Chapter 5 5

- She's so different, she doesn't look at me like a piece of meat ready to be eaten wholeheartedly. She doesn't even pay attention to me, if you saw her doctor you would surely agree with me, she is so special. I don't have enough words to describe her, she is just her.

- I see, replied the doctor, graying something on his notepad.

Kyle sat up and looked at the doctor, he seemed to have a new diagnosis. Dr. Cooper had been her physician for several years. It was his psychologist. Alexander and Justin had seen fit to submit him to a specialist because he had not fully recovered from the trauma he had experienced at his uncle's house. Kyle could say that it was the best decision they had ever made in their lives, even though he had been against it at first he had over time realized that it did him the greatest good to speak with the Doctor Cooper who had become his confidant. Even his friends didn't know as much about his life as his psychologist.

- SO ? What do you think about it? He asked since the doctor had only been scribbling for quite a while.

The doctor raised an eyebrow and stood up, gesturing to Kyle to his office. He also got up in his turn. They sat facing each other as would a patient who has come for a consultation.

- Do you want my opinion as a doctor or as a friend? asked the doctor.

Kyle leaned back comfortably in the chair and crossed his feet casually.

- Dan, you know that with me there are no formalities and you are in fact the only person I listen to, he replied with his eternal devastating smile.

- One day you will have to be more open with Justin and Alexander, they don't know all the details of your life and they worry about you.

Kyle got up and walked over to the floor-to-ceiling windows, for some reason he was always calm when he looked at the city through them.

- So that they cover me like a newborn? No, thank you. Justin is a cold person but he can be very protective when he gets going and Alex is a real dad who is always intrusive.

The doctor got up in turn and placed a comforting hand on his shoulder.

- Kyle, they are your friends and they are more than that, they are now your brothers. Look how invested you were when Alexander was kidnapped two years ago. You even cried, you called me in the middle of the night, remember? You care about them more than you think. The doctor told him sincerely.

Kyle huffed lightly. Daniel Cooper always told him what he thought and what he needed to hear. He always told her the truth without restraint.

- I'm not yet ready to give up this part of my life, I don't feel ready for this at all, I wouldn't want them to look at me with pity, I don't need it. Kyle said sadly.

Doctor Cooper shook his head frantically.

- Do you know your problem? asked the doctor, almost irritated.

Kyle replied in the negative.

- You are so convinced that no one will love you that you have built a barrier inside yourself that prevents you from opening your heart. You think you can never love someone or fall in love until you realize that you already are.

Kyle looked at the doctor in confusion, or was he going to look for this love story again? Him Kyle in love? From whom? Impossible, he was condemned to never love and not to be loved.

- Dan, you're talking nonsense.

-Kyle please. You speak of this young woman as the eighth wonder of the world, you love this young woman, it is the first time that you speak so much about a woman with this very particular way of describing her. This had never happened before, not even with Carmen.

Kyle uttered thousands of curses, waiting for this good woman's name always made him angry.

- Please don't tell me about this task. She completely messed up my life. And then speaking of Roxana , it's only been a week since I met him and you know I don't believe in love at first sight.

Smiling, the doctor went to sit down. Kyle waited a long time before doing the same.

- If what you say is true, suppose your analysis is correct, then I will be in love with this woman? Kyle continued, speaking to himself and the doctor.

- Tell me Kyle, how do you feel when you see her?

- At peace, serene and happy. It awakens something in me different from desire, attraction or anything else. It's a strange and inexplicable feeling.

- These are the symptoms of a man in love. This is what makes love beautiful, it cannot be explained, it is simply experienced, the doctor concluded. Kyle please let your heart love and let yourself be loved too.

- But how? asked this one.

- It's up to you to discover Kyle, these are your feelings, it's up to you to discover them. I am only your guide.

Kyle left Dr. Cooper's office more lost than ever. He was now convinced that what he felt for Roxana was love and not an illness like he thought. He didn't know how to make her feel the same things, he didn't want to be the only one to suffer, all it took was one look and he was completely obsessed with her. He hadn't slept with a woman in a week and that was how long it had been since he met that little Mexican girl.

- Whoaou , a real record, he said to himself.

He didn't know what to do. Kyle had grown up in a completely chaotic environment. It's not easy for a child to have a prostitute mother who didn't know the difference between bottle milk and a bag of cocaine or to end up with an alcoholic father who was only concerned about the bottle of cognac or even... 'an uncle who used you to get money and who constantly told you that you would end up like your mother, that is to say no one, just a sexual object or even like your father, a common drunkard. Kyle closed his eyes for a moment, his meeting with Alex and Justin had been the best of his life, he had had great brothers at heart even if he had not completely surrendered to them. He loved them very much even if he refused to admit it, living without them was unthinkable for him. He was still lost in his thoughts when his phone rang, he took it and saw Justin's contact, this one was different since he had met this young African girl.

- SO ?

- Hello to you too Kyle, I love you too brother, replied Justin with humor.

Kyle smiled, he loved to infuriate them. He was the only one who could piss them off, especially Justin.