Chapter 4 true feelings

Chapter 4

He blew out air. "Has he left?" His tone suddenly became formal.

I knew who he was referring to so I nodded. "Don't worry. He banished the witch."

She ruffled her hair. You can see him biting his lower lip to stop smiling.

I frowned. The hell. I thought it was broken? Or does it just not want to show its true feelings?

"By the way.."

"Hmm?"

I looked at him blankly. "You have no taste."

"I know. Don't pretend anymore."

I rolled my eyes. "Tsk. What could he feed you and kill you? Maybe he charmed you. You know, that's a trick of witches like him."

It didn't bother me anymore. I folded my arms and marveled at the star bursting into the sky. I didn't realize it was night.

Push, there's no one to worry about me so I don't care if we'll catch up on the rooftop in the middle of the night kakaemote.

I didn't move again and respected his silence, but I could feel the sadness in his presence.

Who is not covering the weight of my feelings layer by layer with heaven and earth?

"They say, I have everything.. wealth, fame, intelligence.. let's go with the good looks."

He started. The last thing he said made me sneeze. Seriously? Why didn't he include the word air? He was still embarrassed.

I just bit my lip to stop the whining because at that time, I knew he was serious and there was no place for jokes and pranks.

"They think that I'm a fvcking perfect. Without knowing that I'm worthless.. well, that's what my bastard's father said.."

My lips parted. Did he experience what I experienced so he felt like a worthless person?

Shit.

When I told him that, I had one cheap thing in my mind that's why the pain on his face was just like that.

I felt even more guilty but there was nothing I could do because I had already told him.

"I don't know why my own father made me feel how worthless I am. He always compares me to my brother, which is why I grow angry at him.. even though I'm famous and always get high grades. . still isn't fvcking enough to him.." I could see the tightening of his perfect jaw. "Only my beloved mother and brother are proud of my achievements, Philo. Mom? She always impressed on my mind that she is very lucky for me so I shouldn't take my father's hurtful words to heart.. but why did you take him?"

I could see his breath quickening and his palms clenched to stop being emotional.

I want to touch him and pat him on the shoulder but I can't do anything but hold him because my hand will just go through if I touch him.

"Just cry. You'll feel better after you cry."

I promised seriously but he just asked me.

"I don't want.. it's embarrassing. Tsk." he snorted.

I acted shocked. "Wow. With the thickness of your face, are you still hiding something?"

"Philo." There is a threat from his son.

"Just kidding." I just laughed at it but the crazy person is really emotional.

"Geh. Continue. I'll be here. I'll listen. Don't worry. I'll sympathize with you. I'll take care if there's no beer and vodka."

A small smile appeared on his lips. "Thank you, ugly. Sometimes you hide kindness in your body."

I smiled back sarcastically. "Yes. It's only once. But sooner or later, my demonic behavior will return."

He just lost his senses. "I'm so sad. Why was I able to smile at what you said? It's impossible to be happy despite the sadness you feel, right?"

He was out of his element and met my eyes. The reason why my chest heaved as if in a race.

Our serious conversation ended in teasing... or can it be called serious? Everything we talked about was mixed with jokes or pranks.

I didn't want to go home yet, but the pain was pressing and it was getting worse. I couldn't do anything but sigh.

"It's getting pretty late at night, dude. You should also go to bed early, you might be late..." he mumbled as he sat in the backseat.

The shit still has his arms crossed and feels like a boss.

"It's still nine o'clock." I promise.

"Tsk. You shouldn't stay up late. That's why you're so tired." He laughed.

"Fuck you, Zach Maliff."

"Baby, I'm not ready yet." He whispered in my ear.

I almost fell on the steering wheel because I almost broke! Because I didn't even realize how close he was to me!

"What the heck, Zach Maliff Monteverde!" you almost cursed sta one after the other.

"Oyy, just chill, bebs. It's just being caressed."

"Argg! If I can really touch you, I'll really screw you up!"

He acted in shock, even holding onto his muscular chest.

"What kind of twist is that, Philo Altereano?" He even raised an eyebrow at me, smirking slightly.

My eyes widened because of his freaking question! I couldn't help but rub my cheeks to sink in in my mind what he said.

"your brain is dirty!"

He raised both hands and baritone laughed. "Ugly is freaking blushing! Hell, I'm just kidding."

I closed my eyes tightly and felt the sensation.

I don't know what to do with this lintek man! It's a rare life.

When I got home, I slammed my car door shut.

"Ugly. Are you angry? Sulking? Pay attention to me..." He followed me with a sneer.

It's like a tail flapping, always following me, grr.

Just ignore it and go straight inside. You are stiff.

I passed the dining table, I stopped when I heard them laughing with a... let's say budget guest.

Nice. A picture of a fvcking perfect family.

I'm used to it, so I just shrugged off the pain I was feeling and they were about to pass when Philly caught my eye.

"Speaking of my twin! Philo, come and join us here!" It's still a lively shot at everyone's attention.

I averted my eyes so as not to ignore him when my good father called my name threateningly.

"What?" I said irritated.

Taste it. "Sit. Don't embarrass us with a guest."

Luhence and I locked eyes for a while, staring at me. My forehead furrowed and my face became serious.

What do you think you are stupid? It's good to be abducted by the eyes of a kingina.

Even managed to stare despite this fraud.

My mood was cringing.

I was indifferent to what they talked about while eating. Let them take care of their lives.

I ate even faster because I was really hungry to leave here.

I almost fainted when I saw Zach leaning against the wall, not far from me.

His gaze was straight as if he had been watching me for a while.

"That's your ex? You have no taste."

Smiling, he just shook his head at me, pointing to Luhence who is currently testing Philly.

"Jerk.." I just blurted out.

"Philo. Watch your mouth." My father's authoritative voice prevailed at that time.

I sat up straighter and let go of the curviette I was holding before standing up.

"Fine. I'm done here."

I have no emotion. I was about to take a step when Philly stopped me.

"Wait. I have something to tell you. Since, you're my twin and you have the right to know--"

"What is it?" I looked at him violently.

He didn't move and kept smiling I don't know if it's true or not but I could see the joy on his face, he raised his finger and my lips parted slightly as a diamond flashed from the ring he was wearing.

"I'm no crap, we're getting married!"

I stared at it for a moment.

Then he blinked and looked back.

I felt the weight in my chest again and it was going to explode at any moment.

I knew they had their attention on me and watched my reaction.

I don't know where I got the courage to smile.

"Oh? Congratulations. I hope you stay longer.." I said coldly and sparingly looked at Luhence who had no reaction.

Philly's smile widened but faded when I added something.

"But just be careful.. I was able to trade, can you?"

I don't know if I'm imagining things but I can see the pain in his eyes.

My furious father's fist banging on the table echoed all around.

While my mother stood up to comfort Philly.

Oh, I'm already below the belt. I pushed the button. Hell, They already see me as the villain and the bitch here's a fvcking care if I'm straight to the point?

I'm just stating the fact even if I felt envy, because my parents attention was towards her, mad for stealing everything from me or call my feelings whatever but I can't help myself but to feel worried?

Hell, I'm not bitter anymore, I just found out that Luhence is really an asshole.

Even if we turn back time, unfortunately, he is still my brother. But it's up to her if she turns a blind eye to the 'attracted' and 'claimed' man she thought was loyal to her.

"You're too rude and rude, for fucking sake right in front of your brother's fiancée, stupid!" Cold cry of my good father.

I didn't move. It's difficult.

"If you weren't really my son, you wouldn't have been in this family for a long time.."

I shook my head at them and chuckled. I'm too immune to their line, isn't there another word?

"Son? You still consider me a son? Tsk. Nonsense." I shook my head. "You have never been a good parent to me. You let me beg for your attention, eh. You never once put me first? Huh! You have no right to blame my behavior, because it's your fault that you failed." I looked at them coldly.

"We're totally here. Let me scold you for your shortcomings. Do you remember? The one you promised to come on my graduation day? You've forgotten." I grinned. Anger filled my chest. "Do you know what you did? I hoped, waited, looked like a in front of the stage and people but nothing, none of you attended. Because of what? You put him first." I glanced at Philly who was already bowing. "Me? Adjust again! Every time you have a party, maybe I didn't hear what you were saying to your amegas and amega's, right? That 'My son Philly is so talented!'

"Kesyo stupid I'm a failure! That 'Philly has a lot of achievements', etc.! So don't blame me for being able to criticize you because it's only because of your lack that I've become like this." I cursed breathlessly. "I've been talking for a long time, we still have gossip.."

Their lips just moved. Couldn't speak.

I hastily turned around and left that house before my tears fell. My chest was tight but I managed to laugh and laugh as I got into my car while the tears continued to flow.

"Great. Philo, you're fucking weak now." Yes. Because I sent with emotion.

I violently wiped the tears that fell when I felt a strange presence next to me. I heard his sigh.

I remained motionless and quietly drove the car towards that place without any thought of direction.

"Where do you think you're going?"

There was a mixture of seriousness on his face when I turned the car towards the bar that just entered his mind.

"D*mn. I don't agree with what you thought, Philo Altereano."

"Can you please fvcking shut up?!" I glared at him. But the g*go didn't even move, still folded his arms.

"Right. I almost forgot, that pretty head of yours is freaking stubborn."

"You know what?"

"What?"

I groaned. "You're so annoying."

He laughed in a baritone. "You'll miss it, someday."

"Tsk."

Even got a crazy wink. "I'm serious. You'll eat what you said, if I ever disappear from your side, you'll miss my good looks."

" But there is some pain inside me that draws.

Will he leave me too? Tch. I'm used to being alone. Because nothing will last me long.

"philo"

"What?"

"Can you please change your mind? Don't go ahead with your planned bar and get drunk."

"And who are you to follow me?"

"Don't be stubborn anymore. Who will defend you when someone insults you?" I can see his jaw tighten. "I am powerless to save you from harm, Philo." He said the last thing almost voluntarily.

I was taken back. It is the very first time someone's showing a concern towards me.. it's my very first time.. someone sincerely cared for my own sake..

And I really hate ghosts.

"You're so quiet, ugly. You agreed with me?"

He peeked at me. I took a deep breath and looked away.

"I- I can handle myself. I can fight even five more bullies.."

I heard him hiss. The crossed arms were brought back.

"Your skull is still hard. How can I get ten of them? Poor you. Tsk."

"Did you say I'm weak?" I said, sharply.

"No, but it seems that way." He answered bored.

"Tsk! Stupid. Think of ten people who were punched, you're drunk and out of your mind, how can you fight if you're dizzy? Your brain says you're going to fight, but it's only one blow from one, and you're going to fall."

He preached to me. Frustrated, he tousled his messy hair and moaned.

"Is that stress?"

He just accused me. "It is better to stay at my condo and drink all you want. You are probably safer there than at the bar. Don't you have a mindset?"

I'm the one who got fired again. He looks worse.

"You're the one with no mindset, gàgo. I might even be charged with trespassing in no time."

He folded his arms. "Just simple. You need to inform Manong guard then, that you are my girlfriend." He shrugged. "I think that idea is more valid than saying you're my 'friend'."

"Huh! Girlfriend? Where are you?" I stopped the car first. I might even bump into its chatter.

I only slightly backed away when he slowly approached me.

Amused written all over his face.

"Girlfriend means female friend. Don't interpret it."

My ears turned red from embarrassment. What a man he is. My patience is really being tested again.

"Fine! Where is your condo?" I surrendered.

He grinned, and tilted his head. "Let me lead the way, Miss Ugly." He laughed.

Mr. If it wasn't really a ghost, maybe it would have been stuck in my lap.

To Be Continued...