Chapter 3 The Beginning

"Argh! I can't sleep!" I exhaled helplessly while holding a cup of hot coffee.

My shoulders were dropped in despair as I looked out the window of my bestfriend's appartment from the fifth floor.

Down there, people were busy passing back and forth, probably catching up for their planned weekend dates with their special someone, who'd actually just hurt them someday.

"I doubt it'll hurt if I fall from this floor at my state now." I mumbled before taking a sip of coffee.

My head was aching, and it felt like it had been cracking for almost a minute already.

I went drinking again last night. I couldn't rmember exactly what happened or how I managed to get to my friend's apartment. Gladly I made it.

Yeah! It would take me some time before I could fully firm up my decision to let go of Dein.

I have spent so much worthwhile time with him. Happy times indeed. I even thought of a future with him. So, letting go will take more than a hundred bottles.

I'm not really sure if I could let go of all those things I have been wanting my whole life. To settle with someone. Be with someone, for better or worse.

"ARGH!!!" I grunted as a sharp, stabbing pain throbbed again.

Then a knock startled me.

"What?" I suddenly shouted.

"Claverez is here."

And the door swung open.

"Dani... why do you keep on calling him by his last name?" I pouted at my best friend.

"Whatever, Thiffey Stella Del Mundo. I won't be calling that man by his name as long as you keep on sleeping anywhere, getting drunk, forgetting you have a daughter, and the fact that you own a three-story building, yet you choose to let yourself astray. That AS**OLE!" Dani snapped her eyes at me and slammed the door behind her.

"Dani, please. I'm sorry." I sank on the bed after putting down the coffee and stared blankly at the ceiling.

"You don't owe me anything or have made a mistake against me. It's to yourself that you owe so much. You kept hurting yourself." Dani walked towards the bed and sat beside me.

I felt warm tear slowly flowing down my cheeks as I turned my gaze to Dani.

"Dani," I barely said.

"What Thiffey?" Dani looked sad.

I got up and embraced her. I'm glad to have her in my life.

"I'm sorry!" I breathed between my silent sobs.

I could feel her shoulders twitching but she just tapped my back and pulled away from our hug.

"Just go." Dani smiled bitterly while she stared at me intently.

I fixed myself and went running down the stairs to the waiting area.

I missed him. But no one could love me more than me.

"Hi." I greeted him. He was busy with his phone. Probably that b*tch again.

"Hi." He answered back as he stood up from the couch.

"Where are we going today?"

"Thiff, I'm not here to..."

"Dein, let's just make it a good day," I interrupted him. My eyes moved unsteadily, afraid to look at his eyes. "Even if it's the last one. I don't want us to end on bad terms." I touched his left arm to assure him.

He smiled at me and I lifted my gaze and I could see from his eyes that he's just going to say goodbye and maybe ask for forgiveness.

We went to the mall. The place we had our first date, amd unfortunately, it turned out to be our closure place.

Sh*t. Suddenly, I felt something surge up and get stuck in my throat.

We ate and kept quiet for a while.

We were walking in the alley near the kid's toystore when Dein grabbed me all of a sudden.

"Hey, this will look great on Vri." He excitedly picked a dress and cheerfully held a cute red dress showing it to me.

Sh*t again.

Don't do this. I'm ready now. Please don't make me remember all the reasons why I loved you during those times without the fightings.

"Ah yeah. That's perfect," I barely spoke as I took a deep gulp.

We brought the dress to the cashier, and he paid for it.

We stepped out, and he stopped.

"Why?" I asked.

"I'm sorry," he said. "I was just so hurt. I felt so betrayed." He exhaled and held my hand to hand over the box with the red dress for my daughter.

"But you hurt me too. Not just once." My lips twitched uncontrollably.

"I know. And I'm really sorry."

We smiled, and he grabbed me and took me to the home appliances department.

"What are we doing here?" I can't help but to look at our hands.

"Remember this?" He let go of my hand and played with some of the cups.

"Hm. We planned to buy some when we get married," I answered.

I'm feeling sick.

"Come on. Look at these bedsheets. The fabric would be perfect for you." He walked to the bedroom station.

I can't do this anymore.

I threw myself at him and hugged him tightly from the back. "Let's fix this. Let's fix us."

I don't care about those people around me seeing me at this pathetic moment.

I felt him inhale deeply.

Then he slowly peeled away my arms around his waist and turned around. "Thiff, I'm sorry. But I'm trying to make things work between me and Hina. I just wanted to make sure you wouldn't bother her anymore. Just for our baby. Save her from stress."

"AH. Haha! I'm sorry for a while; I forgot. I promise. You won't be hearing anything from me. Well, good luck to the both of you." I turned quickly and hurriedly walked away.

Stupid Thiffey!

As always!

ARGHHHHHHH!

My tears then started pouring out of my eyes. I could hardly see the way out of the department store.

Someone. Please! Someone save me!

I tried to call Dani, but I guess she's at work.

I can't call Narih.

My eyes were blurry. My tears occupied my eyes perfectly.

Then a number was calling.

I stopped and thought for a while about who it could be.

"Hello?" I answered the call.

I was silent for a moment when I heard who was calling.

And after several moments of excessive gasping...

"I'll wait for you at Vrianni, Room 404. I'll send the location."

***

I sat on a chair beside a huge bed while both of my legs racked up and down as I wait for someone I barely knew.

A soft knock startled me and I turned my head sharply towards the door.

My heart was pounding. My head was beating badly.

The knock came again and a message popped on my phone.

[I'm knocking. – Unknown number]

I stood up and walked trembling towards the door. My soles and palms are ice cold.

"H..."

"Finally!" Kenzo immediately swooped my lips in a deep kiss and lifted me up before kicking the door shut behind us.

His...lips! I just couldn't pull away! He's breathe is beyond warm that sent shivers throughout my body.

"Wait!" I pulled away from our kiss breathlessly and looked down at him.

"What? Something wrong?" He looked worried.

"Ah, actually, I wanted to say hi first. But, let's just continue with our business." I cupped his face and pulled it closer to me and locked our lips.

"Hmmm!" he softly moaned as we indulged in a deep kiss.

His soft moans made unusual music to my ears.

Slowly, I felt at ease as his hands stroked my back upward and downward as I clung tightly to him.

His voice. It's giving me unusual calmness.

Our kiss grew faster and deeper, our tongue played in our mouth harmoniously.

He tightened his grip on my thighs wrapped around his waste as he pinned me against the wall beside the bed.

We broke away from our kiss and he stared at me.

I stared back at him and let out soft giggles.

"Having doubts?" I pinched his nose.

"Never!" He started kissing me down the neck.

"Hmm. You smell so good."

"Thanks?"I awkwardly said.

He stopped and stared at me again. "Let me make you smile everyday."

Then he started kissing me again.

I grinned and nodded in our kiss as I held his face and kissed him back hungrily.

"I'd like to take a risk," I said between our kisses.

He took off my dress and everything while he carefully let me down. I took off his in return and my eyes widened.

"Like it?" he asked naughtily, panting excessively.

"I love it!" I giggled naughtily while looking down and pushed him down to the bed.

I positioned myself above him and explored my hands on his bare chests.

"You're so hot." He whispered sexily as he fixed his gaze up to me.

I couldn't get enough of his eyes and mustach.

"I know!" I smirked as I clapped twice and the lighting turned dim.

I bent down and started kissing him. "Let the real game, begin!" I teased him.

And I gasped for pleasure as he grasped and gently gave a peck on both of my breasts.

It might be ridiculous but I found his gesture sweet!

***

It was a long night. I found myself in the tub the next morning, smiling. Kenzo left an hour ago.

We had three rounds until morning. We did have fun. We played cards and had some drinks in between.

I grabbed my phone and faced-time Narih.

"Hey! Guess what?" I giggled.

"WHAT?"

I love her expression as always.

"The kid, remember?"

"Wow, no Dein ha! What's up with the kid?"

"He's a fighter. And a biggie!"

"YOUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!" she panicked from the other line.

"Don't worry! We are just having fun!"

"Whatever Thiffey Del Mundo. I know your eyes." She loosened up.

"Ok, that's all. Catch up with you later!"

I cut down the call and got shocked.

"You busy today?"

"I...thought..." I was not able to answer when the kid stepped in the tub with me.

He was smiling beautifully.

"I heard there was a good bar by the bay area, wanna go check it out?" Kenzo asked.

I nodded and before I knew it he launched himself to me.

Gosh his endless stamina!