"Pshh, no." he answered and flopped down on the table, he was sleep deprived again and this is what it's like when you're an intern.
After a few minutes, the doctors and even the interns arrived. He adjusted his seat and finished the rest of the coffee.
Even the Executive director came and when they both looked at each other he smiled sweetly at her but the Executive ignored him, his smile turned into a grimace.
The last to enter the conference room was their senior doctor. No other than Doctor Villarreal.
Their eyes met but the female doctor also looked away to continue walking, she passed by his behavior but he ignored her.
The meeting started, there were many questions and many explanations and everything was about the patients, about the work here at the hospital. There was also a debate between the two doctors, Russel's neck almost hurt because he was looking at the two doctors who were debating about how the procedure in question should be performed.
"Whoah, that's bad, I feel like there's going to be a war between the two of them," laughed Doctor Cyril as they left the conference room.
The meeting was over and they all left the conference room one by one.
"Stop, maybe someone will hear you. Those are our seniors too," said Doctor Jase weakly.
He, on the other hand, laughed softly at the conversation between the two, gossipy doctors.
"What Doctor Cyril said is true, I am almost dizzy from what they are talking about," said Doctor Zian during the conversation between the two.
He was grabbed by the neck. "I have a sore neck, they are dizzying to look at," he complained and frowned. He heard the three laugh because of what he said.
But they stopped when they looked behind him, he saw Doctor Zian's slight snort as if signaling to the person behind him so he quickly turned around to see Doctor Villarreal, their strict senior doctor, approaching.
"That's enough talk, let's go to the ER, there are many patients," he told them as they approached.
"Doctor Villarreal, your surgery is scheduled. After lunch," because of what Doctor Jase said, the female doctor looked at him.
"Okay, Intern you will come with me," he said while seriously looking at her.
"What?" he asked as both eyes rolled.
"You will come with me, you will be my assistant inside the operating room. I hope you won't let me down," calm but the authority was there, you couldn't not obey.
He swallowed and grimaced. "I can't. I haven't been inside the operating room yet, I can't be your assistant, your operation will be failed if I will come with you."
Both of Krist's eyebrows slightly crossed at what he said. "Are you trying to disobey me, your senior?"
He blinked and quickly shook his head. "You know my reason, Doctor Villarreal. I can't, I'm just a lowly intern who is afraid to hold a scalpel and afraid of a lot of blood."
Krist raised an eyebrow because of what he said. "You will not hold the scalpel but me. You will just my assistant not the one who leads the operation."
He winced even more because of what he said. "But even so, I still can't. I can't assist you. My hand will shake."
The three doctors who were with them both kept their mouths shut, no one had the intention of speaking or interrupting the two's conversation.
Russel knows how hard it is to be the assistant doctor inside the operating room.
...
FINALLY he had to follow the orders of his senior doctor. He grimaced as he remembered the conversation between the two of them earlier while they were in front of the three doctors.
He smiled at the patient in front of him who was now giving him a bad look, he needed to draw blood for a vital check up.
He breathed a sigh of relief when he finished what he was doing, tidied up and said goodbye to the patient. He went to the nurse station and there he saw his doctor friends gossiping with the nurses.
He walked closer to them and threw both arms around Doctor Jase and Zian causing both of them to be surprised.
"Aishh, you punk! You startled us, we thought it was Doctor Villarreal who walked away," Doctor Zian breathed after he spoke and was about to attack him but he didn't continue either, he laughed and removed both arms that were around the two .
"Speaking of Doctor Villarreal, he's getting closer so stop those three." Doctor Cyril saw the three of them, the three of them quickly looked at what Doctor Cyril was looking at and confirmed that what he was saying was true, he quickly turned around to face a nurse and spoke to her, acting as if he was asking something important .
The three did the same, pretending to be discussing something important about the patients and what should be done.
...
It was already lunch, he didn't know how to eat peacefully while thinking about what would happen after lunch.
He was like a soldier who was afraid to enter the war, he was shaking just thinking about entering the operating room.
What if because of his sloppiness the patient they are going to operate on will be harmed?
"Chill brother, you should be happy because Doctor Villarreal hired you as an assistant in the operation," said Doctor Zian causing him to receive a slap from Doctor Jase.
"You know Russel's reason why he reacted like that," Doctor Jase said to Doctor Zian.
"Why don't you tell Doctor Villarreal that you don't want to because you're afraid," Doctor Cyril suggested to him.
He sighed before putting the spoon down on the plate. "I already told that to her, I told her when we talked."
"What is Doctor Villarreal thinking and he wants you to be the assistant in the operating room, he knows what an assistant does when he comes in the operating room," asked Doctor Zian in surprise, shrugging his shoulders he only answered because even he didn't know the reason for it.
When they finished eating, he immediately said goodbye to them. He intends to go to the female doctor to talk to her.
...
When he entered his office and he caught him eating, he entered without permission so when he saw him, Krist's eyes widened.
The female doctor immediately chewed what was in her mouth before drinking water and gave her a bad look.
"Don't you know to knock before entering?" he asked her, she just smiled and sat in the visitor's chair, the table between them.
"Sorry about that, because the door is open," he answered and was about to take Krist's dish when he hit her lightly on the hand causing her to lower her own hand.
"What are you doing here? Do you need something?" he asked her seriously before continuing the meal.
He sighed and adjusted his seat before facing Krist. "Doctor Villarreal, you can choose Doctor Zian, Doctor Jase or maybe Doctor Cyril as your assistant, right? They are doctors and they are often in the operating room. So why did you choose me? I'm just an intern and I don't know anything about that." He gave a long explanation here, trying to understand his situation.
"The problem of the patient I am going to operate on is minor and there is no problem even though my assistant is an intern," he simply replied to her as if he had nothing to explain.
"What is the reason you chose me as your assistant?" emphatic but the apology was there because he was still facing and talking to a senior doctor.
"You're smart Russel, what do you think and why did I choose you? If that's the case, I can choose one doctor out of the three. You answer your own question." he looked at her for a moment before finishing the rest of the food and drinking water.
He stopped and stared at Krist, at Doctor Villarreal. The female doctor is strict but even so he knows that she is kind, the female doctor is also a good doctor. He did not understand why he was simply helping him face what he was afraid of.
"Are you trying to help me?" he asked softly while still staring at it.
The female doctor shook her head. "No, you're my intern and it's my job to train you to become a good and a great doctor."
...
He was washing his hands when Doctor Villarreal came to his side to wash his hands as well because then they had to enter the operating room because the operation was about to begin.
Russel was nervous, he felt like his heart was going to give out because of the excessive nervousness he felt.
"Do your best to help me and that's enough," he looked at Krist who was still washing his hands. He was not looking at her when he spoke.
"What if-?" before he finished what he had to say, Krist faced him causing him to stop what he was saying, he was looking at him seriously and his face was emotionless.
"I said do your best and listen to everything I say inside the operating room do everything I tell you, if you want to become a doctor learn on how to face your fear, don't listen to your mind but listen to your heart," he explained to her, as usual he was calm but there was authority in his speech.
"You can't make your dreams come true if you just stand there and be afraid, you need to move and step forward." he added before leaving her completely and walking inside the operating room.
...
"Scalpel," Doctor Villarreal ordered the nurse who was with them inside the operating room. When the nurse handed the scalpel to Krist, it started cutting the patient's abdomen causing blood to come out and something to splash on him.
He immediately ordered to hand over the next one to be used for the operation, he was shaking and nervous while looking at the scattered blood, but when he looked up to see Doctor Krist, he was stunned.
He could clearly see the determination in the operation being performed, his hands moved quickly to stop the bleeding.
He looked at her while continuing to work. "Move, Russell!" he firmly looked at him and ordered him.
He returned to his senses and straightened up, everything Doctor Villarreal said he listened and understood, he ignored the many bloods, he also observed how Krist's hands moved, what he ordered him to do he followed as if his hands were moving spontaneously to do what he was commanded.
Until the end of the operation, nothing went wrong, he didn't fail. They did not fail.
They walked out of Doctor Villarreal's operating room one after the other, he still couldn't believe it. How did he manage to stay in the operating room to help the doctor?
"I did!" he exclaimed in disbelief, he didn't tremble or just stand still while looking at a lying patient but he did something, he did something. "I didn't fail."
"Tsk!" he stopped and looked at Doctor Villarreal who now finished washing his hands and removed the surgical mask he was wearing. "Stop whispering there, you're like a bee."
He grimaced at what he said but immediately smiled as he approached Krist when he placed his palm on her face. "What?" he asked.
"Take off your surgical gloves and wash yourself, you're carrying the germs." he seemed to complain to her in disgust causing her to laugh weakly.
"Okay, doctor boss." he answered and followed by a nod.