Chapter 5 Four

Chapter 4

Nakia's Pov

I was at home packing up some things to donate. I decided since I'm trying to start this new adventure and find out who I am that I needed to get rid of the old. I didn't need this big fancy house. It wasn't what I wanted it was what my mama said I needed. All this house does is make me feel lonely. I just didn't want to live here any longer.

I was going to donate everything and downsize. I wanted to fill my new place with things that made me happy. Things that I picked out for myself. I was going to stay with Layla while my house was on the market and found another place. I couldn't wait because Layla always made things fun. It was going to be the sleepover I was never allowed to have when I was younger.

There was a knock on her door and she ran to answer it thinking it was the moving company coming to get the big furniture to take to a place they called the Free Store that helped give women things for their homes. Most of the women came from abusive relationships and were starting over with nothing. So, I was going to donate everything to them and also money as well. I wanted to start making a difference.

"Oh, Trent it's you what are you doing here?"

"Who were you expecting?" He asked.

"That is none of your business we are no longer together. I don't have time for whatever you want so there is the door."

"I don't get why you are being so hateful. I get that I disappointed you and I am truly sorry for that. I came to make things right."

What was this fool going on about? She knows she was being kind of harsh, but she had a feeling he didn't come here on his own. No, this had her mama written all over it. He was right when he said they knew nothing about each other. Their whole relationship was dictated by her mama and she was tired of it all. She just wanted to be set free.

"Trent things haven't been right with us for a long time. It just took you being gone for me to see that."

"What are you saying, Nakia?"

"I am saying that right now I need to figure out who I am. I need to be alone to do that. I'm sorry Trent but this isn't going to work between us."

"Nakia I was wrong about everything I said. I do know you. I love you. You are perfect in every way for me."

He got down on one knee and opened a box then held it up for me to see. It was a beautiful ring. It was what I thought I had wanted. If he had asked me when I thought, he was going to I would have said yes. Now I knew this was not my life. If I married Trent I would regret it for the rest of my life. I wanted more than to just be some rich guy's wife.

"Trent please get up."

"Nakia this is what you said you wanted. It took me a minute to realize it, but this is what I have wanted all along. Marry me, baby."

He just wasn't listening. I didn't want to hurt him because he was a good man. He's just not the one for me. I needed to be single and focus on myself for a while. I did love Trent, but I couldn't ask him to wait for me. I didn't know how long I needed. I just had to do this. I have been living a lie for far too long and now that I realized that I couldn't go back to the woman I once was.

"Trent you're such a good man and I do love you, but right now I need to focus on myself. I need to find out who I am, so I am truly sorry, but I can't marry you."

"Look Nakia I get what you're saying. I will go and give you time to figure everything out just don't count me out is all I ask."

"Trent I am not going to ask you to wait for me. You need to go on and live your life. If what we have is meant to be then we will find each other again. Take care of yourself, Trent."

"You're a good woman Nakia and I wish you all the best."

They kissed for what could be the last time. Then he hugged me and left. I'm glad he came by, so we could talk and get that closure. I don't get why he bought a ring though. Just a few days ago he said they weren't ready for all of that so why did he change his mind about all of that so fast? Then it dawned on me. I knew exactly who was behind all of this and she needed to stop. She can't keep trying to control my life like this. I needed to call my mama and tell her that all of this needed to stop.

Nola's Pov

Trent called me and told me that he talked to Nakia and that they both agreed to go their separate ways. I tried telling him that was a huge mistake, but he wasn't having any of that. He told me I needed to just stay out of it. Who the hell does he think he is? He's a damn fool that's who he is.

I think it was time I had a very long heart-to-heart with my daughter. She has ruined her life and showed me she is out of her mind. I don't know what has gotten into her, but all of this stops today. I knew I couldn't control my temper if I saw her, so I just decided to call her first.

"Hello, mama I am glad you called we need to talk."

"Yes, we do. What the hell were you thinking to turn Trent down like that?"

"I would ask how you knew anything about it, but this had your name written all over it. You need to stay out of this mama. This is my life. I am a grown woman and it is time I take over my own life."

"Oh, look who put on her big girl panties today. You have ruined everything."

"Mama, I love you, but it is time you stop living your life through me and go out and find your happiness."

How dare she say that to me. All my life it has been about her happiness. She took over every part of my life. Everything I have done is for her. Now she's throwing it all in my face. I felt hurt. She has done more than just lose her mind. I don't even know who she is anymore.

"You need to get right and until you do don't contact me. You are not my daughter when she comes back then call me."

I hung up the phone even angrier than when I had been. The things she said to me. If I ever talked to my mama that way I would have been beaten down. It wouldn't have mattered what age I was. Years of being beaten and ridiculed taught me to be prim and proper. I have never once hit my daughter. She was lucky to have the life I have given her and one day soon I hope she realizes that.