Chapter 2 my flirty aura

Chapter 2

I went to where he was because I saw the sharpness of his gaze on me. I sat next to him and he immediately made me sit in the empty seat as if he cared for me.

He introduced me to them so as a good son I smiled as if I really wanted to talk to them.

Very flat, everything is a lie.

Acting like a caring father to his only daughter for public image.

"You really love your beautiful unica ija Amolo!" Senator Livico still laughed but he was looking at my breasts.

They are all perverts, acting good in front of everyone but a total demon behind closed doors.

"Of course mate, I'll take care of my son." Daddy smiled before telling me to leave because they had something to talk about.

It's good because their presence is nauseating and repulsive.

I know Daddy didn't send me away because he was just on a trip, he wants to start the plan.

I sighed and gathered all my strength to look around and in the middle of the crowd I found him, he's sitting alone while drinking a glass of wine.

Wearing my flirty aura i managed to walk with grace and when i got the chance i suddenly sat on his lap but i was shocked when he dragged me and uttered something.

"Get off, give yourself a little shame

I woke up shaking and sweating profusely.

Dream!

Is that just a dream?!

Memories of the past are coming back to me.

First of all Seigneur really doesn't like me anymore, I'm just a fool forcing myself.

Ever since we first met, I could see the disgust in his eyes, I can't blame him either.

I leaned over and realized that there was dextrose on me. I just wiped my tears and looked around the room.

I was in the hospital because the white ceiling and those attached to me as well as the smell opened up to me.

"Where is Nana Loling?" I asked myself and slowly sat up, feeling my body hurt and still shaking.

I just went, even in this state Seigneur was still not worried. I'm used to it, even if I die, he doesn't care.

I was about to remove the dextrose stuck to my hand when Nana Loling came.

"Jusko! Cecelia, rest first." He quickly laid me on the bed.

I noticed the bags he was carrying, obviously he passed by the market before heading here.

"I just took your clothes, I also brought you some fruits that I bought at the orchard." Smiling and friendly, Nana Loling peeled an apple for me.

"Nana, isn't the Seigneur worried about a-me?" Yes, I'm very delusional, just taking a chance that even if our marriage is not good, somehow and even as a person he will show sympathy to me.

Why should he worry about me? Actually, even I can't answer it because there is no reason. I just wiped the tears that spontaneously fell from my eyes.

"Right? This is your favorite apple? Here." I knew he was changing the subject so I forced myself to smile at him and accepted the apple he handed to me.

"Thank you Nana Loling.." I just replied and frowned, I don't want to cry in front of him, the old man will surely worry.

Of all the people I met, Nana Loling was the only one who cared about me when I arrived at Seigneur's house.

Nana Loling has been serving Seigneur for a long time since he was young and she is the one who takes care of him. At first, Nana was also nice to me, we only got along when it came to cooking until the two of us got along so well that she treated me like a child.

"I don't know what's going on with that boy, he's not like he used to be." He was telling me stories while he was peeling onions for our lunch. "This is a kind and obedient boy, he is not cruel and not bad to deal with but I don't know what is happening to him, maybe there is a reason why his heart is so hard." It's a litany while I just listen to him.

I was deep in thought while remembering our conversation with Nana when she suddenly spoke so I looked at her.

"By the way, Cecelia, the doctor is taking care of you. You are pregnant." He smiled kindly at me and held my hands.

The tears I had been holding back and trying to hold back started to fall.

The tears I had been holding back and trying to hold back started to fall.

"am I pregnant?" I will ask again.

Nana Loling nodded and spoke. "Yes, you are three weeks pregnant according to the doctor who examined you!" He immediately hugged me and stroked my back.

I cried again, I was happy even though something ran in my heart. All of my thoughts were thrown into disarray and a statue, mixed with emotions. I don't know if I'll be happy or sad because of my situation but I'm happy that my love for him paid off even though he could only give me cruelty and hatred.

Will he be happy when he finds out I'm pregnant? I don't know the answer, just now and I feel like I'm about to swallow my own tongue with excitement.

"We will tell the Seigneur!" Nana Loling's happy attitude.

"Don't worry, Nana, it's just us." Every word I say is weak. "I don't want him to know, I'm afraid for my son."

Maybe he will hate me even more and won't accept our baby, that will hurt more.

Seeing his father disowning my son.

Baby, don't worry, Mommy is here, she won't leave you.

"I understand Cecelia, I'm happy and I'm only here for you two..." Nana hugged me, somehow I felt relieved.

I better keep it from him, I know he won't be happy.

A few days later I was discharged. My condition is fine, so Nana Loling and I went home. I felt sorry for him going back and forth, especially since he was still working at home. Nana is old but her body is still strong, but even so I am still worried about her.

We arrived at the house where Seigneur was in the kitchen and sitting at the table.

"It's time for you to go home! Cook!" He shouted at me and broke the plate on his table.

Nana Loling was startled so I smiled at her to convey that I will take care of it. I quietly went straight to the kitchen and washed my hands. I cooked his favorite pickled dish. I feel like I'm still weak, maybe it's because my body hasn't recovered much, but I can do it.

I just ignored my feelings because I didn't want to make Seigneur angry again. It's better if I just follow him and he might hurt me and harm my child.

I just sat on the side and waited for him to finish eating. I put away what he had eaten without saying a word, I saw that he straightened up and then stood up and spoke.

"Clean my room, wash my clothes too. Stretch a bone, it will be useless for a few days." He ordered coldly then got up and went to the living room.

I just smiled at him and went to wash his food while holding back tears.

I just turned on the faucet so he wouldn't hear my sobs.

After I washed the dishes, I also put away what I put aside earlier, I gently put it in plastic and wrapped it in old clothes before putting it in the trash. It's hard and the garbage picker might get hurt just in case, then I went inside. I sadly arranged the pillow on the sofa, it was a bit cold so I just snuggled up to myself.

I'm okay now that I'm out here, away from Seigneur, away from someone who can hurt me and my baby.

I looked at the ceiling of the room while listening to the noise outside, many farting. They are very happy, the family is together and whole and will welcome the new year together.

Like at Christmas we were the only quiet house in this village. Always, even last Christmas. I decided to stand up and went to the fridge, I took the small cupcake that was there.

"11:30." I smiled and rubbed my stomach. "I promise my son, I will give you a beautiful and happy life, we will experience a happy Christmas even if it's just the two of us." I whispered to myself.

"Cecelia..." I turned around to see nana Loling, she was carrying a gift.

"I'm sorry I just gave it now." He was smiling at me and stroking my hair.

"it's my first time to receive a gift...m-thank you so much..." I admitted to him.

We never celebrated things like this, it's just that daddy is always busy at work and when he comes home, it's just pain and abuse.

Christmas is just a nightmare for me.

"Hey, don't be sad, it's bad for the baby." He comforted me.

Somehow I felt better when nana Loling started telling stories about her experiences since she was a child and how they used to celebrate Christmas.

"W-why is Christmas celebrated?" All my life I was curious why, I also don't know why I didn't have the chance to experience this in my youth.

Nana Loling smiled at me and gently caressed my hand that was resting on the table.

"You know, ija, the most important reason why Christmas is celebrated is that it is the day of the birth of our Savior Jesus. It is only appropriate to take time and fully appreciate Christmas day, it is also the day that unites everyone, helping each other, giving, getting together and eating together while looking back on the happy moments of their lives."

She explained it carefully in a way I could understand but there's one thing that struck me.

"Is Jesus real?" I just asked.

I didn't believe in God and his existence, because if he is real why is my life like this? Why is this difficult and painful? If he is true and loving why did he let me get hurt and end up in this situation?

You thought nana Loling would be angry with me but she just hugged me.

"Despite everything, he loves you very much and I'm sure you'll find him in your heart too." Words he said before he left me in the kitchen.

I don't know why my chest just got tight.

I'm very dirty, I've done inappropriate things, the people I love don't even love me and just abuse me.

Can God still love me despite everything?

To Be Continued...