Chapter 3 Making Me Crazy

" Brittany,"

" Brittany,"

I heard Jessica's voice call out my name. She was probably looking for me.

My heart jumped as I thought about what she would do if she saw me with her brother, Jake.

"You need to go," I said to Jake immediately.

He nodded, but instead of walking away from me, he leaned in and kissed me one last time on the lips.

After a few minutes, I watched him finally walk away, disappearing into a dark area around.

I stood there, staring at where he disappeared. I wondered why I did what I just did. I could still feel the taste of his lips on my mine. My head was spinning and my body was burning up. I've never felt this way about anyone or anything.

Suddenly the cold wind hit me and I began to shiver.

"Where the hell have you been?" Jessica asked as she approached me. "I've been looking all over for you. Where did you go?"

My cheeks were flushed and my body was drenched with sweat.

"Oh, ummm... I was just catching up with a friend, that's all. Why? What happened? Did something happen with the guys?"

Jessica sighed loudly, shaking her head. She threw her arms around my shoulder and held me tight.

"No, nothing is wrong," she answered, "Except for the fact that you are freezing."

I looked up at the sky, realizing how late it was, almost midnight.

"Come on let's go home," she said.

"What of the party?" I asked, surprised that she was leaving so early.

"It's boring and I'm so wasted," she laughed a little too loudly.

I could smell the alcohol on her breath. She must have drank a lot because her walking was unsteady. And she was holding onto my arm like a koala bear.

"Come on Brittany, let's get out of here. Let's go home," she said.

She took my hand and we started to make our way back. As we walked down the streets of campus to our dorm. All I could think of was Jake, and what we had done. How he held me in this arm and kissed me. The way he made me feel just by standing close to me. I knew this was wrong. This was dangerous.

If Jessica ever found out I kissed her brother or I was even thinking of seeing him tomorrow, she'd flip out. Probably kill me.

She had always warned me about Jake. Called him the black sheep of the family. Said he was bad news and not to get involved with him.

I remember all those times, she'd comfort the other girls he had broken up with. Or the times they would call her up crying after he dumped them.

All these years and I ended up kissing him anyway. It was as if my brain was telling me one thing but my heart was saying something else entirely.

I pushed those thoughts aside as I focused on trying to keep up with Jessica, who was staggering along the sidewalk like a drunkard and singing a song she made up as she went. Her head was bobbing up and down and her eyes were half closed.

"I love you!!!" she suddenly yelled, startling me, "I looooove you!!!"

I couldn't help but laugh, I pulled her closer to me, steadying her as best I could. The last thing I needed was for her to fall and break an ankle.

We finally reached our dorm after what seemed like hours. And I laid her drunken ass on her bed.

"So tell me," she slurred, sitting upright on the bed, her eyes wide open.

"Tell you what, Jessica?" I asked, confused. What did she want me to tell her?

"Yes. Tell me about the guy you were talking to. Don't think I didn't see you two kissing. Is he hot? Does he have nice teeth? Are his feet big?" She said with so much enthusiasm.

I chuckled, looking at her with disbelief.

"Are you serious, Jessica? What did you drink?" I asked, shaking my head.

"What? Oh, nothing. Just some shots. Nothing to worry about. You know, drinking games and stuff." She shrugged.

"Yeah right! You really are getting old. I mean look at you. You're getting tipsy off some shots? I thought you were a party animal" I said, laughing again.

Jessica turned to me with her mouth hanging open. "This isn't about me. This is about you not wanting to tell me about the cute guy you were kissing. So spill already. Who was he? I want details."

My heart started racing. There was no way I could tell Jessica that the guy I was kissing was her own brother. No fucking way. It was a secret I was going to take to my grave.

God forbid she finds out I was hanging out with the one guy she had warned me against.

"He was just someone I met today at the party, that's it. He was cute, that's all."

Jessica gave me a smirk and then continued, asking me questions I didn't know how to answer.

"Did he kiss you? Was he a good kisser?" She asked again.

I tried my best to change the subject.

"Why don't you get some sleep. You're wasted," I said, giving her a peck on the cheek.

"And you can tell me all about your mystery man tomorrow," she said with a wink.

I smiled back at her while I watched her lie down and drift off to sleep. I sat there for a moment, reflecting on everything that had occurred earlier that day. I should have never gone to the party. I shouldn't have kissed Jake. I should have known better than to get involved with him. This wasn't good. I could only imagine how freaked out Jessica would be if she found out.

But then again, I have never felt like this before. Like something was pulling me to him. I wanted to see him again. I wanted more of his kisses. His touch. The feeling I got in my tummy every time I thought about him. That tingling sensation inside of me.

God! This boy was making me crazy.