Chapter 2 cheating cool

Chapter 2

"I have cancer"

"I'm sick"

My heart almost exploded when I heard what he said.

I quickly faced him and looked at him shaking, I don't know what was going through his mind.

I could see in his eyes the hardship he was going through, the tears that were constantly falling and the redness that caused my body to tremble.

It's not true, he's just lying so I don't leave him.

I hope he's just lying.

"Is this?!, is this the way you think you can stop me James?" I almost cried because of the intensity of my shouting.

He bowed.

Not saying a word.

It's not really that he's sick, what are the people who cheat, 'because they'll see the value of what they cheated, they'll leave.

I just don't know, is chasing love the only important thing?

Is cheating cool, is cheating cool?

I love you.

"if this is the reason you're thinking James, it's not funny and believable" I faked a laugh and walked away from him, I couldn't take his stares.

"I hope I'm just joking, I hope I'm just lying, I hope I'm not really sick" every time he utters there is an emphasis on each word "If the fact that I have cancer is what will stop you from leaving, please just let it get worse so you don't just leave me" his voice cracked.

I looked at him badly.

"don't joke like that James!" I pushed him away because he really couldn't handle his presence.

"I'm not joking" he said.

"It's not funny!" I shouted back, and quickly picked up the two bags. I was about to go out when someone took a white paper from his pocket.

He grabbed my wrist and put that paper in my hand.

At first I didn't pay attention to it, but because of the curiosity I felt in my body, I opened it and read it.

While reading what was written there, I didn't notice the tears falling from my eyes and falling on the paper I was reading.

I looked at him, I gasped and caught my shortness of breath. I need air.

"Ja-james,---"

"If you don't believe it, Archi, I can't blame you, I've been behind you a lot, I've hurt you a few times, so if my having this disease is karma, I accept it wholeheartedly" he leaned his head against the wall in looking up at the ceiling.

While I was just looking at him, and the big bag I was carrying, I was slowly putting it down.

I do not know what to do.

James has a stage two cancer of the blood.

There are so many questions in my mind that I want answered.

I want to ask him a question but I can't open my mouth, it's like I'm frozen in place.

"Are you doing this to me James" I don't even know why I let go of the paper I was holding.

"I'm sorry if I hurt you"

"W-w-why did you just say this now?"

"I don't want to hurt you" he answered simply and smiled at me.

"Y-you don't want to hurt me?" I laughed and pointed at myself.

He nodded.

"but what do you think and do to me now James?, you didn't just hurt me, you also beat me, it's like you deprived me of life" my knees were weak.

My tears continue to fall.

"You don't understand me, Archi",

"Because it's hard for you to understand James!!!" I felt like I ran out of strength all of a sudden and fell to the floor. I squatted.

I washed my face and looked up to stop the tears from falling.

I saw James stand up straight and run to my place, he was still thinking twice about hugging me, but in the end he decided to hug me.

I buried my face in his shoulder, I couldn't control my emotions anymore, I don't know but I also wanted to hug him.

"If you can't take the pain anymore, can you give it to me so it doesn't hurt?" he whispered to me.

I just cried more and beat his chest.

"You're annoying, you're so hard to love James." I continued punching his chest.

"Can you stop loving me, Archi?" he asked and smiled bitterly at me.

I just looked at him.

"Can you love me again even, even for a day, month, and year, until he takes me?" he looked up and smiled.

I do not know what to say.

"I promise I'll make it up, I'll make you feel sorry for all the things I did to you. Please Archi, love me again" she shed tears and bowed "Even if I'm gone, I just want to make it up to you, kara" when he said that, I don't know why my tears started to flow.

I hugged him.

Fragile if fragile.

But, that doesn't mean I forgive him, it doesn't mean we're back together.

We are gone.

Maybe he will just take care of her, and give her.

As I hugged her, and she hugged me too, I couldn't stop looking at the change in the color of her skin.

His brown skin was mixed with redness, I quickly loosened my hug from him when I felt the sudden heat of his body.

"Ja--james, are you okay?" I asked worriedly.

He nodded but didn't speak, he didn't even look at me.

I grabbed his face and pointed it at me.

And my eyeballs almost fell when he slowly buried his head in my chest.

He fainted and lost consciousness.

"James-----james---!!!!! what are you!"

I started panicking, not knowing what to do.

I touched his pulse, it no longer closes, I can no longer feel its breathing.

I just keep on shouting, my emotions dominate me so he doesn't know what I should do.

I shook him but nothing happened.

All I know that happened next was that I just screamed and screamed.

Even though my vision was blurry, I still looked at James' face. He is no longer breathing, all I can see on his face is red and white.

James is dead.

I can only see myself looking through the big glass in the hospital, and I can see the doctors and nurses working at James' place, where he is lying.

Many wires were attached to him, some nurses looked at their watches, while the doctors continued to revive James.

Other Doctors are still shaking their heads, and others are just getting wet in the face, and there are others who are just praying on the side.

Before I could even see James's face, he was struggling with what drugs were being injected into him. Even though it's closed and unconscious it's like I'm the one feeling that pain.

My tears flowed, and before I even held the glass, they blocked a green cloth there, and since then I didn't know and I didn't see what happened next.

He only saw my own self repeatedly walking in the corridor of the hospital, there were others looking at me, but I didn't care about that.

Because what is important about the disease now is that James survives.

sis are you okay?!" I looked at that familiar voice, I was now sitting in the long chair of the hospital.

"Ad-adrian, I don't know what to do" I said, I didn't stand up because my knees were still shaking.

He sat next to me and hugged me tightly.

Jeremy was my classmate when we were in college, and apart from Jeremiah. He is also one of my best friends.

I hugged him back too, I couldn't face it alone.

"Everything will be okay, sis," he raised his hand behind my back.

"what if not?" I want to cry but I think I've run out of tears so nothing comes out.

"Why are you so negative? I know James, he's brave and strong, he won't give up, obviously?" Adrian said and faced me, it was obvious from his face that he wanted to ask a lot but, he just chose to remain silent.

That's what I want too, I don't want to answer the questions he already knows. Even though I didn't tell Adrian what happened between James and me, I know he's already heard a lot about it.

The doctors and nurses haven't come out of the emergency room for several hours, that's what worries me.

He just looked at me for a few minutes, I knew he wanted to ask a question so I looked at him too.

"Don't do it now Adrian" I said and stood up when I saw the door knob of the emergency room turning.

I met the male Doctor, the uniform he was wearing suited him well, it also looked good. He is tall and has a pointed nose.

"How are you related to the patient?" with his deep voice, just by his stance you know he's a professional.

I looked at Adrian who was waiting for my answer.

It took a few minutes and I still didn't know what to answer.

What am I really James?

"Jowa po----"

"My friend" I said fully and stood up straight.

I bit my lip and looked at Adrian next to me, who I was simply pinching on the side.

I have nothing to fear from what I answered.

Because that's the truth.

James and I are gone.

The Doctor nodded and looked directly into my eyes, as if I ran out of strength while meeting his sharp eyes.

I know what it means.

He shook his head.

He shook his head and looked at his expensive watch.

He shook his head.

He shook his head and looked at his expensive watch.

That's not true. It's not possible!!!" I shouted and sat on the floor.

Can not.

"Your friend is breathing, and for now he should stay in the emergency room, so he can be observed more" He said while looking at me deeply.

My jaw dropped as I looked at him. How could I act like a fool?

"Your friend is strong, I firmly believe that he will not give up and fight the pain he was facing" he smiled at me "Excuse me" he let go and turned away.

While I was sitting on the floor like a fool.

I quickly wiped my tears because there were already many people looking at me, Adrian was simply laughing while pointing at me.

I looked at him deeply.

"I hope you know how to wait, before you become over acting," he said laughing and immediately entered the emergency room.

How about gay?

I got up from sitting on the floor, I was about to enter the emergency room when it opened quickly and it was my friend Adrian.

"I was kicked out, it's not even allowed to enter inside" he said with a frown, my laughter immediately echoed in the hallway of the hospital.

"I hope no one is stupid" I whispered.

I just smiled to sink in what the Doctor told me, and I'm so thankful that James didn't give up and he fought.

Adrian and I can only see ourselves sitting in the long hospital chair and waiting for the Doctor to say.

I quickly looked up when I heard quick hugs, not just one but many.

I stood up quickly when I saw who it was, and as quickly as I stood up, a hand landed on my face.

I held on to it.

"You are worthless" he shouted at me.

I could see Adrian standing up immediately and I knew he was angry, I remembered then that he didn't want others to hurt me so he was the one who fights those who hurt me physically.

I immediately stopped him when he tried to step and went to the place when he slapped me.

"How did you do this to my son Archi?!" he's already spitting on me, many are curious about what's going on.

"NO-no, I don't have ----"

"No?!, you're the reason why my son is acting like this? instead of taking medicine, he's drinking alcohol just because of you!" what he said penetrated my heart, so he already knew that James was sick? and the bad thing is that I don't know anything.

"I-I don't know what you're talking about" I don't know why my tears started falling little by little.

I don't know for what reason, whether it's because James didn't even tell me early, Or because I didn't even ask him.

"He drinks alcohol just to get rid of his problems you,,, are you so hard to persuade why are you acting like your son died? let me tell you, you are not the only one I lost Archi, as well as my son, so don't act like you're the only one who feels pain, you're too selfish" he said directly and looked at me sharply.

"Pain?!" I yelled back and tears welled up in my eyes.

"Don't yell at me like that Archi, Impolite" he said and his eyes darkened even more.

James' mommy didn't agree with the love between the two of us then, so James decided to leave their house and rent a condo for the two of us.

"Who!!? I was really the one who was impolite huh?" I stepped closer to him.

"That's right" said James' daddy, who had been restraining his wife.

"Mommy, enough please, Brother Archi, many people are already listening to the conversation, you can talk about it calmly, without anyone else hearing, It's too confidential" defended James' sister.

"Why, don't you want people to know who is the more impolite, worthless, and careless mother among us?" even though my tears continued to flow, I was not moved by the sharp gaze in James' mommy's eyes.

"Who do you think you are, to talk to me like that!, get out of here!!!" he was about to slap me when I caught his hand and it just stayed in the air.

I looked at him darkly.

"I'm Archi Nicolai Dahmer remember that, there's no need for him to send me away because, I'm leaving" I don't know where I got the strength to violently let go of his hand.

I saw the shock of all the inquisitors and quickly turned away from them, while walking quickly and dropping my tears quickly.

I'm going where I don't even know.

Sorry James.

I can't give it to you.

goodbye

To Be Continued...