Chapter 3 Destined Bonds

"You have all of your mother‟s gifts, I cannot believe I have found my Beca and didn‟t even know it. Can I ask you a question? Are there more gifts you have that you are not sharing with us?" I looked at her and her eyes looked faraway, as if she were somewhere else.

"Um can I talk to you alone first about my mother?" I said as I looked at Alana, then turned toward Clarisse "I promise I won‟topen this without you."

"Ok." Was all she said and walked out of the library with John and closed the door.

After the door was closed I sat back down and motioned for Alana to join her. "I believe I amway out of my league here. I know to call you Nana

because of these dreams I have. But I only get the ones with words in it

when I‟m holding Annie. Other than that I just get pictures. I always

wondered who Nana was, and when I picked up Annie yesterday to show you, it came back to me and all my memories of before came back as well. I remember you giving me her and I remember you playing with me and

taking care of me, I remember I couldn‟t say your name so I made one up and you laughed and said „I‟ll always be your Nana, and you will always be my Beca‟." I was crying now. "I don‟t know why my parents left me, what

could have happened to them that they didn‟t leave me with you?" I had my head in Alana‟s arms and I was sobbing uncontrollably. Alana was trying to sooth me by rubbing my back.

"You have a very special gift Beca, one that a few of us have; it is a very powerful and very important gift. The gift of premonitions I know it is

overwhelming, but look what it did for you. It let you see your past. You knew who I was and you were able to keep me from killing you and

Clarisse. If I didn‟t hear you say that name I would have killed you. There

was something there blocking my mind. I felt it; it felt like I was being forced to forget who I was. Or what I was supposed to do. I don‟t know how to

thankyou; you saved me and my mate from becoming something we are

trying not to be." She finished what she was saying with a smile on her face but tears in her eyes, and she gave me a hug so fierce, as if she hasn‟t

seen me in years, and in which case she hasn‟t, well not knowingly.

I hugged her back just as much, but was the first to pull away. "You know what I don‟t understand? If you are so powerful why didn‟t you use a spell

to try and find me?" I said a little upset that they had all this power and they did nothing to track me down.

"It‟s not that simple Beca. We need to have something very important to

you, like a favorite toy or favorite piece of clothing even some hair from

your brush. But when they went to look for it, there wasn‟t anything. They must have known they were going to search for you so they got rid of

everything." She said sounding disappointed in herself and her covenant.

"So your strong connection to me wasn‟t enough?" I asked in disbelief.

"No." Was all she said. She looked so disappointed that I changed the subject.

"I found something that I am pretty sure was left by my parents. Clarisse

was the one to help me get to it, because I have no idea what I am doing. But please don‟t mention my premonition gift to the others not just yet, I‟m getting all these "gifts" at once and I don‟t want them to think of me as

some super which." I bent my head down and looked at my feet struggling with something I was about to say and then I finally said, "Before I forget

did you get the chance to check on Sebastian? How is he doing? He ‟s not going to change is he?" I‟ve so worked up over Alana and everything that happened, I almost forgot about Sebastian. I don‟t know how I forgot about him because he‟s usually all I think about but it‟s been a stressful night.

Alana was the first one to know about how I felt for Sebastian so she knew what I was feeling. And Alana couldn‟t lie to me no matter how much she felt it would be ok to. I am her Beca and she did not want to start their

reunion off on the wrong foot. So she told her "I believe he is going to turn. He has not gained consciousness since he was bitten and is turning very pale. If he was not bitten by a vampire I would assume he was getting the flu or something else, but he looks very ill and the bite is what is causing it.

Beca I am so sorry, you can go and visit him before we put him downstairs." With that she stood and motioned for me to follow.

I did and we went to the infirmary together. It was on the second floor one level below the library I was in. when I walked in I had to fight the urge to run to him. He looked worse than what Alana had said and I hated myself for letting this happen to him. I knew it could have been worse if I wasn‟t

there but if I would have listened to him it wouldn‟t have happened at all. I felt so horrible. I didn‟t know what else to do, so I went to his bed and sat next to him and cried. His eyes were closed and he wasn‟t breathing so

well, so I was sure he couldn‟t hear me if I started to talk. So I poured my heart out to him; telling him everything from the premonitions to the new

levitation power and everything in between, including my feelings for him. I thought that if he was awake he would tell me that I was naïve for thinking that he could have feelings for me, but I would never know. The only thing that happened was his hand reached out and grabbed my hand and

squeezed it, not hard but as firm as he could. I looked up at his face and

his eyes were silted open, the tiniest amount of eye you could possibly see through was looking back at me and it looked like he was crying.

" Sebastian! Are you ok? Can you hear me?"

He shook his head yes and I reached out and hugged him not to tight afraid

I was going to hurt him. And he said "Rebecca..... I‟ve... missed... you." With long deep breaths in between each of his words he continued " I

Knew... it was you... the moment... I saw you... I... just couldn‟t... be sure... until now."

I pulled away a little and looked into his eyes. He looked sincere enough

that I had to ask him, "How did you know me? I mean back then, you knew me? I don‟t have any memories of you or premonitions about us as we

were little. I don‟t understand."

He took me in his arms and said something that I wasn‟tso sure that, that is what he said. "We were... destined ... to be ... mates."

I didn‟t think that those were the words that escaped his mouth, so I asked him "What did you just say?"

He looked at me and smiled and said "You... heard me... right... Rebecca. You... and I... were meant ... to be mated... I felt... your soul... call to me ... the first... time I... met you." He started coughing and pulled me closer.

"Some of us... are paired... at birth... while others... find their... other

half... in other groups... and were not... meant to be... but are great ...

together... I knew... you were... Rebecca and... I have... waited almost... a year... to kiss you. Since I saw you... and felt you... I knew... you were

for me... I just... didn‟t... know how... to talk to... you." He rolled over so he could look at my whole face, take in every detail, so he won‟t forget it. "If I

told... you this... would it... have freaked... you out?"