Chapter 5 I hate being fake

Chapter 4

Luciano's pov

I hated pretending like this. See Destiny still thinks I'm 100% gay, but I'm actually not. I guess you could say I'm bi- sexual. Everyone else thinks I'm her boyfriend. To tell you the truth I wish I was. We became friends when we met at a bar both of us recently getting our heart broken. We bonded instantly.

She told me all about how the guy that hurt her was now with her sister. I felt for her, so I came up with this little plan. She hesitated because she didn't want to be with anyone but him. Then I told her I was gay, and she was singing a different tune. Now it's been a few years later and I'm still her fake boyfriend.

Would she ever accept me if she knew the truth, or would she think I am a liar just like Aiden? I'm in love with Destiny but I can't ever truly show it to her. Kissing her and holding her in my arms just felt so right. I have been here for her this whole time.

I am the one that mended her broken heart. The one that held her as she cried. Now he comes back in and starts playing games with her. Why would he kiss her? She was almost over him. Now this is going to set her back. He's marrying her sister, and now their having a baby. Can't he just leave her alone, so she can move on with her life.

I had an idea, but I didn't know if she would go for it. I was going to buy her a ring and purpose to her so then maybe Aiden would back off. I wish it would be real but like everything we share it would only be fake. Men like him just didn't get it. He would probably pursue her more if she was wearing my ring. He gave all men a bad name.

I needed to keep Destiny far away from him. She was sleeping peacefully in my arms, but I know she's dreaming of him. She doesn't see what's right in front of her. I needed to show her I was her future not Aiden. Will she ever see me as more than her gay best friend that pretends to be her boyfriend?

Why be with a man that has chosen her sister over her? He never wanted her he just likes to toy with her. Yes, I have somewhat lied to her, but it was nothing like that jackass. He has hurt her over and over again. Every time she starts to get over him he draws her back in. That needed to stop. I was going to put an end to this. He was hurting both Destiny and Desiree. I don't get what they see in this man when all I see is a snake.

I needed to tell her the truth. I only hoped it push her right into her arms. I couldn't keep pretending anymore. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her, and it was time she knew it. It has always been her. I'm no longer confused about my sexuality. I know exactly what I want.

I have always put her needs first even over my own. I only hope she sees that I'm the one she should be with. I have been the one to mend her shattered heart over and over again. The shoulder she always cried on. While all he did was play games and continues to string her along.

I just can't keep loving her while she loves someone else. I deserve to be happy, and I can't be with this fake relationship. I need her fully with me, or I need to just walk away. I know that walking away would crush me, but I just can't be her scape goat anymore. I only hope that when I tell her how I feel she will choose me over him.

I was scared. I didn't know if I was strong enough to walk away from her. She's a huge part of my life. I was here with her more than I was even home. I started to work more from home than in my office just to be with her. I have put so much of my life on hold for her. How could she not see how I felt about her?

What more do I need to do to show her what she means to me? I guess I only have myself to blame for letting it go on for this long. I just didn't have the strength to leave her. She was so broken, and I needed to fix her. I have been fixing her for years now and I just can't do it anymore.

It was killing me to kiss her and have her tell me she loves me knowing it was all a lie. Did she hate me so much that she would continue putting me through all of this pain? I loved her so much but it's time I ask myself if this was all worth it. If I didn't walk away I was going to lose myself. My heart was breaking every day until one day there's going to be nothing left there to break.

Tomorrow I was going to tell her everything. I was taking a big risk by telling her the truth, but it was an even bigger risk if I kept going with this lie. One way or another I was finally going to have some answers. Either I get the girl of my dreams or I walk away from her and never look back. This may be the last time I ever have her in my arms. I was going to enjoy it while it lasts. Tomorrow was going to bring on some pretty big changes.