Chapter 2 Confrontation

Navelya

Confrontation

Episode 2

Navelya

__ I want to divorce and I want it to be done now.

__ Do you think you can get rid of me so easily? No, Navelya, you will never get this divorce that you want so much, and do you know why? Because it is I who decides. You have no power in this marriage. Everything revolves around me and must continue to turn around Ruben. You know very well that I am not ordinary. Just involve my lawyer and in an instant, everything will be settled. You will only be free when I have made my decision. For the moment, you must continue to act as if everything was fine between us until I decide your fate. Now get out of my room and never repeat what you just did.

I timidly go back to my room, tears in my eyes. I don't know where to put myself. I cry abundantly. I stand in front of the mirror to see what is wrong. Why does he treat me like this? Am I insufficiently beautiful in his eyes? Am I ugly? Why should I endure this suffering by his side? How long will I have to continue playing comedy in this marriage?

I recently surprised my husband having sex with another woman with us, but I feel helpless. I am unable to defend myself against him.

I am exhausted to live in the shadow of someone who does not love me and who may never love me.

I made so much effort for nothing. I had organized a romantic dinner for both of us, but what did I get back? Nothing other than the broken heart. I always struggle to believe it.

The rest of the night was very long for me. I have to endure this woman's groans with my husband. Whenever I close my eyes, I see the image of my husband making love with this woman. Me, I always dreamed of this day with him but this day has never happened and I think he will never happen. I lost all hope in me. I do not deserve to suffer so much for a man who is not worth it. Finally, I understood that he will never change. My heart is bleeding. I wanted to leave this house and never come back again, but I'm afraid of my husband's reaction. I am afraid he would attack me or my family, I am afraid that he is hurting me because I no longer know what he will be capable of. I prefer to keep my silence and wait for God's right moment. Yes, it is often said that everything that happens to us in life is by the grace of God. It is he alone who allowed me to suffer in my home, he is the only one who can decide my fate but until when should I wait?

I stop crying, I take a shower before making my husband's breakfast, but I see that he is no longer there. He left with his mistress, so much the better.

I have breakfast before leaving the house for work. I manage a clothing store for women and men. I arrive at work and I see my husband's car parked in front of my shop. What is he doing there? Does he still want to lower me in my workplace? That, I will not allow him to disrespect me so far.

I approach him with a tight heart. He looks in mine. Why should my heart be fighting for a man who does not deserve my love? He looks at me so much with disgust while I want to kiss him, caress him, smell his smell, abandate me in his arms. Let him tell me how much he loves me and that he is sorry for what happened yesterday.

He takes me to him, which makes me jump from my cloud.

-What were you thinking about? Why am I the only one to speak since you are there?

- Sorry, what were you saying already?

-Listen to me well, Navelya, I'm not here to apologize to you for what happened yesterday at home. You know very well that it is not in my habits to ask for forgiveness, so I will not.

__ Why are you there Ruben?

__ I am not given orders and you know it very well.

__ I just asked you a simple question. I don't give you orders.

__ Here, it is I who commands, it is I who asks the questions and you, you just have to answer me Navelya.

__ What do you want?

__ I want you to continue to close your big mouth. Above all, does not tell anyone what's going on between us. You must continue to pretend that we are a real couple.

__ And that for how long?

__ For a long time if necessary, you know very well that you don't have your say. You just have to obey my orders.

__ Okay, if you're done, you can go.

He pulls me by hair before tightening my neck. I find it hard to breathe and I see that it amuses him to see me suffer. I got married to a psychopath, a mental patient.

I managed to detach myself from him before doing him again.

__ never put your dirty legs on me again, otherwise you will regret it.

__ And what are you going to do? He said before approaching dangerously towards me. I take a step back to avoid teaching your anger again.

__ don't approach me Ruben.

He turns my back on me and gets into his car without saying an more word. So much the better, since I no longer want to see her face as dry and hard. He disgusts me so much. How to continue to live with a psychopath like Ruben?

My conscience: Navelya, you have to really decide, you have to make a decision before it is too late. You have to leave this toxic relationship that will not lead you anywhere. You have to decide what you want, what suits you. You have to take your life in your hand and you have to fight for your own happiness.

Yes, I am ready to fight intensely for my personal happiness. I am determined to brave all obstacles to conquer my freedom, and this time, I will not back down.

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