Chapter 5 Moving time

Chapter 4

Nakia's pov

I was at home packing up more things that I decided to donate. I decided since I'm trying to start over that I was going to give back and help others. I wanted it to be out with the old and negative energy and in with the new. I didn't need this big fancy house that I didn't even want in the first place, so I was downgrading into a smaller place. This was the house my mama said I needed to make a statement she was going to go off when she found out I am selling it. I just couldn't live in this big empty home anymore.

I wanted to fill my new place with things that I loved and made me happy. I was going to stay at Layla's for a little while until I found me a new place. I just couldn't wait because Layla always had a way of cheering me up and made sure I was having fun. It was going to be the sleepover I was never allowed to have when I was younger. There were a lot of things I never got the chance to do when I was younger that now I feel I missed out on.

There was a knock on my door and I ran to it thinking it was the moving company coming to get the big furniture that I was donating to this place called The Free Store that helped give abuse survivors the things they needed to start over n a new home. Most of the women that they were helping started over with nothing. So, I was donating everything from my old life as well as a million dollars because this was a good cause and it made me feel like I was doing something. I wanted to start making a difference.

"Oh, Trent it's you what are you doing here?"

"Who were you expecting?" He asked.

"That is none of your business we are no longer together. I don't have time for whatever you want so there's the door feel free to use it."

"I don't get why you are being so hateful. I get that I disappointed you and I am truly sorry for that. I came to make things right."

What was this fool going on about? I know I was being kind of harsh, but I had a feeling he didn't come here all on his own. No, this had my mama written all over it. He was right when he said we didn't know anything about each other. Our whole relationship was dictated by my mama and I was tired of it all. I just wanted to be set free.

"Trent things haven't been right with us for a long time. It just took you being gone for me to see that."

"What are you saying Nakia?"

"I am saying that right now I need to figure out who I am. I need to be alone in order to do that. I'm sorry Trent but this isn't going to work between us."

"Nakia I was wrong about everything I said. I do know you. I love you. You are perfect in every way for me."

He got down on one knee and opened a box then held it up for me to see. It was a beautiful ring. It was what I had thought that I wanted. If he had asked me to marry him on my birthday I would have said yes, but now I know for certain this isn't what I want. This isn't the life for me. If I married Trent, I would regret it for the rest of my life. I wanted to be more then just some rich guys wife.

"Trent please get up"

"Nakia this is what you said you wanted. It took me a minute to realize it, but this is what I wanted all along, marry me baby."

He just wasn't listening. I didn't want to hurt him because he is a good man. He's just not the man for me. I needed to be single and focus on my life for a while. I did in a way love Trent, but I couldn't ask him to wait for me. I didn't even know how long I would need to find my way. I just had to do this. I have been living a lie for far to long and now that I realized that I couldn't go back to the woman I once was.

"Trent you're such a good man and I love you just not in the way you need me to or the way you deserve. Right now, I need to focus on being the woman I want to be. I need to find myself, so I am truly sorry, but I can't marry you."

"Look Nakia I get what your saying. I will go and give you time to figure everything out just don't count me out just yet."

"Trent I am not going to ask you to wait for me. You need to go on and live your life. If what we have is meant to be then we will find each other again. Take care of yourself Trent."

"You're a good woman Nakia and I wish you all the best. If you ever need anything, I am just a phone call away."

They kissed for what could be the last time. Then he hugged me and left. I am glad he came by, so we could talk and get the closure we both needed. I don't get why he bought that ring though after everything that was said and happened between us. I mean just two days ago he said we weren't ready for all of that so why would he suddenly change his mind? Then it dawned on me. I knew exactly who was behind all of this and she needed to stop. She can't keep trying to control my life like this I needed to call my mama and tell her that all of this needed to stop.

Nola's pov

Trent called me and told me that he had talked to Nakia and that they both agreed to go their separate ways. I tried telling him that was a huge mistake, but he wasn't having none of that. He told me I just needed to stay out of it. Who the hell does he think he is? He's a damn fool that's who he is.

I think it's about time I had a very long heart to heart with my daughter. She has ruined her life and done showed me she is out of her damn mind. I don't know what has gotten into her, but all of this stops today. I knew I couldn't control my temper if I saw her, so I just decided to call her first.

"Hello daughter."

"Hello mama I am glad you called me we need to talk."

"Yes, we do. What the hell were you thinking turning Trent down like that?"

"I would ask how you know anything about that, but this had your name all over it. You need to stay out of this mama. This is my life, and I am grown woman and it is time I take over my own life."

"Oh, look who put on her big girl panties today. You have ruined everything."

"Mama I love you, but it's time you stop living your life through me and go out and find your own happiness."

How dare she say that to me. All my life it has been all about her. She took over every part of my life. Everything I have done is for her. Now she's throwing it all in my face. I felt hurt and betrayed. She has done more then just lose her damn mind. I don't even know who she is anymore.

"You need to get right and until you do don't contact me."

I hung up the phone even angrier than what I had been. The things she said to me I just couldn't believe it. If I ever talked to my mama that way I would have been beat down. It wouldn't have mattered what age I was. Years of being beat on and ridiculed taught me to be prim and proper. I have never once hit my daughter. She was lucky to have the life I have given her and one day soon I hope she realized that.