Chapter 3 Party time

Chapter 2

Nakia's pov

I was so excited for this party. Everyone I knew was there. The place was beautiful, and the food was delicious, but I just wanted to get on with it. I wanted my ring and I was getting a little impatient. My mama looked over at m then stood up and said it was time for presents. I was so happy she did that guess she was getting impatient as well. I thought Trent would give me his gift first, but he just sat back and let everyone give me their gift. He just watched and told everyone their gift was nice never once acting like he had the only gift I truly wanted. I was really getting impatient now. What was going on?

When he finally did give me my present, I expected him to get down on one knee, but he didn't. I opened what I thought was a ring box and all it had in it was a charm necklace. What the hell was this? They started to bring out my cake and I tried to smile but by now all I wanted to do was just go home. I told Trent I wasn't feeling well and asked if we cold leave early and just go home. I know that will anger my mama, but I just didn't care. My mama always taught me to never show emotions. That you don't let your man see you upset well tough shit.

I am just tired of always holding everything in. Once we got home Trent asked me what was wrong. At first, I said nothing. I was just so emotional and knew I needed to try and calm down before I talked to him. Then I decided that I was done holding back. I told him that I was expecting an engagement ring tonight and he looked at me as if I was crazy. Which only pissed me off even more.

"You really think we are ready for marriage?" Trent asked with a smirk.

"Yes, you said I was perfect, and we love each other doesn't that mean we are ready for marriage?"

"Yes, your perfect and always have to be. That's the problem Nakia I don't even know the real you. I only get to see the made-up version of you. The fake one that you pretend to be for everyone. I don't need perfect what I need is for you to be real with me and I just don't think you can do that. You never take a chance and that gets old real fast."

"You're never going to marry me, are you?"

"That is not what I just said."

"NO, you said I am fake. You need to leave. Let's be real since you love that so much just go back to your place, I'm over this if you're not ready after four years together you never will be, and I am done wasting my time."

"I may not be ready now but all I'm asking is let me see you, the real you. Let's stop with all this non-sense. I didn't say we will never get married all I am saying is that we aren't ready right this minute."

"What you mean is your not ready stop making excuses. This isn't how tonight was supposed to go. I have done everything right. I had a plan."

"Life isn't all about plans or fitting perfectly into a neat little box Nakia and it's time you figured that out."

"No, my life needs to go according to plan. What do you need me to change to make you happy?"

"I am so sorry if I ever made you think something was wrong with you." Trent said witch such emotion in his voice.

"Trent just go please I think right now what I need is time alone to think about everything that has been said and done."

"Are you sure about this?"

"Yes, just go."

He walked out and slammed the front door. I knew he was mad that I made him leave. Good who needs a man any way. I sure as hell don't. The scary part was going to be telling my mama. She's going to handle this even worse than I had. It broke my heart hearing the man I gave four years of my life say he didn't know the real me. How could that be? I told him everything and we talked all the time.

I just needed tonight to myself to unwind. To wrap my head around all of this. Tomorrow I would call and explain everything to my mama, but I just couldn't tonight. I wasn't strong enough to deal with her just yet. I changed into some comfy sweats and a baggy t-shirt. If my mama saw me now, she would think I was having a breakdown and have me committed.

I took off my fake lashes and wiped off the ton of make-up I had on my face. I just wanted to be as natural as I could be right now. I needed to be real after what Trent said to me. I have hit a roadblock in my life and don't know where to go from here. I just need to find a way back from this.

I laid down on my bed and put on a Madea movie. It was time for a little Diary of a mad black woman. I was halfway through it when I heard a knock on my outside door. I wondered who it could be. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I thought about just ignoring it. I turned the TV down a little so that the person knocking wouldn't hear it. All my lights were out so hopefully they would just give up and leave.

Just when I thought they had left I now heard a knock on my bedroom window. It scared the shit out of me but that meant it could only be one of two people. It was either Trent or my mama neither of which I wanted to deal with again tonight. Whoever it was wasn't going to give up, so I just got out of bed and stormed to the door opening with a loud thud.

My mother jumped at the sudden noise then just walked around me and came right in. She looked me up and down and I could just see the judgement in her eyes. I was not in the mood for this right now. I am thirty years old not a baby anymore. She needed to realize that. I was done being her Barbie doll. I was not going to let her run me down tonight I have been through enough already. I had a bad night and all I wanted to do was watch chick flicks, pig out, and have myself an ugly cry. I just needed my mama to leave so I can do that.

Nola's pov

"Nakia what the hell are you wearing?"

"Well hello to you to mama. What are you doing here?"

"Oh, so now I have to have an invitation. I came to make sure your hair was still looking good for your man. Then I come here to see you looking like trash as if you have no sense at all. Where is Trent? Has he seen you like this? Hell, no wonder he held out on giving you a ring. You look like a hot mess. You need to get your shit together. No man wants a slob."

"Mama get out!"

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me. Get out!"

"He left you, didn't he? It figures looking like that I would leave your ass as well."

"No, I told him to leave, and now I am telling you to go."

"You're a damn fool. Enjoy being alone because you will never find another man like Trent."

I walked out because I just couldn't be around her any longer. She has ruined everything. How could she do that to me. How could she do that to me. How could she ruin all my hard work? I raised her better than this. How dare she talk to me like that. She was lucky I didn't knock her upside her damn fool head. I was so heated right now. She gets this from her no-good daddy.

I went home and got me a glass of wine. I needed to fix this because I knew Nakia couldn't. That girl couldn't do a thin for herself. I mean tonight proved that when she ended up dressing herself as a slob. I am the one that picks out her clothes to make sure she's perfect. I have done her hair every day since she has had hair. I made it look long and shiny. Everything she has is because of me. Now she wants to be ungrateful.

Maybe I should call Trent and tell him she wasn't feeling well and was taking meds that's why she wasn't acting herself and being all crazy. I mean she will never find another man like him. I wasn't going to let her ruin this. She needed to do better so he will marry her. She must have done something wrong. It should never take four years for a man to decide if he wants to marry you or not. She needed to strengthen up or she was going to have nothing.