I didn't see their reaction because I hurried away from that place..
In the car I cried again.
I just can't stop it because my chest is tight. Lady.
I should be in his position, eh. But even love life is cursed by fate.
I gripped the steering wheel tightly as I drove home. I was running fast in my car and I didn't care if I crashed.
But I was suddenly struck by a realization.
Why should I kill myself just because of pain? And to people who did nothing to hurt me? They don't deserve to cry! That's what I remembered from what Zach said.
I let out a deep breath and calmed myself down
I'm used to it, so why should I cry for people who cheated on me? I should not waste tears on the person I missed.
There was no reaction on my face when I entered the mansion. There were maids who greeted me but I just signaled them not to serve me anymore.
I want to lock myself in my room because I know mom and dad have come home from their business trip, tsk.
But before I could even go up the staircase, someone called me.
"Phil.." I stumbled to where I stood.
Not now, Philly.
I greeted my teeth and clenched my fist. I faced him who was at the door and stepped towards me with an innocent and begging face.
You can't fool me with your outward appearance, Philly.
"I- I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I just loved---"
I couldn't stop myself and my palm hit Philly's face.
He sat on the floor, his left cheek bruised maybe because of the force of the impact of my slap.
"Hah! Sorry? Didn't mean to hurt me? Loved you? Well, that's fucking bullshit!"
"PHILO!"
Fuck.
I closed my eyes tightly when dad's authoritative voice boomed.
My reason why I felt nervous. I still flinched when he grabbed my arm tightly.
"P- Papa.." I winced because my father's grip hurt.
"Look what have you done?!"
"OMY Gof, darling what happened to you?!"
Mom followed dad only to help Philly cry. "M- Mom.."
Greetings. Just greetings.
I clutched my arm in pain when my father let go of me.
"Why are you hurting your own sister?!" It's a strong harvest.
Our parents looked down on me.
"When something bad happens--"
I cut my mother's word.
"And what?! Reject me?! Fine! I'll fucking accept it. He's totally your son!"
I screamed trembling. Stopped the tears from falling.
"Don't talk back to your mother like that, Philo! We didn't raise you to be lazy!"
Didn't pay attention to what dad said. I just stared at mom's shocked face while comforting Philly
I felt jealous. I have never experienced being hugged like that.
"What are you talking about, Philo? Your brother is sick, so understand your father and me. We gave you everything you wanted! What else is missing?!"
"Do you want to know? It's your love! I don't care about the things I got! All I asked for was your love.."
They were suddenly silent.
"And because of the illness and when you were worried about Philly, you didn't realize that you put me aside! Until your attention is on him! You always say, "My son Philly is great!"---h - how about me, Mom? Still?!" I silently cursed when my voice cracked.
I took a deep breath because as time went on, my chest got tighter and tighter.
"Yes, I don't have heart disease, but I still have it because I'm always in pain. I wish I didn't exist at all. She is your child. You don't care about my life anymore! I hope you just abort me. !"
At the same time as my tears fell, my father slapped me.
"You totally disappointed me, Philo.."
I tilted my head and I tasted blood on the side of my lips. I could feel nothing but numbness.
"Philo."
Mama called me but I just kept going up the stairs after slapping me with the truth.
I almost tripped and stumbled because I couldn't clear the way because of the tears that kept falling.
All the tangible things in my room were broken because of my disappearance.
I screamed at the pain in my chest and messed up my hair again and again and even threw the lampshade through the sliding door to the veranda.
Everything is messed up. Be myself. The uniform is messed up. The furniture in my room is broken.
Suddenly, the wind blew from the open and cracked sliding door.
A person I didn't expect, standing not far away.
"Phil..."
He said while looking at me suffering. I can see pity in his eyes.
I avoided looking. "L- Leave me alone! D-I don't need your mercy!" I sobbed.
Leaning slightly because I didn't want to show him that I was weak but my very body disobeyed me.
I just felt something cold touch my shoulder.
"I- Is that really what you wanted?" I only cried more.
"Zach..."
I didn't realize that he was in front of me, kneeling on one knee for support.
"Look at me..."
When I looked up, I met his deep gaze.
"Say it." He almost whispered his promise.
"I- I can't bear the pain anymore.. please.. stay with me."
I almost begged.
His sad smile suddenly appeared. He caressed my face.
"I will."
I closed my eyes. Even though his touch only penetrated, I still felt him.
It's cold. Calms my heavy mood. And made me feel that I am not alone despite the pain and bitterness experienced.
I hug myself when the cold wind blows. My short hair was welded so I pulled it off to cover my face. I feasted my eyes on the blue ocean.
"Hey?"
I turned to the familiar voice and blinked. "Seb?"
My heart beat faster when a smile appeared on the lips of the man I never expected to see again after five years.
"How are you?"
"It's OK,"
liar How many times have I lied to myself? It's hard to pretend. I can make them believe that I am happy. But myself? I will never cheat.
He ran his fingers through his hair. I stared at him for a moment. He grew even taller and handsomer. His twinkling eyes stared intently at me. The jaw is perfect. Runny nose.
"You changed a lot,"
"You too,"
"Hmmm... Did you come home from the states?" He scratched the back of his neck.
Obviously. "Yeah. I'm spending my week's vacation here. You know, to wind down,"
There was a moment of silence. The awkward. I do not know what to say.
"I am sorry," he began. Step closer to me and step aside.
"For what?" I will ask. Bewildered.
"For making you choose five years ago," he lamented.
"No. I should be the one to say that. I am sorry for leaving you,"
"W-Why did you leave?" He looked away and focused on the ocean. "May I know what's your reason for leaving me?"
"W-Well it is a typical story from a typical movie. I-I had leukemia, Seb, it runs in the family," I answered with a smile, but it didn't reach my eyes.
The revelation has suffocating him.
"You...you never told me about it...Why, Ara? You don't trust me?"
"I trust you, Seb..." I looked up at the blue sky. Crying "The selfish ? How can I say that when I see that you have so much potential, Seb? When I tell you the reason why I want to leave you, I'm sure you'll throw away everything you have. Everything you've worked for will be destroyed and you'll be in jail with me. And I don't want that to happen, Seb."
"And you came back,"
"Cancer-free. Miracles do happen. Or maybe you're the only thing on my mind while I'm fighting that disease. Believing in fairy tales that we'll rekindle the old flame again. But real life is not like in the movies, Seb ..."
He yawned and took a breath. The chest rose. "I understand. B-But I wish you would have let me go along with the fight you endured, Ara. You promised me that we would fight together but you are the only one who will let go of our bond..."
"Can't we go back to the way things were?" My chest tightened at my trivial answer. But I just hoped... Just participating...
"It hurts to be left too, Ara. I'm almost going crazy thinking about the reason why you left me. But those memories are over... I've forgiven you... I accept that we're not really for each other."
I was just depressed when I felt...he was in love with someone else...He didn't expect it when I decided to leave him but I couldn't help but be hurt.
I bit my bottom lip when someone called her a girl. white Modest. Nice.
"Your wife?"
I was only hurt more when I saw the sparkle and love in his eyes when he looked back at the woman.
"Okay. I'll go for a walk first. The view is still beautiful."
"Wow,"
"Hmmm?" I looked at him again before my tears fell.
"Thank you."
For the last time I tried to smile.
"Be happy."
When I turned around, I just covered my mouth and cried.
I just woke up lying on the floor with a headache. I was even more surprised when Zach sat down next to me. Staring directly at me.
"What did---ouch!" I groaned as my head hurt even more when I got up. It's like being torn apart.
"Tsk. Tsk. That, drink more." He snorted.
I just remembered what happened last night. I drank alcohol from the mini-bar in the room after asking him not to leave me.
"Shh, what's up."
"What?!"
"Your high-blood is early."
Who doesn't have high blood? He really wanted to call me p*tcha to make my headache worse!
I just closed my eyes again and felt the sensation.
"There's nothing left to lose, right? You said 'stay' so no matter how many times you throw me away, I will never leave you until you help me get back to your body.."
I opened my eyes and turned to him when he spoke. His face was serious as he met my gaze.
I felt even more guilty. He still accompanied me last night despite the pain I caused him the day before.
The words I said hurt so I have to apologize. Even though my pride is high.
"I'm sorry.."
I looked away because I was ashamed of what I had done.
"You know how to apologize. I thought you only knew swearing."
I glared at him. He just crossed his arms and the smile played on his lips again.
"That's why.. what you said is too painful.. it hurts the ego."
He still held the side of his heart and acted hurt.
I was exhausted. Still not moving. "I will only accept your apology if you help me."
Seriously? ghost. I'm sorry, I'm still acting, tsk.
"Why should I help you? What is gold?"
He suddenly frowned. I'm so cute.
"Is it difficult to help me? It's unusual."
"Tsk. It's up to you if you don't accept my sorry. Don't.."
I stood up slowly because I was tired of sitting. My head doesn't hurt so much anymore, it's just a pain.
"Pang£t, help me. After that, I promise I won't bother you again after maybe a month." He's still nagging.
I stopped and thought. Okay, fine! So that my life can be quiet.
I looked at him again bored. "I'm willing, PANG£T." I really emphasized the word 'pang£t'.
A triumphant smile tugged at his lips. I stopped for a moment. This one also has a dimple.
"You can change pang£t to pogi." He winked at me.
I faked a cough. "The word pogi made me vomit, g*go."
"Uh-huh."
"Besides, tell me how I can help you. Easy." I promise I'm bored.
"It's a mission I guess."
"But before I say..." He looked around. "Clean up first." He looked back at me. I raised my eyebrows again when he looked me over from head to toe. "Besides, take a shower."
"You don't have to tell me, l£che!"
What does he think of me? What? Psh. There's not a day that goes by that I'm not annoyed by this ghost man.
"What are you thinking?!"
I was curious when I still felt the gaze when I stepped towards the bathroom.
The g*go just shrugged.
I glared at him again. "Don't peek when I'm taking a bath. I'm really going to kick you out."
"Whoa! What do you think of my face, manyac?"
I crossed my arms. "Just making sure."
"Tch. Besides, why would I shower on you? Your body isn't sexy."
I gasped at what he said. I was slapped by his words.
Shit! Isn't it sexy?! Aren't I sexy?!
My jaw clenched. "It's not sexy.."
I opened the button of my polo shirt.
His forehead suddenly wrinkled. "W- What are you doing?"
"Take your clothes off. Let's see if you can be insulting."
"H- Hey! I'm just kidding. Don't take it seriously!"
I can see the criticism all over his face.
"So, you admit I'm sexy?"
I grinned at him and did not continue unbuttoning the polo shirt.
Not really, pft. That's just testing, he stupid. Do you insult your body? Tsk, I don't know anymore.
To Be Continued