Chapter 3 My operation

Chapter 3

Hon! Why are you like that? These past new months after seems to be moving away from me? You're with me, but I feel like you're far away, you're not even claiming me!" Shantal yelled at me in annoyance. And since it's Monday, I'm here at her condo because I'm the one who did the hands-on take care of him.

"Honey, you know you're still recovering, right?" I explained. I really did everything not to stutter. I know that the operation and the side effect of the Kindey transplant had a big impact on him, so he is easily irritated now. Because it's a small thing that is wrong in his eyes, he says a lot of negative things, especially to me. Her woman instinct is not hidden from me but I do everything even knowing that Emerald has more right to me than her.

"Maybe there's a girl that's why she's staying away from me?" he asked seriously before standing up from his seat. I quickly shook my head to defend myself.

"Defensive?" he asked again without interest and made me roll my eyes. My situation is annoying because I love her so much that I sacrifice my freedom just to kept her alive.

"There's no point in talking like this because I live right here in your condo. You know me a lot Shantal and you know that you're the only woman I promised and gave an engagement ring to that you're wearing right now."

"It's that not enough to prove myself that I am with you and I'm not doing anything wrong in our relationship?" I'm asking seriously because if I don't defend myself, he will think that I have a woman because she's had a motto in life that silent means YES.

"Ohh! Why are you talking so much? I am just asking you! The answer is simple, yes and not just Thomas!" he answered back. I surrender, I raise my two hands and bow. I made a mistake. I want to apologize but I'm afraid because he's not one hundred percent good yet, he might kill himself if he finds out the truth.

"The more words coming from your mouth, more negative impact of mine Thomas. So get better!" he threatened me so I just let out a sigh so as not to contradict what he was saying so there would be no trouble.

"Ohh! Why are you so quiet?!"

"Don't tell the truth..."

"What!" I asked in shock and looked up. I didn't finish what he was going to accuse me of. It's nonsense. I've been holding back so that there won't be a fight between us, and then he uses his narrow mind. So I'm going to get tired of this over and over again. It's only the weekend, but I don't have any rest yet because I'm still tired from fighting the temptation.

"You are the one who said the more words came to my mouth is negative impact of yours then if I don't speak you will say what you are accusing is true? Isn't it enough for you that I am with you Shantal and no woman will enter your heart me but only you!" I screamed in annoyance.

"Why is it so hard for you to trust me?" I asked one after another.

"Your big issue is that I don't take you? For Pete's sake!"

"We both know that your body is still recovering because you've been in the hospital for a long time. You've only been out for two months," I promised.

"So it's my fault?" he asked and pointed to himself.

"I didn't say anything was your fault. All I'm saying is for you to trust me because I'm not doing anything wrong, especially when it's about your life," I explained carefully.

"So you have a girl?" he asked and looked at me. He's catching me so I can answer you correctly, my mind said.

"You are my only woman. All I want is peace of mine, please?" I asked and approached him and hugged him tightly.

"I'm sorry for hurting your feelings Hon," I consoled him. I caressed his long hair to calm him down and then kissed him on the forehead. I'll really love this girl so I'll do everything to give her a long life and enjoy the beauty of the world and I'm always ready to humble myself for her.

"I'm sorry if I hurt you with your thoughts and if I did something wrong to you, please forgive me right now."

"Then take me? Surprise me with a child, please?" please talk to him. I took a deep breath, bowed my head and my tears began to fall. When he is ready and wants to have children, that will also destroy my personality because we are the only ones who know the truth.

"You know the reason don't you?" I asked wiping away my tears before lifting my head to meet our eyes. It's not wrong to cry especially to the woman you love when the situation is like this that you dreamed of having a family but you can't give it. I am useless!

"Why do you still make me look like I'm a useless man? It's been a long time, oh, it's been almost 1 year that your friend, Shantal, has been using me. I take medication and we've tried many times but still nothing, how can you give you child if I cannot bear a child!"

Her best friend diagnosed me, A male infertility. A barren man. At first I didn't believe it so we got a second opinion from another OBGYN but it's still the same. This is the truth that hurts me because I'm a good doctor but I can't treat myself and I look useless when it comes to children.

"What the hell!" I'm cheap.

"I'm sorry," he apologized and quickly hugged me.

"I thought we were going to talk about it?" I asked him.

"I'm sorry. I'm frustrated with my health so maybe I'm going to beat you up," he promised. I wanted to tell him that I started not taking medicine because nothing was going to happen but I didn't because I was still tied to Emerald for a year.

"You don't have anything to worry about with your health, hon. All you have to do is get well so you can return to your old strength and return to the hospital as a doctor, not as my patient."

"Thank you for not giving up hon, and I'm sorry," he promised.

"It's okay. I love you," I said with all my heart and kissed her forehead again.

"I love you too honey," he replied with a smile and quickly kissed my lips to which I responded.

And I slowly laid him down on the sofa and he immediately wrapped his arms around my neck. As time went on, our kiss deepened and I could feel his warm and soft lips so I couldn't stop myself and one of my hands traveled on his body.

"I miss you, hon!" I whispered and removed her upper clothes and soaked her healthy d*bd*b. I kissed him again on his lips, down his neck and slowly removed the rest of his cover... The next three doorbells from the door rang us so I quickly stood up.

"T*ng* again!" I frowned and looked at my fiancee. Who wouldn't be hanged like this? I first took her clothes and put them on before I kissed her forehead and headed for the door that was busy with us.

Suddenly my head got hot and all my blood rushed to my face when I saw who was outside the door.

"Hi," he smiled at me. Damn this Cheetah! When you are really looked at, yes.

"Wh*t the h*ll are you doing here?!" I asked angrily.

"I was just going to say hello to your attachment," he whispered and handed me a folder.

"Get ready!" I looked at him before taking what he reached for.

"Kaya Isaiah is giving it to me and I will go to Batanes," he informed.

"Even if you don't come back," I said straight away. I saw his face turn sour and bowed.

"Alright. I'm leaving, just say hello to Dr. Shantal," he said sadly and turned his back on me. I looked at him first until he disappeared from my sight.

"Who is that?" Shantal asked before hugging me from behind.

"Emerald," I answered briefly and released from his embrace. I showed the papers I was holding regarding the list of medicines they would bring to Batanes. Because we had a private hospital that was built there before, so I supply the missing medicines for the people who need them.

"Let's eat first," I said to Shantal and put my hands on the table before heading to the kitchen.

Emerald POV

I woke up early because my duty at the hospital is early today and my friend Elisha and I have a walk after my duty later. I don't want to think about anything now because I'm still ashamed of myself and doc Thy Ron. It's embarrassing because what he did to me the other night is his ugly bonding.

"He's so annoying!" I shouted and managed to pull my hair out of my so much annoyance. So we'll really wander around later and I'll look for a night care feminine wash and then another PH care for every day care that I used to use and I'll just return it. I thought I would use something different in the morning and something different at night, but I won't use the branded feminine wash here at his house because you have no love for him. Those branded ones are useless because they come from Europe and they just smell like anchovies.

"Nah!" I ejaculated. At the same time as scratching my head because my allowance will be used up and I'm also worried that I won't be able to proceed with medicine if by chance my savings will only go to feminine wash. I kept regretting using a branded feminine wash and if I had only known that that's what she smelled like, I would have just used the PH Care that I used the other night so that I wouldn't have to think about being ashamed of my personality. I. PH Care is even better with care!

In the one year contract, I didn't demand anything, he said enough assurance that he will try to love me even if it's difficult. I only go with him to the hospital on Saturdays and Sundays because he lives here at CASA so I can save on the fare but on weekdays because he is at Doc Shantal's condo so I commute. His joint is still healing completely so I understand.

I stood up and lifted the top I was wearing and turned my back to the mirror. I'm fine because I follow all the treatments and I'm really healthy so my immune system is helping to heal the wound on my side. Self-discipline is all that is needed for a person to heal quickly and it's been three months so the only trace left from my operation is a scar.

"It can't be removed. It's a memory engraved on my personality because of the word love," I said and smiled bitterly while caressing the scar on my side. It's sad on my part that he didn't even give me any importance even if he would have taken care of me but that didn't happen and he just left me to his doctors then especially after the operation he didn't care about me until it came out I was at the hospital and went to CASA MONTELEAGRE. I do understand that his priority is different and it is the woman he loves. Because me? I was his only option to keep his beloved alive. But even so? it's okay because I really liked it, as long as what was important to me at the time, before the operation we were married and the dr. Shantal.

I wiped my tears because I didn't realize they were falling. It's okay to cry, it's okay to be hurt, I'm okay because I'm not weak, as long as everything is okay. I took a deep breath and took out my wallet and counted my allowance.

"Ten thousand one hundred two pesos and one centavo!" My count is final. I looked at the compartment of this wallet one by one and I thought I still had one thousand folded but it was gone. Jusko! I'm the one who invited Elisha to go for a walk, so I'll book him dinner later.

I was humbled and thought about what my chosen decision would be. Can I sacrifice my allowance to that feminine wash? I asked myself while biting my thumb nail. Actually, for me, especially when I smell it, it really smells good. Because I was curious, I actually touched my kabeb* and smelled it the night he left me. I was still fresh and had just taken a bath. I spent some time in the mirror trying to seduce him but nothing happened so when he was asleep I was the one who made the moves because he was staring at me. But when that happened? Hey! I really feel that he was turned off by the smell so he left the room and never came back.

"Annoying!" I said in shock. I was still biting my thumb because of the bite. I couldn't decide so I just stood up again and straightened myself up because nothing would happen if I just thought.

"Your mind is your true enemy, if you don't control it, it will control you," I reminded myself because I might even go crazy with this thought.

I put on my nurse hat and put a pin on it so it wouldn't fall off. I put oil base liptint on my lips and powder on my face because I'm simple.

To Be Continued....