Chapter 4 Falling apart

Chapter 3

Nakia's pov

My world slowly started to crumble. I felt as if I was losing it. My confidence has hit rock bottom. It was affecting every aspect of my life. At work my pitch I worked day and night on for a month was given to a man that just started there and didn't know what the hell he was doing. I was tired of always being overlooked so I quit. I was the best that company had but because I didn't have huge balls between my legs, I was stepped all over. It was about damn time they realized it was a woman's world.

I had money saved up, so I had time to figure my shit out and see what was next for me. Maybe I should just open my own advertising agency. I was good at what I did. I knew I could do this. Maybe hire al women and show these men that they are wrong to always overlook us.

My mama is so mad at me right now that she isn't even talking to me. She of course blamed all this so-called mess on me. Saying that I did something wrong to make Trent change his mind. That I never should have made him leave because now I was going to be alone for the rest of my life. She even went as far as to say that no man wanted an opinionated woman. Was she for real with this bullshit?

I'm thirty and think it's about time I let go and have some fun. I have always been prim and proper but now it's time to figure out just who I am. What I want, and not always be the woman others keep trying to get me to be.

I decided to take out my weave and then cut my natural hair into a short cut then had it dyed red because I had always wanted to be a red head so why not. I just needed a change. I started to go out to clubs and tried the whole party girl scene, but that didn't work out to well because that just wasn't me. I didn't want to just hook-up with some random guy for the night. I was just trying to find my way, and this was not going to help me find it.

I went home and decided to just get rid of everything and truly have a fresh start. I bagged up my fancy designer clothes so I could donate them. I bagged up those high heels that no matter how much I wore them they still killed my feet. For the first time I felt totally free. Through my so-called weakness I found a strength I never knew I had. Now I could dress and look the way I wanted instead of someone telling me what I should and shouldn't wear.

Trent kept calling me, but I realized he's not the man for me. He's the perfect man in my mother's eyes but if I was honest with myself, he just wasn't right for me. I was happy being single. My best friend Layla was over tonight and kept telling me how strong I was which was just what I needed to hear. We even talked about opening an advertising business together. It felt good to have someone on my side, and someone believing in me.

I knew sooner or later I would have to talk to Trent as well as my mama, but right now they just needed to back off. Right now, I just needed some time to focus on myself. Put myself fist for a change. I didn't need all these other voices around me trying to bring me down and make me feel guilty. It's time to put on my big girl panties and take back control of my own life.

Nola's pov

I had lunch with Trent and he sure had a lot to tell me. He told me he felt as if Nakia was a fake. Like she wasn't being her true self with him. I quickly showed him the errors of his ways. He either wanted her to be real or he wanted her to be perfect. A black man with his standing in the community needed a flawless woman on his arm. One that would always be at his side and stand by him through thick and thin.

He promised to call her and fix all of this. That wasn't good enough foe me. Hell, a phone call did nothing because she could always hang-up no, this man needed to make a grand gesture in order to win my baby girl back. He has been dicking around for far to long. He better get with the program. He was failing as being the perfect man for my daughter. He asked me what he should do. I loved it when things went exactly how I wanted them too.

I immediately took him to my jewelers and told him which ring he needed to get in order to impress her. I told him to go ahead and call her and tell her that he needed to talk. He better get this right because this was his only chance. He had to show Nakia that they were meant to be together.

My daughter needs to be with this man. He will give her the kind of life I only dreamed of having when I was her age. I had to do things a lady should never have to do just to get by. I wanted more for my child. I was hard on her because I loved her so much and I didn't want her to suffer the way I had. I just wish she could see that everything I have ever done was for her.

I know Trent is good for her. He is a good man and does seem to really love her, and since she wanted that ring so badly, she clearly loves him as well. They just needed a little push in the right direction. That was where I came in. I showed Trent what he really wanted but couldn't grasp the concept himself. Now it was time to work on my daughter and get her right again and not the hot mess she was now.

She turned thirty and lost her damn mind. She was talking to me all crazy like and she has never talked to me like that before. It was as if she blamed me for everything. She was the one that told me he was getting her the ring. She never should have jumped to conclusions like that. Never count your blessings until you know for damn sure it'll happen.

If you ask me, it kind of sounds like she has been pushing him away for years. You can't keep a man when you always have one foot outside the door. They can tell when something just isn't right. See we think they don't pay attention, but they do. They are smarter than we give them credit for being.

Even though I was angry with my daughter I decided to reach out to her. She needed to have her hair done for Trent. She needed to look flawless when he gave her that ring. I haven't seen her in awhile so thee was no telling what she looked like now. If she wanted to let herself go once, they were married that was on her. Once she gets married my job was done. I would have succeeded in a way no one thought I would. I needed this. She had to marry Trent.