Chapter 3 Two

Chapter 2

Nakia's Pov

For my 30th birthday, I thought my boyfriend of four years was going to give me a ring, so we could start a family. Only that doesn't happen. He throws me a party and gets me a necklace instead of a ring. but I was taught never to show emotions. Don't let your man see you upset my mama always said, but I was tired of holding everything in. I told Trent once we were at home that I was expecting a ring, and he looked at me all crazy-eyed Laughs hysterically and spoke

"You think we are ready for marriage?" Trent asked.

"Yes, you said I was perfect. Doesn't that mean we are ready for marriage?"

"Yes, you are perfect and always must be. That's the problem Nakia I don't even know the real you. I only get to see the made-up version of you. The fake one that you pretend to be for everyone. I don't want perfect. I want real. You never take a chance and that gets old real fast."

"You're never going to marry me, are you?"

"That is not what I just said."

"You need to leave. Let's be real about this. You should just leave. If you aren't ready now you never will be."

"I may not be ready now but all I am asking is to let me see you the real you. Let's stop with all this nonsense. I didn't say we will never get married all I am saying is that we aren't ready right this minute."

"This isn't how things are supposed to go. I have done everything right. I had a plan."

"Life isn't all about plans or fitting perfectly into a neat little box Nakia and it's time you figured that out."

"No, my life needs to go according to plan. What do you need me to change to make you happy?"

"I am so sorry if I ever made you think something was wrong with you," Trent said with such emotion in his voice.

"Trent just go please I think right now what I need is time alone to think about everything that has been said and done."

"Are you sure about this?"

"Yes, just go."

He walked out and slammed the door. Good who needs a man anyway? I sure didn't. The scary part was going to be telling my mother. She was going to handle this worse than I was. It broke my heart hearing the man I loved the man I gave four years of my life say that he didn't know the real me. How could that be when we talked all the time?

I just needed tonight to myself to unwind. To wrap my head around all of this. Tomorrow I would call and explain everything to my mama, but I just couldn't tonight. I wasn't strong enough to deal with her just yet. I changed into some comfy sweats and a baggy shirt. If my mama saw me now she would have me committed.

I took off my fake lashes and wiped the ton of makeup that I had on my face off. I just wanted to be as natural as I could be right now. I needed to feel real after what Trent had said to me. I have hit a roadblock in my life and didn't know where to go from here. I just had to find a way to come back from this.

I laid down in my bed and put on a Madea movie. It was time for a little Diary of a mad black woman. I was halfway through it when I heard a knock on my door. I wondered who it could be. I didn't want to talk to anyone. I thought about just ignoring it. I turned the TV down a little so that the person knocking wouldn't hear it. All my lights were out so hopefully, they gave up and left soon.

Just when I thought they had left there was a knock on my bedroom window. It scared the shit out of me but that meant it could only be one of two people. It was either Trent or my mama. Neither of which I wanted to deal with again tonight. Whoever it was wasn't going to give up, so I got out of bed and stormed to the door opening it with a bang.

My mother jumped at the sudden noise and then just walked right in. She looked me up and down and I could just see the judgment in her eyes. I was not in the mood for this right now. I am thirty years old not a baby anymore. She needed to realize that. I was done being her Barbie doll. I was not going to let her run me down tonight. I had a bad night and all I wanted to was watch chick flicks pig out and have myself an ugly cry.

Nola's Pov

"Nakia, what the hell are you wearing?"

"Well hello to you too mama. What are you doing here?"

"Oh, so now I have to have an invitation? I came to make sure your hair was still looking good for your man. Then I come here, and you look like this. Where is Trent? Has he seen you like this? No wonder he held out on giving you a ring. You look like a hot mess. You need to get your shit together."

"Mama get out."

"Excuse me?"

"You heard me get out."

"He left you, didn't he?"

"No, I told him to leave, and now I am telling you to go."

"You're a damn fool. Enjoy being alone."

I walked out because I just couldn't be around her any longer. She has ruined everything. How could she do that to me? How could she ruin all my hard work? I raised her better than this. How dare she talk to me like that. She was lucky I didn't knock her upside her damn foolish head. I was so heated right now. She gets this from her no-good daddy.

I went home and got me a glass of wine. I needed to fix this because I know Nakia can't. That girl can't do anything on her own. I mean she dressed like a slob. I am the one who picks out her clothes to make sure she's perfect. I have done her hair every day since she had hair. I made it look long and shiny. Everything she has is because of me. Now she wants to be ungrateful.

Maybe I should call Trent and tell him she wasn't feeling well and was taking some meds. That's what made her all crazy. She was never going to get another man like him. I wasn't going to let her ruin this. She needed to be better so he would marry her. She must have done something wrong. It should never take a man four years to decide if he wants to marry you or not. She needed to straighten up or she was going to have nothing.