Chapter 2 Love to Hate

Chapter 1

(Love to hate)

Jana's pov

Jana was a cheerleader in high school extremely popular everyone loved her. She was nice to everyone she wasn't one of those bitchy popular girls. She loved helping other and was voted most likely to succeed if only they could see her now, she though. Where did all that get her now you ask?

Nowhere! In a marriage that she was trapped in raising two babies and being a slave to man that says he loves her but acts like he hates her. She used to have all these friends that she trusted and could talk to, but they all seemed to be on his side. They felt he was the perfect man he worked and brought home the money while I got to stay home yea, I had the easy life. Not!

I got up at 4 am to lay out his clothes and be his personal alarm. I had to get him his coffee and take him to work. I then started in cleaning each room from floor to ceiling. I would lay out what I was fixing for super because he would text me at 10am and ask.

Around 11 I would have to bring him his lunch because if I were even a minute late, he would yell at me for hours. I had to go and pay all the bills but was not allowed to spend a penny over what he thought they should be. He would check the mileage on the car to see how far I drove in a day.

I couldn't go see my friends or my family. I was truly all alone. They thought my life was perfect, but it was far from that. I was being controlled and abused I was just too dumb to see that until now. He used to be such a great guy. After the first year of marriage, he started to change. He was so good at first very loving.

See I'm a teen mom so after I got pregnant my parents agreed for us to get married even though I was only 17 years old. So here I am going on 19 married with twins and wishing my life were over. The only thing that keeps me going is my twins. My husband is a rich and successful web designer, so he feels like I have to be his trophy wife and he needs to train me.

He hasn't hit me yet, but it's just a matter of time. He yells at me all day and night and throws things at the wall and has even pushed me yet to everyone else he is perfect. He acts like a devoted father and loving husband in public but at home he is anything but.

Like today he informs me I need to cook for a party of 12. Normally it wouldn't be a problem except for the party is in like 4 hours' yea way of telling me ahead of time. I think he did it on purpose because he doesn't think I can pull it off and I'll end up looking like a bad wife. Any time something goes wrong it's my fault.

He tells everyone how after he works all day he has to come home and clean and look after the twins because I don't do it. It's amazing how everyone believes him. I've had women tell me that I don't deserve him that I'm not a real woman and they should steal him away from me. All I can think is please do so I can be free.

I have thought about leaving him, but if I do, he will take my babies and I will be left with nothing. Where would I go? I don't even know who I could talk to about all of this. I can't go to an abuse shelter because he hasn't hit me. Maybe I do deserve all of this maybe if I were a better wife this wouldn't happen.

I am going to cook the best meal for this party I have the house all cleaned and decorated for it. If I can cook his favorite and dress nice maybe, then he would love me like he used to. That's what I'll do I'm going to make him love me so then maybe I won't be so alone.