Chapter 2 Present

Meira Kadia

No matter how much she held her mouth so that no sobs came out, she still couldn't stop the tiny sounds of sobs.

She looked like a fool sitting in the back corner of the bus she was riding. She was hopeless! All the pain she's been through is not enough to all those mistakes she had been done. Mistake that was she initiate.

Things she regrets. She thought if she did that, the man she loved would also learn to love her. She thought, she would be happy but the opposite happened. She became miserable. She even hurt her sister. Her sister who loves her and trusted her but she herself ruined it. She betrayed her!

She both hurt the people she loved. She no longer has a face to face with them. She was sorry but she knew in herself that it was unforgivable.

But why is that? Why even if she regrets what she did, there is still a part of her heart and brain that says, what she did was right even if she says it was wrong.

She barely laughed. Who is she fooling? Yes! There's a part of her that feels guilty but- she's barely touched in her womb- she's never regretted the reason why a child is now living in her womb.

Baby? Even without your father. Even if you grow up and we can't be with him. I still promises that I will do everything to raise you and just give you a good life.

That was the words I ought to myself but everything were crash when the unexpected thing happened.

The people inside the bus got into trouble. She shivered and remained seated as she wrapped her arms around her womb. The bus they were riding in swayed. She could do nothing but to pray that she and her child would be safe.

It's happening too fast. The bus collided with a pole. They all turn up side down. She collapsed in the seat. Her head hit the back of the bus seat. Her vision was blurred as a blood flowed from her head to her eyes.

If this would be the payment for her sins, she would readily accept it. But she couldn't forgive herself for involving with the only thing she had now.

Child? Forgive your Mommy if you are hurt. Never mind, you can be with me- your Mommy until the very end.

She coughed up blood. With blurred vision, she couldn't help but to look back at the things she had done.

It was repeatedly replaying to her brain.