Chapter 3 3

I started running like my life depended on it, actually my life depended on it.

I don't know who these people are or what they want but grams just asked me to run and that's what I'm doing. She was falling behind; I don't understand how could I be so fast being new to this but she was just staying behind, I couldn't leave her.

I heard a flow of growls that were sounding in sync. I couldn't hear their mind like I was with grandma, was there a reason behind it?

'Grams' I cried knowing that if they catch her I couldn't continue and they were just too close.

I could hear them barging against the trees and coming closer to us.

'No matter what you hear, never stop. Keep going. If they get to you; everyone is lost' I kept going when I heard them all even closer.

'Who's everyone? I don't want everyone, I can't do this without you' I knew it was getting to the end, I knew something bad was going to happen and it was all because of me. Will grams' death be on my conscience? Could I keep going knowing that she died because of me?

'Go north, the frontier. That's where...'

I heard her cries and then it was all silence.

'Grams?' I called for her crying. There was no answer, it was all empty.

'Grams?' I whined calling for her knowing now I was all alone in this world and that I couldn't continue anymore, there was no point. I was better off dead.

There was a hollow on my chest knowing I lost the only important thing in my life.

I felt the ground crumbling beneath my steps and I didn't know if I was going on a straight line, my life was over.

I was just eighteen, who on earth cursed me with the "everyone" responsibility?

My heartbeat was irregular, not helping me a lot with the running. I don't know if this was important anymore, it is not, I couldn't find any point in running. My emotions were clouding my judgement, I heard a symphony over my head playing as I imagined my grams death, my own death. No one will mourn us, no one will bring flowers to our graves. Will we even have one?

I felt as I was falling into the ocean and couldn't catch a breath and the waves were crashing against me and pulling me deeper into sadness. Each wave was a reminder of the pain inflicted because of her absence.

I felt empty, anaesthetized. My feelings were all over the place, I felt like an overwhelming sorrow was taking me even deeper into the ocean. I wanted to shield myself and cry.

How could she leave me with all of these questions? How could she not tell me before about this? I would've been more careful. I wouldn't even go outside to the world; why would she not talk to me about this before?

Memories of grams teaching me all that I know, all of our fights, all our movie knights, all my birthdays. She was my one, I couldn't do this with anyone else. She was my support, she was there for me every time I cried, every time I laughed, who could be my support?

I couldn't keep going, life meant nothing anymore.

I stopped all of the sudden howling as if I had an open wound I couldn't close, my chest was in pain and I was whimpering. It was all lost.

I'm sorry grams.

I'm sorry mom.

I'm sorry dad.

I'm not that strong, I can't be strong for everyone when I can't even be strong for me.

I need my rock; she was my rock.

I howled trying to get free of the tears clouding my vision, could wolves even cry? I wanted to cuddle and cry my eyes out. This was not happening to me, this was still me being knocked out from Jake's smack, this was not true.

Someone fell on top of me with their fangs almost catching my throat but I pushed, at least I can give one last fight. I fought, at least I thought I did with this body.

I pushed her hard, I could tell this was a shewolf, her body was slender than the other wolves around us, she flew away until I heard a thud against a tree, I even heard some branches breaking, but I couldn't have sent her so far. As she flew away another one took her place, this time it was a man and even when I tried pushing I couldn't. His fur was brown, a dark brown.

I know I wouldn't be able to fight a guy.

I was looking for someone familiar, someone who could end up my suffering or help me get through this, my grams was everything to me; where is she? I need her.

My eyes crossed path with the black wolf with red eyes. He saved me the other night, why would he try to kill me now?

I felt a strong connection, a pull you could say towards that wolf, who was he? Do we know each other? I stopped fighting already feeling the other wolf's fangs touching my throat but I couldn't stop looking at the black wolf, both of our furs were black, is that the connection I feel? Are we related? But my eyes are shining blue, fire and ice together.

'Please help me' I could tell he heard me. He shook his head, I could tell he was confused. I thought this only could happen with my grams.

A howl was released from the back of my throat, I felt broken and I can tell he felt it too. A saw hesitation in his eyes when the muzzle of the wolf on top of me almost got me.

I whimpered.

'Please' I repeated looking at him.

I heard a guttural sound that made everyone stop and lower their heads, the black wolf gained the confidence again and was dominating them all. Why was I not affected by his order?

I could understand it, 'Stop' was his order.

Everyone lowered their heads in submission and the wolf on top of me whimpered staying away from me and getting in line with the other wolves.

'All of you; go back to the house. I'll do it myself' he was letting me live only so he could kill me himself, just as he killed my parents.

They all obeyed and retreated with their tails between their legs.

I went into a fetal position and I don't know how I did it but I was crying, I was crying like I wanted to, without fur.

I was human again but my heart was completely shattered. Grams just died saving me and I gave up, I couldn't continue and now this guy was going to kill me along with all my feelings.

"Please make it quick. Everything hurts so much" I begged between my cries, I don't know why this is happening to me.

I was suddenly wrapped up into a cloak but I still couldn't open my eyes. He was just standing there and even though I couldn't see him, I could feel him. I felt how his look made me warm and gave me chills at the same time. I haven't felt like this with no one else in my entire life. I thought what I was starting to feel with Andrew was love back when I was fifteen, but this is something I can't understand. It was not love, I was sure of that. Love shouldn't make you sad or broken.

It was pure and agonizing flames, torture even.

"Why did it have to be you?" I heard him ask with frustration "Moon goddess, is this my father's punishment? Is this some kind of sick joke?"

He was complaining but I didn't know to who, was he talking to me? Was I the Moon goddess? Was that why grams said I needed to stay alive for everyone? I was feeling nothing close to a goddess.

I was not looking at him at this moment, I was too focus on trying to avoid breaking even more. My breathing was still irregular, I couldn't seem to control my heartbeats even if I tried with all my focus, it was just too hard to breath. Will I be able to live?

"You're just a child" I heard him say closer.

At this point, even when I felt broken inside I was not crying, I felt empty and exhausted. I was just silently waiting for my end. Waiting for his hands to choke me to death or at least break my neck and make it quick.

"Alpha, I'll stick to your story no matter what" I heard someone else say, I thought we were alone.

I felt a small caress on my head. This caused a bolt of electricity run through me until the caress stopped; that was the only form of consolation I was getting and as quickly as it came it faded away.

"Your loyalty in me will get you killed" I heard the owner of the voice say, the only voice that could make me feel better was the one who also wanted me dead.

"You'll grow weaker without her, you need her to..."

"She's just a child, she has lived her life running away to have it ending here?" he interrupted the other voice angrily.

He kept calling me child, he didn't sound so old. How old was he?

My heart was trying to break my ribcage, his touch and tonight's commotion is taking a toll on me.

"Can you run?" I don't know who this question was directed to, was it me?

"She's broken" was the other guy's comment.

If he was talking about me, I was more than broken. I couldn't feel anything anymore and the rain that stopped a while ago was starting to make an appearance again.

"Can you try to shift again?" were they talking to me?

"She needs to rest, this was her first shift. She doesn't know anything. You can tell by the way she's reacting to you that she didn't notice that you're her ma..."

"She knows. She talked to me through the bond, she acknowledged me as hers" was the explanation from the comforting voice, he now sounded broken and sad.

As if he had to say goodbye to his most precious possession.

'Shift, you'll have to do it to survive' I heard his voice inside my head and a whimper came out of my mouth.

I don't know what happened to me but I felt my fur again, I felt taller, not stronger but it was enough to get me going.

"If I find you again, I will kill you. That's a promise" he said angrily.

My body shook by the way he talked to me, it's as if I felt rejected.

'I can't reject you little wolf, that will break me' I heard him say 'But you can't be found again, you need to go south, cross the border to Mexico and live hidden'

"Avoid the north. As soon as you touch the north you'll be found" the other man said but I couldn't look at him, my eyes were stuck to the only person I could look at, the only one my heart desired but the only one who shattered and crushed the pieces of it without even knowing me.

What was this attraction? Why was I feeling this way?

His face contorted as if he was still reading my mind. Why could he read it and no one else could?

'Please' I could hear the plea in his voice through my mind, he sounded broken 'Never come back'.

'You killed... you killed my parents' I said through the mind link and he laughed motioning his head as no. But it was not actually denying the statement, it was as if he found unbelievable that I even asked for that instead of running away.

'You'll be dead too if I find you here tomorrow' he growled inside my head.

My legs trembled due to his allegation, I will die too.

But grams said I needed to go north, not south.

'Don't even think about it, I'll kill you myself' was his warning again.

'Why... why do you hear everything I'm thinking?' I asked hesitantly.

There was no answer, we stayed a couple of minutes just looking at each other, trying to understand everything but nothing was coming along. He feels it too, I can tell. Why do I feel the urge to be so close of someone who will just harm me?

I could feel his eyes roaming around my wolf's face.

He looked no more than 30, why was he calling me little wolf? Why was he calling me a kid?

"Take advantage of the rain, run" I heard the other guys voice, this time I did look at him. I can't believe that the people who was supposed to kill me are actually saving me.

My eyes wandered again to the "Alpha".

He nodded. It was like his signal letting me go.

I gave a couple of hesitant steps back away from him, what if this was just some kind of play? What if they were lying to me so that they could chase me?

I was starting to hate him. I didn't know who he was, he doesn't know who I am yet still he had caused so much harm to me and my family, he broke everything I had; this was probably the only chance I'd have of killing him.

I growled at him showing my canines, how do I kill someone? Should I just bite him on the neck? Will I be fast enough to get the chance of killing him?

He fell to his knees with a hand over his chest and his face displaying pure suffering, was I doing something to him that I was not aware of? Do I have super powers?

The other guy growled at me in his human form and I retreated, I couldn't think straight but the only thought that crossed my mind was vengeance.

'If I find you again, I will kill you. That's a promise' even though I repeated his same threat, it allowed me to feel powerful, more having him in the position he was at the moment.

He was looking at me but I couldn't hear his voice, there was silence again and knowing that grams couldn't answer if I asked her anything.

And I ran, I ran until there was no tomorrow.

But as I was running, I felt a part of me was staying behind too...

With him.