Chapter 2 NO.2

Issabelle POV:

"Mum! Dad! I'm home" I shout, walking in ans taking off my bag and shoes.

"Hey sweetie, how was school?" Mum asked and Dad came and wrapped his arms around Mums waist. I smiled at my mother and father- who were still extremely in love.

"It was good" I partly lie, "how was your day?" I ask them.

"The usual" mum says with a smile.

"Can I talk to you?" Dad asked mum. He smiled at me before kissed mum's cheek.

"Sure" she says and they walk into the kitchen.

Mum and Dad have the perfect relationship. They have been in love since 17 and they still are. They are married and have had 2 kids.

"I'm home" Ryder says, loud enough for our parents to hear.

"Hey, Ry. Whens work?" I asked in a hushed voice whilst he hugged me.

"Today, Tuesday, Friday and Sunday. Would you be able to make all of them?" He asked, a look of concern masking his emotions.

"Yeah." I say, nodding which made my hair fly everywhere.

We both had dark brown hair and we both had dark, Brown eyes. I had some freckles over my nose but they are faded. Everyone were fully aware that Ry and I were twins.

Ryder was 6"1, way taller than me but not taller than dad. I was 5"6 and mum was 5"7.

"Hey Ryder. How was your day?" Our mum asks, appearing back at the kitchen door. She had a small frown on her lips.

"It was okay" he shrugs, taking off his shoes before running his hand through his hair.

"You two, tonight, your mother and i need a word with both of you" my dad says sternly. His brows were furrowed.

"Okayy" I say, drawing on the 'y'. My guess was it was to do with skipping today.

"We need you both to be honest with us and if not, you are grounded" he adds, I could tell by the tone of his voice that he wasn't joking. I nodded.

"Do you think they found out about, you know?" I ask Ryder and he shrugs, his arm automatically comes around me to comfort me.

"I don't know, Iz." He says and we both go in my room, walking in silence, "How do you think they would react?" I ask worriedly. What if they demand therapy?

"I think they would be upset we didn't tell them. I think they might end up feeling guilty because they didn't notice, if you tell them. If it is about skipping, its not like they can be super mad. They used to do it" he says and i nod. I sit on my bed, my head in my hands.

This was all too much.

We put on some films and helped each other with homework until we got called down.

"Tea is ready" dad shouts and we go downstairs and sat at the table.

I push the food around my plate, not feeling hungry. Just worried about what they needed to talk to us about.

"We got a call from the school today. You two, skipping again! I can't believe it" my mum sighs, raking her hand through her hair. It wasn't like mum to loose her cool so we must have really pushed it.

"I'm sorry. It was my fault" I say honestly but Ryder shook his head. I glared at him, kicking him from under the table.

"No. It as my fault" Ryder says and i gave him a look to stop.

"I don't care who's fault it is!" My dad says loudly, grabbing all of our attention.

"Seb" my mum warns looking at dad, silently telling him to calm down.

"What sweetheart? We've told them before not to and they do!" He says and my mum sighs again. He was right but my mum absolutely hated it when there was an argument. She preferred to talk about it.

"Seb, please." She begs and he sighs, standing up.

"I'm sorry" he says before walking out the room, shutting the door behind him.

"Look. I'm mad at both of you. You're both grounded. Ryder, no phone, laptop or--" but I cut her off. My heart began racing.

"Everything is your fault! Every single thing is your fault! Do you fucking hear me Issabelle?" His voice screamed at me, making a shiver go down my spine.

"Mum. It was my fault. I made Ryder skip with me" i protest, jumping up from my seat. She rolled her eyes.

I couldn't do that.

I couldn't sit there and let him get in trouble because of me.

"He is his own person. He makes his own decisions" she sighs. "Ryder, as I was saying--" she continues.

My decision was easy. I either let Ryder get the blame as well as me or I tell her.

"I have insomnia " I shout. Ryder's head snapped in my direction, his eyes wide in shock. He grabbed my hand tightly and squeezed.

"He left school with me because i got an hour sleep last night. I'll take the punishment. Not him" i finish before walking upstairs, my hand slipping out of Ryder's.

I Locked my bedroom door before letting tears fall.

I

Hate

It.

I hate that I'm here.

And I hate that people care.

I hate that I got my twin in trouble.

I hate that I'm useless.

I just hate that I'm me.

I put my head on my knees before wrapping my arms around my legs.

I hate Harry.

I hate myself for thinking anyone like him could love me.

I hate myself for being naive.

I hate myself for being selfish.

That's how I spent the next half an hour, sobbing quietly in the corner of my room.

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Ryder POV:

"I have insomnia " she shouted. Tears clouded Her eyes and i knew she was close to her breaking point. I grabbed her hand, tightly.

"He left school with me because i got an hour sleep last night. I'll take the punishment. Not him" she finished before walking upstairs.

I glared at the plate. Nothing was meant to come out like this.

"Ryder" mum sniffed, her eyes red and puffy.

I then realised she was crying.

"Is it true? Does she have insomnia?" She asks, pleading for it not to be true.

"Yeah, she has ever since..." but I cut myself off. I can't tell her, its not my place to.

"Ever since?" Mum questions.

"I can't tell you. It's not my place to. Just, give her space? I'm not sure. She was planning to tell you, everything. She is scared" I sigh and my mum comes to my side.

"Please" she begs as more tears fall. She looked helpless, sobbing as she found this out.

I wrapped my arms around her.

"Please don't cry mum. She will tell you soon" I say, swallowing a lump that formed in my throat.

My mum was crying and my sister probably was too.

"I hope she does. Is there anything really important I should know about her though?" She asked, wiping her tears. Her lip trembled as she grabs my hand tightly.

"Don't bring up Sophia or Harry. At all." I say and she wiped a tear that managed to fall.

"I love you Ryder" she says, his eyes vulnerable. Probably because Issy didn't tell her.

"I love you mum" I say kissing her cheek.

"Baby? What's wrong?" Dad asks mum, rushing to her side and rubbing her back.

"It's Izzy. She...She has insomnia and i didn't even notice. I'm a horrible mother" she cries and dads eyes widen.

"What? Our... Our baby has insomnia?" he asks, his voice cracking.

"I took her to skip school so that she could sleep. She only had an hour last night" I say and my dad frowns, his own eyes filling with tears.

"Why?" He asked, looking completely and utterly hopeless.

"That's for her to tell you." I say and hug my mum and dad.

"I'm going to see if Izzy is okay" I smile sadly and they nod, comforting each other.

"I love you both"

"We love you too Ryder." Dad smiled and crouched down in front of mum began crying again.

I tried to open Izzy's door but it as Locked.

I began to panic like mad.

I know that her confession would make her upset.

Thoughts when you at upset and angry are usually bad and she is Locked in.

"Izzy" I say but instead I hear her soft sobs. My heart felt heavy. She didn't deserve this.

"Iz. Its Ryder. Listen okay? Mum and dad doesn't hate you. They don't hate us. Please open the door. Please Iz" I beg and hear her scurrying footsteps.

The door is opened and i hug her tightly.

I felt her body shake as she cried.

"Shh. Shh. Its okay. Everything will be okay, I promise" I say and smile when she stopped crying.

"I just, I hate it when people care for me. I don't even care for myself so why should anyone else?" She says and i smile at her.

"Because we love you Iz. We are going to help you no matter What. I promise you" I say and hug her again.

"I'm going to get ready for work now okay? I'll meet you in 20" she says quietly and i nod.

"I love you little sis" I smile, knowing she gets annoyed when I say she is little.

"I'm not that small" she grumbled but smiled anyway.

"But I love you too" I kissed her head before walking into my room.