I got into the jeep and took out my earphones and cellphone, paid before starting to write while driving, it was a long time and it was a waste of time, because when I got home I knew that I would be ordered again and maybe there would be nothing. it's time to draft more.
I close my eyes and imagine the guy that I dreamed about, his sexy lips and muscles that make him more sexier, his voice is lingering on my mind, I hope that the guys on my stories will show and save me from the ugliness of my life now.
No one dares to court me, I don't understand why or I'm just busy with my life that's full of pain so I don't know if someone is really interested in me or not.
My hand fluttered while what was in my mind was nothing short of the scenes I imagined that I myself was the star of what I am writing now.
Some guys are looking at me now, wondering how fast I'm typing on my phone right now. I ignored it and let him look at me.
It was only a matter of time and I was already there, I panicked when I noticed that I was already past our corner and was about to leave. I had to walk a long way to get to us, the fare was a waste and it was still early and not yet midnight.
I put the phone aside and walked towards us, I took a deep breath. This is me again at home which is hell for me.
I will be ordered even if I come from work and tired from outside, my parents who are biased and have favoritism.
I opened the door and there was no one in the living room, but I heard Mama and Papa talking from their room. I went straight to my room and when I opened it, I saw my brother holding my wallet from my clothes.
She went pale and I walked towards her, my allowance was empty to pay for my NCII at school. I said to Mama then, because they prioritized Drew's luxury.
"Why are you scratching my wallet, and where are the contents?!" I responded angrily and tried to touch Drew's pocket but he avoided it, giving me a bad look.
"You steal, that's mine. I'll pay for it at the school!" It passed me and my chest felt like it was going to explode with annoyance, I grabbed it and slapped it. He was stunned by me and I looked at him, all my life I have suffered pain and hardship from them.
"That's my money, I worked for it and you have no right to take money that isn't yours!" I stopped and suddenly Mama and Papa entered my room. I was pushed and attended by Drew, they saw the scar on his face, my palm.
Papa angrily slapped and kicked me. I start crying hard when Mama pulls my hair and slaps me.
"I ordered him to take the money, you are a very hateful person. You earn and work but you don't give!" I shook my head and puffed my cheeks.
"I'm just supporting myself, for my studies Ma-"
"Don't call me Mama, Adelrina. You should be thankful that you're being swallowed up and that you're still in this household even though you're useless." It opened my bag and scratched my bag, I was alarmed and I have not yet separated my salary.
"My bag is mine!" I said between the sobs and Papa pushed me, my back hit the bed and I got even weaker. They took the envelope there and took the contents. The meat was taken, I started crying hard. I have no money.
"You hate your mother so much, that's why you were not blessed!" Mom and I went out and Drew was left next to me, looking at me and smiling, showing me what he took from my wallet before leaving.
That's why I felt like someone was following me, it was Drew and told Mom that I was working again. Fuck this life, nothing good has ever happened to me.
I hug my knees and cry silently, no one wants to listen. I always let it happen, sometimes I asked God why me. I am a good child who was deprived of opportunity and time.
I bit my lips and opened the drawer, I could feel the sharp edge and felt the pain. I just want to feel numb now. Do I still have a place here, why are they treating me like this?
It's tiring to ask questions over and over again and get no answers from the very beginning, I thought that if I just obeyed they would see my importance, but even I work hard. They treat me like trash. Who said that I want to be part of this kind of family?
I wear my hoodie and walk out of my room, there is no one downstairs. I went out and as I expected there was no food for me, I don't have money and no food.
I went out and walked to the park, the lightning and thunder were getting stronger now. The store near us called me and showed me the list.
"Adelrina, your mom said you will pay what they owe." I read it and shook my head. My money has been taken, they are going to pay off a debt that I didn't even take advantage of.
"Aling Esther, I don't have a salary yet." She looks at me with pity now. Maybe I look tired. I walked over and played with my ATM card. Suddenly the rain poured down and the pain, pain and resentment all mixed together.
I looked up and felt the coldness of each raindrop, if given the chance, I hope I can control everything that is happening right now. Because I don't know if I can handle what will happen next.
"What if I sold my soul to a demon to get rich?" I laughed at what I said and sat down, letting the rain get wet.
"Help me, please."