donald's take away and orders two burgers and coke. He ordered for me, who does he think he is? Just because I agreed to come doesn't mean that he can control me but I choose not to fight with him right now. I just want to know him and then I will stop talking to him. After taking our order he soon pull's over to another place which seems like in the middle of nowhere. Asking me to get out of the car, he turns up the volume on his screen.

'Sit' he says climbing on the tire of the car to sit on the bonnet of the car.

'What here?' 'Yeah come on, don't be a nerd'

'I am not a nerd' say and sit on the bonnet myself. Oh my god! The view is mesmerizing, there's a small hill covered with forests far away but it is perfectly visible from here and the sky is filled with stars. How didn't I didn't notice this before. The greenery is merging with sky giving it the perfect look, the background music and him next to me does set a mood no doubt. He hands me the burger and while eating he continuously asks me about my life, my career plans, exes, likes, dislikes everything. I don't tell him much about my exes but he seems genuinely interested in the conversation and it too ask him stuff about him. Without realizing it's almost 2 am in the morning I think by now and we decide to head back.

'I really enjoyed spending time with you' he says just as we reach my house.

'Me too, u aren't so bad after all' I say with a smile

'Goodnight' he says and I wait a minute just to see if he kisses me or not because that's what happens in movies and all right. When he doesn't say or do anything after a few seconds I give him a small wave and get out of the car. I am so tired after the long day, wait shit Iforgot about the fact that he kissed another girl at the party. Oh god howcould I be so foolish. Of course I am just a time pass to him, guys aren'tcapable of sticking to just one girl. I'll talk to him about this tomorrow ornot. I am too exhausted to think about think about this right now. I change myclothes and go to sleep trying not to think about the flaw full perfect eveningI just had.